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Jada Pinkett Smith

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“Yan I There was a light that was stirring up for him at that time because of emancipation, and he and Chris have their own history”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“You know, it's a really complicated moment. a really complex moment. I would say yes and no in a certain manner, you know? But I definitely think in his way. But it was so much more, it wasn't about me. That's why it's complex, right? It's like it was about a lot more than just. A lot more than just me. That's what I know. You know what I mean?”
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“Yes and I was surprised at how much I knew I was going to get blamed, but like I didn't think that it was going to be, I mean, it was insane, you know, it was like, wow. But I knew it was going to be a storm.”
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“I thought it was a skit, and then I realized it wasn't, but I didn't think that he actually made contact with Chris. Look like he ducked it.”
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“It would have penetrated and for me to really look at that part of myself. If it hadn't been for how the people around me reacted. I don't really care about public in that way like most people do. I don't whatever because I understand the chaos and the just absurdity of all of that. But people who love me. I needed that mirror to see what That place of healing that needed to happen in me, in the dynamic within myself.”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“I don't If I didn't put that out, I wouldn't have seen. That next place of healing that I needed. Because I can take so much. Discomfort. It wasn't until I saw how the people around me were affected. I mean my mother, my kids, my friends, people like me. They were like, how could you do this? And I was like, Well, I just wanted to end everything, you know. Will wasn't ready for the world to know that we weren't together and that we were living separate lives and I just took it because I just wanted to stop. I just wanted to end. Will like. Oh my mother was like what are you? She was like, you need to get your ass in therapy She was like, You are co-dependent as hell. You know, and everybody was just so, and then how people that love me so much were affected by that time I don't think”
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“It's like surrendering, you know, for me. Also surrendering to a higher power. And that's a constant. That's every day. I have to remind myself and deepen my surrender to a power far greater than myself.”
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“He knows I'm curious. He knows I'm a seeker. That was divine And so I went and talked to them, and I was like, hey, is your dad in town? And then their dad came and I talked to him. And I was like, I need that. And then the universe opened up a door for me. to have my own ceremony. Four days of like intense. Ceremony, but that's when I got to see that cycle of self-hatred. I was like, this is you. These are your thoughts. This is how you feel about yourself. This is the problem. And so the medicine really showed me. self hatred I was in and it helped me Get out of it.”
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“His friend's father did ayahuasca, and they happened to be talking about it and they talked to me about it. Jaden came in the kitchen. He was like, you got to sit down with Moises and Mateo, you got to hear about this experience, ma, that their dad had.”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“That I really feel like that sometimes when we get into these states of Wanting to die Know for those of us who have had like suicidal thoughts and what have you, sometimes it is chemical. That's a different thing. I think mine was more psychological. Something is asking to die, but not you. It's a different way of. Looking at things Right, and so, and it is an extreme In which Had to get out of my cycle of self-hatred. In a psycho self-hatred that I didn't even know. Because we're unconscious of it. So the mind is tricking us, you know what I mean? We got to be careful with this. This isn't as. Reliable, as we think, you know. And so, um, But I was in a cycle of self-hatred. And it wasn't until thank God for my son that I was, you know, he introduced me to”
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“No, I'm saying I was looking to the point where I was like, big sir, I knew exactly the route to drive. Is this really narrow route, and sometimes it gets really foggy there at night? And I'm not making it out of that drop. I remember driving that. One time going to Big Sur, because I was looking like here, like on my hull, and I was like, these drops aren't gonna, like, I need a drop that I'm not making it back. I don't want to be disfigured. I want out. And I knew I had to make it look like an accident because I did not want my kids to think that I had committed suicide. Yeah, I was in a lot of pain. I was in a really, really dark place. And when you're in that place, you just can't see your way out And you really think, I really thought something was really wrong with me because. What I was feeling wasn't matching.”
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“And even then there wasn't a lot of conversation around mental health. And so I was just like, fuck it. I can't keep doing this. I want out And it was just a really really dark time.”
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“I was like, I made it I made And even that was like so hard. I mean Know, I was talking to my mother this morning because she just read the book, and she said, I can't believe you didn't talk about how you woke up every day crying. Yeah, and I was like, you know, Ma, I just, I think it was enough to tell people that I was looking for a cliff to drive off of. And what she brought up was like, She knew I was unhappy, but she didn't know why. Wasn't that people around me didn't know that I was really unhappy. It's just that everybody believed what I believed, which is why it was so hard for me to talk about, which is like, you've got everything. What are you unhappy about? Right. And so that's how I was feeling. You've got everything. What are you unhappy about And that was just, I had so much shame around that because I didn't understand.”
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“Yeah. And I think. It's not a healthy idea. Just not healthy And it's not true, and nobody can live up to that. Which is why. I've been dismantling that need to be perfect for myself, and that's been a painful ride, but I've”
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“Walk what I call the exiled lands. In those exiled lands are going into the crevices of the You know, those places within that were holding me back from myself. All the fears, all of the false information and false ideas of what life is and what a marriage is supposed to be and who I was supposed to be, what a wife is like, all of it. Perfectionism. And then I just went off to be completely imperfect. And took joy in that.”
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“Not well, Not well because, you know, there can be truth, but you know what I'm saying? It's like how we Know, I think it was very true, but I think at that particular point of time, I was just still really resentful. I was just like, you know, oh, so I helped you get your happiness. Now you just going, you know. Me to the curb, and you know, I got to do it all on my own now, you know. But that's the truth. I had to do it on my own You know, just like he did. You got to do it on your own. Gotta do it on your own. Gotta do it on your own. And a lot of that's what this is about and me detoxing from. Needing fulfillment and validation outside of myself Detoxing from needing it from will, my marriage, my family. Career, like I had to get to the bare bones of Jada.”
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“There's no right or wrong. Everybody's always trying to find the good guy or bad guy in people's stories. There's no good guys or bad guys. We're all wounded trying to figure this shit out. You know, and so it took me a long time to realize it is not his responsibility. Make you happy He can't. It's impossible. But it took me forever hard headed, stubborn, you know, because that romantic idea. And that's why I talk about checking the boxes. Like, I did everything I was supposed to do You get to have your dream. How come I'm not having mine? And that's because Will was doing what he wanted to do. He was making himself happy.”
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“He wouldn't have been able to accomplish it anyway because if I'm not connected to myself, if I don't have a good relationship with me? There's nothing he can do. So I was gonna be asked out anyway. You know what I'm saying? So it's like that's part of the journey.”
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“Because it's true. You know, it was like. I felt as though at that time All right, if I want to help you do all of those things, I'm here to help you with that, right? And I'm like, and in return I should get a bit of what I want, which is connection. Right. And so you just for me, just giving and giving and giving and giving and giving and forgiving, forgetting, well, not even forgetting, not realizing that. I was abandoning myself. In the hopes that if I just keep pouring into this, if I just keep pouring into him, if I keep pouring into his dream, I'm going to eventually get what I want. And that's a false idea in so many ways, right? In so many of us do that. If Will looked back and was trying to give me whatever the hell it was I was asking for.”
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“And it's not listen When intimacy makes us have to look at our shit. Right? It's easy to go Piss you off. I got you this diamond ring. I got you this, you know, beautiful bag. I'm going to take you on this trip. It's like, right? But like real emotional intimacy. We gotta deal with our stuff. A lot of stuff comes up there. That's where connection and love and true happiness. True fulfillment is what's going on in our inner landscape.”
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“Well, you know, I wouldn't call it toxic. I'm always careful with this word toxic that we're going to throw it around, right? Because we're all so wounded.”
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“Yeah, we'll connect later. It's like, what? What kind of foolishness is that? You know what I mean? And I'm going to tell you like this. I bet you when you're on your deathbed, you're not going to think about it. Whatever it is you're trying to accomplish and achieve. What do you think you're going to think about most when you're on your deathbed? How you loved and how you loved? No?”
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“Yeah, three decades, okay? Three decades. That's what we'll get to that, we'll get you. Doesn't have to be that. Do it now”
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“How do we balance it like yin and yang, everything about life is balance? I just want you to know that I just want you to know that because as couples we get into these power struggles no my way is right no my way is right well if you didn't have this you know it gets into all of that And it's like stop. It's not about anybody being right or wrong How do you get the balance of it? That's it, right? And so It took Will and I three decades.”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Will's, you know, was very much like yours. It's like, I want to work. I want to work hard so that you can have everything in the world that you'd ever want. You know, you're not going to need for anything, right? And my love language was like, but I just want you to be here with me. I don't need all of that stuff. I want to look in your eyes and, you know, feel your love and feel your protection here with me. It was like that connection. I wanted to feel like I wanted to make a masterpiece out of our connection, you know, and he wanted to make a masterpiece out of, you know, the life itself. And neither is wrong Neither is wrong, and that's what I had to learn That's where we've come to now, and understanding. Neither one of those wants are wrong. How do you balance them? 'Cause it can't be one or the other.”
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“Deep. Because Heartbreak is this beautiful scene in Harbreak, which is like it breaks you open. Breaks you open, and you got two places that you can go. You can go into the deep wells of darkness. Or you can go into the deep wells of light. And I've been to both And I've learned. I ain't trying to be over here no more. You know what I mean? So I always use heartbreak. Discontent, search for bright light. And beautiful blessings within them.”
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“Yeah. So There are blessings in pain. You just gotta. Know that to be true and wait for that door to open. You know, and that's just one tiny example of like. The blessings that I've found in a lot of the loss that I've had in my life in general.”
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“Having all the different experiences that I've had as part of It gives me the opportunity to join people in a certain manner. You know, and in really powerful places, you know, like I have beautiful friendship with, um, Lauren London and she is the widow of the And because of the loss that I went through with Pak. I could reach out to her, and I could go hay. Anytime you need anything Anytime you need to talk, I'm here. And Lawrence, quite like me, defenses. You know what I mean? But I just kept walking closer and closer. And I just say all that to say that We've been able to meet each other in a certain place because of The type of losses we've had. That can really create. Beautiful connection. You feel me?”
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“Yeah. that existential disappointment. just life being. What it is like grieving bat, grieving. Like she, in a She went from this like happy Person and like having this condition. Right? And so I just sometimes go. This is when I just have to reconcile with God. Like, wow, God, like, you really be doing some stuff, like, you know what I mean? And it's like,”
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“In the same picture We have a tissue. You give nice hugs Yeah, that's a Yeah, I lost Maxine and Pak back to back. So I like to, you know, this picture to be flanked by them. I lost them back. Yeah, she was like, my sister, you know. I met Maxine on Jason's lyric. Became And she lived in Canada, and so She wanted to come to Hollywood and Make a career for a self. So I told her that she could come live with me. So she came to live with me. She feel as though she I had a misdiagnosis that she had some kind of thyroid disorder. Really. disrupted her. And she ended up. jumping off her mother's balcony she committed suicide. That was really tough”
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“Yeah, we look like brother and sister because that's what we were. Yeah, he came to Thanksgiving to spend Thanksgiving with me.”
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“Yeah, I was on my way, and I You know, Fay was like no rush, he's going to be fine. He had his fiancee there with him and his family, and She was like so Come after your trip in New York. So I was on my way to him My girlfriend Fawn came to the door and I knew as soon as I saw her face that he was gone Oh, I know that picture. Yep, that was Thanksgiving. He came to LA to spend Thanksgiving with me. And we were at one of my friend's house.”
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“That was the last time I spoke to him. That was the last time I spoke to him. That was the last time I spoke to him, and you know what's crazy? Meant absolutely nothing. It meant absolutely nothing. And so that's the test I always have. I'm like, okay, you're in this beef with somebody Will this beef matter on your deathbed? And then right away, I'm like, nope, let me give him a call. You know what I'm saying? That's my test.”
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“Know because he survived so much, even so much that people don't know about, you know. But just like I say in the book, I'm like, man Don't do Don't do it. Don't hold on to that prideful part of yourself with someone you really care about. Like, no, he gonna have to call me. You know, it's like, nope.”
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“Yeah We had a huge Huge it was one of the biggest fights we had ever had. And it was about how he had been living. And I really. At that time, you know, really had to. Let him know my position, that I just felt like Know where he was sitting with everything was just It wasn't going to end up well. A magnanimous, I mean, it was. Beyond the two of us just at each other. And I was just like, fuck that. I'm not calling him this time. He's going to have to call me. He was way out of line. So I really dug my hills, heels in the ground in regards to like I let my pride, I let my ego come in. I really took for granted that he would be living forever. Like he had already survived so much. Like it never, like, I never, I looked at Pac as being invincible at this point.”
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“Like, I was glad. That an arrest had been made, this was someone who We had known had been in the car he had done. Some street interviews about it, you know Um And I was just hoping, I was like, well, I hope they're bringing him in because we're going to get some other. Questions answered. So Know, my hope is that we'll get. More questions answered.”
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“Oh yeah. It feels like I just came back from seeing Pac at Rikers and I had to leave him there. Just like yesterday. But I'm also in a very raw place in my life right now as I'm thawing out, as I'm dismantling my defenses.”
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“That's why he was in Rikers. When I went to go see him in Rikers and Rikers is actually. That's a really Danamore might be where they put terrorists. I remember going to see him there in He was in such bad shape, you know. And the Rikers, like, Dana Mora, yeah, terrorists are there, but Far more humane conditions than I would say Rikers.”
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“While he's in jail, what do you have here? Yeah, now as I slip from grace and the world has turned against me, a few claim to have love for me, but once again you show your love. After deep reflection and spiritual awakening I have come to realize the friend, love and soulmate was there all the time. I have not seen or felt from anywhere or anyone the intensity and loyalty that you have shown me. That is why I want to commit myself to you. I want to marry you.”
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“he hit me up he had just Sheree had just sent him divorce papers and he decides to call me in. Of course, me not knowing anything about marriage, thinking that marriage, you know, breakup of a marriage is like breaking up with a boyfriend. He's like, you know, where are you? And I'm like, I'm in Baltimore, you know, renovating my house. And he's like, are you seeing anybody? And I'm like, no, he's like, Good. You seeing me now? And I was like, what once again that kind of bold, you know, approach? I was just like, oh, clutch my pearls a little bit. So he was like, you know, call me when you get back to LA. So when I got back to LA, I called him and we went out on our first date.”
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“I did. I went back to Baltimore because I was. Going to continue working but not live in LA anymore. And so I bought a farmhouse. I bought a little farmhouse on the I want to say it was about six acres, maybe six or nine acres, if I remember correctly. And it was I was going to build a life there for myself in a little quiet corner. And I was like, all right, if I need to audition, I'll either go to New York or I can just fly back and forth from LA.”
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“I can't let anybody know We're going to keep this moving because that's what we do. Yeah, we just at that time Going to take a break because you know I'm having I'm depressed What? At that time that seemed absolutely ridiculous”
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“Hell no. Absolutely not. Because that's what we do. We keep it moving, right? And so I was like, I got the help that I need. I got a doctor and I'm on Prozac. Right. So I'm like, okay, I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. And.”
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“And just keep it moving No, it's gonna catch you. You can deal with it or it will deal with you. Those are your two choices.”
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“I think my body was telling me that I think my mind was Was telling me hey. We have some things we gotta. attention to up here Enough with let's keep it moving I'm gonna make it so you're not gonna just be able to keep it moving anymore You have some things that you gotta pay attention to, some things that need to be addressed. And at the time Like you were just talking about, nobody was talking about mental health at all and specifically. Mental health was considered like a white people thing. Black people don't have mental health issues Right. And so suicide for sure was a white people thing. So I was real confused. I felt really. I felt like something has gone really, really, really wrong here. Because nobody else liked me feels like this. Nobody knows what's going on. And Maybe I'm losing my mind. I'm actually going crazy.”
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“And then I pull over. And then I just remember Feeling terrified to just let it go and I let it go. And then I'm like, I want to die. I want to die And I remember Making it home And all I could do was call my mother. And say You gotta come here and kill myself. And I think about that, and I'm just like, wow. And my mother was like She was maybe a year into her sobriety? Right? And what a terrifying call to get. Like, if I get that call from Willow or Jaden or Trey, I'm just, you know, it's like. So she's figuring out because she just started a job at this hospital. I'm so terrified to be by myself I call my homegirl MC Light. And I tell her You got to come out here. I'm afraid to be alone by myself. I'm going to do something to myself. And she flies out, and so she holds me down until my mother comes. Crazy mom”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“I had no idea what was going on. Me just thinking about that moment, just it's like, um. I was so overwhelmed, you know, and I was like, I didn't know what was going on with me. And it came over me in an instant. I was fine one moment. I'm turning my car around to meet a friend on the corner that, you know, I saw to say and to say hello to her, and all of a sudden my body shaking, all these emotions come over me, and I'm like, I'm starting to, it's like waterfall of tears. And I'm like, and I have no idea, like my brain is not catching up to what is happening with my body. All I know is that this waterfall this volcano of emotions, it was fear, anger, despair. And I was like, and she was looking at me like, are you okay? And I was like, I don't know. And I get in the car. I'm trying to drive, and I'm like, you can't drive.”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Financial security, how could you let something like this go? And, you know, who's to say when your next starring role is going to come in and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And I was like, but I'm so glad that I didn't take that role because I tell you what, if I had taken that role, Will and I would not have been married and I wouldn't have had Jaden and Willow and Ben Trey's bonus mom. My life would have been totally different. I'm positive. Yeah.”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Well, I had just done it. I just come off of a different world. And I knew, like, I had the protection of Debbie Allen on a different world, right? And so when I wanted to make moves, Debbie was there to help me. That's not to say that I would have that same assistance on fresh prints. And at that time, they locked you in. You couldn't do anything. You know what I mean? They have you for six years. They got you locked. And I just didn't want to be locked like that. And so I really wanted to try my hand at. Doing movies. And then Dwayne Martin, when I turned Will down, Dwayne Martin got on me because he felt the same way you did. It was just like”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Yeah. So I auditioned for fresh prints. I think it was the second year. Pay one of his girlfriends, and they were like, You're too short. I was like, all right, cool. And so that was the first time that I actually met Will. I came out of the casting and he was, you know, coming into the casting office or about to leave or something. And he was like, hey, I was like, yeah, what's up? You know, I was like, no need to talk to me. They always said I'm short. I'm on my way. And then, and I think I was probably about 20. And he wanted me to play his girlfriend as a series regular. So he flew into North Carolina to meet me. And I was like, nah, I'm going to do movies now. And he was like, all right, cool.”
2023-10-16 · The Diary of a CEO · Jada Pinkett Smith (EXCLUSIVE): “I just wanted to stay ALIVE until 4pm!”, “Me & Will Are NOT Together”, “Tupac Kissed Me TWICE!” · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT