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Louis Tomlinson

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“And I had this feeling come over me straight away. And I'm not really this kind of guy where I'm, you know, on another day, I might have been worried that the police were coming to grab me weed. But it wasn't like that. I just had this thing come over me straight away and I knew it was bad. I knew that, look, when someone rings your door about that time, it's rarely good news. And then I opened the gates. I've got these gates and I opened the gates and I saw the police car and the policeman. They told me that she passed away and I can't tell you why because It was only me and my best friend and my ex-girlfriend at the time It wasn't like a pride thing of maybe like, okay, I'm cool, I'm fine. I think I”
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“That definitely hit me in a different way. It was completely sudden and immediate. Again, one of the most challenging moments of my life the sat in my house in London and everything was like fine. I was a little bit worried. I'd been worried about Felicity for the months prior, as I was worried about all my sisters, and I was just sat in my front room smoking a joint thinking about anything really. And then the doorbell rang at like one in the morning or something, or maybe like midnight”
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“Yeah, that was kind of what I was speaking about before that moment of stubbing your toe and that kind of aggravating you. That was just like that idea accentuated. I just couldn't believe. I couldn't believe how deeply unlucky I'd been as a family. You know, maybe it's not People that lose parents young, and obviously start to deal with a bit of the time. Angry at life and I felt angry mostly on behalf of my family. Now it wouldn't be likely I would know that I was included in this idea but I wouldn't be I wouldn't be thinking what have I done to deserve this it was more Daisy Amphoeus so young they've already had so and Lottie as well already had so much to deal with why this and why now it just it just it was it did feel incredibly incredibly unfair that's something that's interesting about grief is just how different each thing feels”
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“And that was something that always kind of stuck with me, really, because not always, but like a lot of stuff that feels really good can be quite intimidating beforehand. There was an anxiety that comes with doing something that is out of the ordinary, I suppose. I can distinctly remember not so much now, but on the first tour, like I would literally, before going out on stage, I'd literally as futile and as ridiculous as it is, I'd think to myself, how do I run away from this? Like, how could I literally run out the door and not do the gig? So maybe that would be a version of anxiety, but it didn't stop me getting up there and doing it, I suppose. Maybe there's the difference.”
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“Yeah, experience all the time. Is it something that kind of controls me? No, you know, I'm sure you've heard about this. My vocal coach always used to say to me that the feeling of being anxious and excited or near identical and feeling.”
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“Yeah, I didn't used to be a worrier. Now, I'm sure most people can say that, right? Your worry, your worry levels, or at least for most people, you have less worry when you're younger. You know, you haven't quite understood all your emotions yet, really.”
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“There is like this air of, I suppose, air of unpredictable, this feeling of And that's sometimes where my positivity comes from, too. Like things could change tomorrow. So I suppose that is, and that kind of jeopardy and that kind of idea, that's how I would interpret it. Because for any grief that I've experienced, it has been relatively quick. I haven't really had a lot of time to compute these kind of ideas.”
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“Just an impossible question to answer just because, like I'm still feeling it, like you could, and the interesting thing about that is you could spend two weeks with me and you never knew me and you never knew my life story. Never in a million years would you think? So I don't carry myself like that. I'm not someone who's like down the dumps like that. It's still there, you know. It will never go away.”
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“Impressed me every day. They're amazing, amazing women. My role felt like the Strong one in that situation, and someone who's willing to give someone Daisy had come in should be really upset. And by the end of the call, she can just see the glimpse of a glass half full. That was my job, you know. The grief became less relevant because of the The need to look after everyone else. Like sometimes you might get asked, like, you know, what advice would you give to people with grief?”
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“Everyone, obviously everyone's grief is completely individual, something I found out more recently. Purpose was mine. Now this is again not a luxury that everyone has in a situation like I found myself in. I grieved and I had moments where I was deeply, deeply upset, but these were fleeting moments because there was too much to do for my sisters. There was too much to do for my nan and granddad. There was too much to do for my family where it gave me something to do. It gave me a true purpose. It gave me a reason in the darkest days to get out of bed and confidently get out of bed because there was stuff that needed to be done and at that time my sisters were so, so, so young and I was so terrified of what kind of effect that would have on them, you know, growing up.”
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“There was this true dependency on my mum that I did not realize until I'd lost my mum. So I think there was definitely stuff that I've had to learn, like being on my own. And often she would inspire confidence. I'd say I'm worried about this. I don't want to go to this audition. Or I don't want to do this or I'm worried about this song. And she like, you know, as she always did, made me feel like I could do anything in the planet. And she'd actually made me feel stupid for even questioning the fact that I couldn't do anything. You know, so I think there's moments like that where you have to, you've almost had to relearn confidence like that.”
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“Been encouraged to go to the stage, but it wasn't really something that I did, that I wanted to do, it puts everything into perspective. So nothing's going to get as hard as that. So I think there's times where my job will weigh me down even like today, you know, not today, but I'm in this current head. And it's just worth, it helps me remember and helps me put things into perspective that, you know, just because a radio station isn't playing my single, you know, that hurts 0.01% and the same as something like that. So I think because I was so challenged emotionally and I survived the experience, it's given me a weird kind of confidence, to be honest. Just knowing that life Probably won't get that dark again.”
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“It's weird how empowering those moments are. I can sit here now and comfortably say that the chance now, obviously, there could be, but the chances of my life being as dark as it was in those three minutes alone. Like I would be desperately unlucky to ever be in a situation like that again where I was so young. I was in a situation where, as you said, all the timing was and then I felt like I'd”
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“And I knew exactly what that was. I knew why she was telling me. She was telling me because she would have hated something that had happened to her affect my career and my life as a person. I would do it again for her. I don't think I'll ever have a more challenging time in my life than those three and a half minutes on stage. I did it only for her. I didn't, it's not something I look back on and go, I'm really proud. I am proud that I did that, but that you almost say those kind of things when you want to do something, right? I'm really proud that I did that. That wasn't, it felt like it was taken out of my hands. I didn't want her to have that guilt It was the last thing in the world I wanted to do. Like, obviously, I just, it was horrible. And also, the song alluded to, the song was called Just Hold On.”
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“I have no idea. I could not, I want my guess would be 18 months. I think it might have been quicker than that. The anniversary of her death I get texts all the time, and whenever the anniversary is and someone will say thinking of you today, and it's only at that point that I know that that's the day. Because it's deleted from my brain.”
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“Yes, yes, she told me that shed leukemia, my first answer was, I don't know where again this is just like the definition of denial. My first answer, word for word was, oh, that's the good one to get there, right? Meaning that has the most survival rate. And bless her, she has to be like, no, not really.”
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“So I was trying to have this genuine worry that any son would, but I also was trying to shield a bit of my mum from that. I didn't want her to, you know, feel like she'd upset me or, you know, even though obviously it wasn't her choice, but I can remember that idea of really trying to. I would be real with my mum about how I was feeling, but there were times when I wouldn't be because I wouldn't want her to feel guilty.”
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“It wasn't kind of really like me. I didn't even feel like it was like a cry for help at the time, but that night I got absolutely battered. I got really, really drunk. That'll be nights where, you know, and this has been nights in the past where I'll have a little bit too much to drink, more from not knowing my limit. But in this kind of situation, it's not something I've ever really used drink for, to be honest, but I just, I felt the only way just to completely escape that moment at that night. What I found really challenging. Even that first conversation with her bad it was. still wanted to inspire ho, I still wanted to like, because she was really hopeful and she was like,”
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“Got friendly with a footballer called Jamie Vardy, and he'd invited me to his wedding. So I was at the wedding and now it was like the party afterwards and it was like 10 p.m. At this point I'd already had quite a few vodka red balls which was not ideal for the weight of the conversation. My mum called me. I was stood outside. It wouldn't have been out in the ordinary for me mum to call me so I wasn't worried or anything like that. She'd call me like most days if not every day. And then she told me And you know, like what it's like anything like this in life when you hear something that carries any kind of weight, like the first 10 thoughts are either it can't be true, maybe she's got it wrong, maybe the doctors have got it wrong, just all these stages of denial before actually, you know, even. embracing the thorough.”
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“Could stub your toe, right? And something like that is utterly unjust. Now that's something you might have done and say none of this ever happened. You stub your toe, it'd be annoying, but you just get over it. Little things like that I really, really struggled with when I was grieving. So things that should work a certain way that don't. There's a zip on my jacket that won't quite go all the way up. Real micro non-important little things. But I think because of the weight of the stuff that had happened, there was just, yeah, there was a moment in my life, as I said, for about six months where it just felt like I couldn't win. And in fact, I could only lose. So that's where even just stubborn your toe. You blow another fucking thing. Now, it sounds stupid to say, but once you met with these, when you met with that kind of mindset of feeling hard done by the smallest things definitely can amplify that.”
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“There was definitely, as you said, the time in obviously there's no good time for anything like this, but I think the timing, that's what created a bit of, it didn't last too long. I want to say maybe six months, but of like true resentment for the world, like real resentment. She's feeling really hard done by, you know, the kind of one thing I remember about grief when you're in the midst of it.”
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“Oh yeah, that lovely. I love this one. I love this one. This is cute. I got a very similar picture to this by me bedside taper at home in my bedroom.”
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“Yeah, I love that picture. I love that picture. It kind of really sums up mine and Leanne's relationship. I love it. I love it. He will have been telling me a joke that I didn't think was hilarious at the time, so I'll be giving him that kind of face. And then probably about an hour later, I would have laughed to myself about it”
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“Excited. Yeah, it reminds me of a nice time Yeah, I remember that vividly. We did like a full photo shoot in my living room. Yeah. Quite the pose with the hands in the pockets. It's much more nonchalant than I would have actually been feeling.”
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“If you can't say what's helped me in this job, and there's no truer time that that kind of shows itself, it's me as a parent is there is a real distinction. There is me at work and there is me not at work, basically. So either being a parent or being a friend or a partner or whatever. That's always helped me to have that kind of distinction of, you know, when I'm dad to Freddie. Full time dad and I'm not a singer, you know, and any of that world outside does not really matter. It's not relevant to me as a father, which it isn't.”
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“Yeah, yeah, definitely. And I just. Really fresh that. It's a really, really cool way of living because we all say, even like I would like to say I wear my heart must leave, but you know there's still 10%. I mean, it's God in the right places. He'd certainly had his way of being. I liked it.”
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“Always always yeah because Because I knew he was a little misunderstood, but also. Interestingly, the record when you're starting out as a solo artist, the parallels of People who know themselves made the best records definitely. So if you're still unpacking all that information of who you are as a person, as an adult, which we all were post one direction, it's near impossible to point and go this is who I want to be as an artist because essentially it's just a metaphor for who you are as a person, or at least the best stuff is. Liam will be someone who candidly, I could say to him really honestly, like, bro, fucking hell, like I miss being at the band. And we could have a really honest conversation like that. Whereas, and I don't mean this in any kind of way, but if I'd said that to any of the boys, I'd be worried that they might think, oh, things aren't going well and in his solo life, you know. Whereas Liam, I never had to worry about those things. It was like brothers like that.”
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“Just all a bit small talk, you know? Like, which is lovely and it's nice and it's nice to catch up by that, but me and Liam would always speak on a much more deep level. Because, and like he definitely, I felt bad saying this because I feel arrogant, but I shouldn't. I wanted to look after him, definitely, Liam. That was like a role I feel like I was there to play. And like he definitely, you know, often his way he would like perceive certain parts of his life, I would be really inspired by he was someone who really brave at times, which contrary to sometimes what he put out, but really, really brave. Like he would ask anyone anything with a smile. And like, you know, he had a really good way about him like that. I would say he was the closest to being my brother. Love him deeply, could spend hours and hours and hours with him, but there was an element of...”
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“To be honest, that would only happen me and Liam, like between the other boys, like, not that it's not emotional, because it is. And it's definitely deeper in surface level, but it's more. It's more, I would struggle to text the other boys as much. I would love to hang out with him in person like that, but I just there's an element of it feeling.”
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“That's And some days I live by it. Some days I live by it definitely. I wrote something on my social media probably like four or five years ago now, but it was on Instagram, I think, and about my interpretation of the word success because I'd spent a long time and I only knew through the lens of one direction. And I think that's a constant battle. It's a constant conversation with myself internally that I can measure my own success in a different way. It doesn't have to be a numbers game, you know. In terms of like fulfillment, for example, and like, you know, going do it like this latest record that I've just written, I feel really, really good about it. There's been an element of me kind of swimming against the tide a little bit to this point. It's like that, the feeling of fulfillment is like that's legit.”
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“But when you're singing night changes at a gig like that, when you can vividly and visually remember singing night changes like that at, say, Wembley Stadium. And you're literally singing look how fast the night changes, and you're looking out to this sparse room. It's like a brutal kind of poetry. And that's the point about it being unrealistic I could be the most, and I am, I could be the most glass half full guy in the world, but life is going to constantly challenge me like that, definitely, because that was the pinnacle.”
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“Of people because from 18 to 24, that whole landscape looked very, very different. And that's why I've always found it quite unrealistic to not compare the two, I completely agree with that because you cannot compare them. The two being one direction and my own solar career. But it's something that you can't ignore. I did this, I do a cover, stupid of me to call it a cover, I realized how funny that is. When I do a one-direction song, I call it a cover, which is really ironic. But I do night changes on my tour show. Can remember this one show in particular, I think it was like 5,000 capacity room. And I think maybe we'd done like 1,200 tickets, which, you know, is okay. That's all right.”
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“Maybe I had then that I don't have now. I'm not overly pressed for, like, I don't know, like a billboard for the album on in LA or here in New York. I don't get those kind of opportunities anymore. Do I lose any sleep over it? No, no, not really. But I think the feeling in general of I have to work really hard to compete at the level I do. That is just a fact. Like I just got a number one record on the last record on Faith in the Future. Never in a million years, never in a million years when I started my solo career did I ever think that I would be getting a number one record. It's testament to my fans, testament to the record, the producers, et cetera. But I've always had to work on my own anyway. I've always felt like I've had to work really, really hard just to kind of keep my head above water. Now, the reality of that statement is, and I realize that as I say it out loud, my version of head out of water or head above water is very different to a lot of”
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“Can. I think a lot of people's, not everyone's, but most people's natural trajectory of let's just call it success. I could make a pedantic argument for it not being specifically that. But they have a kind of lineal journey that the older they get, the more successful that they get. What was really strange was being 24 years old and realizing that the only way is down from here. Like there is no alternative reality where I at least keep up or supersede no way there was no chance of that. And that wasn't, you know, it was very obvious. It was very obvious to anyone around it. And still is something that is challenging, definitely, because you've had a look behind the curtain, you know, you know, those some of the things.”
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“Yeah, it's something that I'm unpacking still, to be honest, and still trying to work out all of those kind of things. I remember something I spoke about before, but Julian Benetta, who is a producer who worked on a lot of the One Direction stuff, we had a great relationship with him, really cool guy. We had this crazy night at, it was like some kind of billboard awards in Vegas. Julian, he pulled me aside and he said, and it was like really, it's funny because he's not really like this heavy, but it's a real heavy statement. He'd obviously had a few VOCRE balls or something. And he was like, where do we go from here? Now, by the way, the We upset me a little bit. It's like, I understand that. And we are all in this together, but that question is a hell of a lot deeper for me than it is you. I understand. I get it. But at the same time, you're probably and what he did end up doing is carrying on doing what he did. And I still don't really know the answer to that question. And I still, in fact, maybe I don't think you.”
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“Let me say that by this point, I'd say Simon was aware of this, but maybe not quite so aware. Because we're a band, after about two years of OneDirection, nobody, absolutely nobody could tell us shit. Now, we were nice boys. We were never rude or anything like that. But so like if Simon had, like, it just, we didn't have that. He might have had that relationship prior, like back in the 90s when all that stuff was kind of prevalent. But I think we'd always had our own kind of confidence like that. He was never involved in those kind of decision makings. In fact, he was smart enough to realize that that would rub us up the wrong way.”
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“By the way, it's just such a cringy word. So it was originally pitched as that. So I was thinking, I remember saying like, well, if I'm going to try and do some stuff on my own, and at this point I don't even know what I was going to do, I was like, it'd be good to know how long this break's going to be for. So let's speculate. A year, two years, five years, ten years, fifteen years. I never really got an answer to that question, which I understand now because truthfully, I don't think the people or person involved was brave enough to answer that question deep down. I think they probably knew the reality and that's why it was tough.”
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“It was an atmosphere that I never really felt in the band because normally, like I said, we're arms in arms. It's all this camaraderie. And then all of a sudden you get someone thinking more independently and more for themselves, which by the way they have every right to do, of course. But it just, the room felt cold that day. I can remember that in particular. It was, I'm trying to find the right metaphor for it, but it was something where these are all the same faces that I've seen every single day, but I'd never quite felt an energy like that in the room. There was like emptiness. And I think probably because we knew, we all knew collectively where it was going, you know, and that's probably some friction between those ideas. The thing that really bothered me was, and this again is naive, was so naive at the time, but I was adamant on having some kind of indication of because it was originally said as, what's that fucking word we've used a million times, hiatus.”
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“It was us boys which was great always how it should be like that obviously but I think It almost might as well have been representatives. What's really fascinating is those real serious moments, we wouldn't have a lot of them in one direction. We were just kind of going with the flow and really happy, you know, for each other and stuff like that. But I think those kind of moments where you have to be selfish.”
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“Yeah, it was awful. It wasn't until after the event that I realized that I actually computed all these feelings, but it was like, I was straight grieving for it. That was grieving the band. I'm someone who unfortunately has a little bit of experience in grief. And albeit it felt different, but it was a version of the same thing. It was something that I really wanted that couldn't have anymore. I think like anything like that, you know, like if you're like an Amaglass half full kind of guy. So like I felt the wheel start to turn in motion like that, but you're looking the other way. You're like, no, it's fine. It's not going to play out like that. It's never going to come to that, whatever. And then we had a meeting one day, and it did.”
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“It crushed me, man. It absolutely crushed me. I was devastated because it felt like, oh, is this the beginning of the end of the band? But then also I'm like, this is like my best mate in the band at the time. So it was, I'd lost a friend and someone in the band.”
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“But he must miss it. Like, he must do because I know Zane really well, and Zane has a bit of the kind of energy I do in such a way that sometimes this whole job can just be a little bit fussy. It's just a bit fussy in general, you know, there's just a lot going on like that. Now when you're in a band, you can share that wealth. It's like, you know, say you're sat in an interview, you're not enjoying. You just kind of shun up a little bit and let someone else pick up the pieces and they'll do that role. We could share the things that we didn't like to do as much. There must definitely be times that he misses the comfort of that for sure. But it's kind of like the elephant in the room, to be honest. It's not, I've met up with him a couple of times recently, but it's not often something we'll discourse. But there'll be a time for that for sure. I would like to have those conversations with them.”
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“Same situation, I would have probably put six plasters on it just to hope that we can stay plain happy families, you know. I want to know if he regrets it. Not in the way that. His own personal success has been incredibly successful and he's done really, really well like that.”
2025-10-09 · The Diary of a CEO · Louis Tomlinson: "The Room Was Cold That Day". When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“That evening, the night before we found out everything was normal, we were in the hotel room, we were somewhere, I don't know where, somewhere in the world, maybe where weed isn't legal, but we were having a joint. And everything was normal, you know, and then I think he maybe left at like 11. He was cool, wasn't like in a bad mood or anything like that. You know, good night. And then the next morning I woke up, we had a shoot with Coca-Cola for some sponsor thing. We found out that he wasn't coming now, but Zayn was quite prolific for it. Like this wasn't out the ordinary. Like if Saying, I always rated him for it. If he didn't want to do something, like he literally wouldn't do it. Like, you name the thing. It doesn't matter. If it's not right for him, then he won't do it. So I think that's probably why he left the band, you know. And that's what I admire about him. Because if I was in the...”
2025-10-09 · The Diary of a CEO · Louis Tomlinson: "The Room Was Cold That Day". When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“So I felt a little bit hard done by. I felt like not like throw these boys under the bus, but let me know. But I just, a little bit. I thought that we had a relationship where he could have had that conversation with me. In reflection, and he hasn't told me this, we'll see when I chat to him about it, but I think if he told me I would have tried to tell him to stay. And I think that's probably one of the reasons why he didn't. Because he knew I was always very opinionated.”
2025-10-09 · The Diary of a CEO · Louis Tomlinson: "The Room Was Cold That Day". When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Was again, it's not something we've discussed enough yet, but me insane, I mean. But again, it comes back to like loyalty for me. And I just. Selfishly I'd wish it had a conversation with me first because me and Zane I'd like to think that he would say this too I think he would There was times where like we were like Let's put it like this as a good way of describing it. On the last tour that Zane did, we always said we would never be this band, the type of band that would have all their own individual dressing rooms. Well, sometimes when you've got a lot of guests and stuff, it can be challenging. But we always said we wouldn't be that band. And on the last tour, Zane did, Harriet had his own dressing room, Liam did, Niall did, and mean Zane shared. So I think I kind of like testament of the relationship.”
2025-10-09 · The Diary of a CEO · Louis Tomlinson: "The Room Was Cold That Day". When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Went away from home. I wasn't confident enough to use their name to them. You know, it'll be always like a babe or like, you know, something that way I wouldn't have to mention the name because I wasn't certain who was who. These are two sisters that I spent my life with and grew up with. But I think shows just how little I was at home. And if my mum would come out to see me, which was great, but other, you know, the kids were at school and stuff like that. There was a long time for those out of those five years were in the band, a long time spent not spending enough time with family. And that I would say that is 85% of the job and the situation and one direction and stuff. And then 15% me too. Like I could definitely have done more like that. But, you know, when you live in a life like we did in one direction, free time is so competitive. And when you're young, you're not smart enough to.”
2025-10-09 · The Diary of a CEO · Louis Tomlinson: "The Room Was Cold That Day". When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“As if I was turning one of my lad mates, I was just, and I wasn't turning it for any other reason other than to show off and be like, guess what happened to me? We definitely had that kind of energy together. I always saw her more as a best friend than anything else. And especially because I was her first, she had me when she was 19. We spent the first few years together without a male role model. So it was a little deeper than your average, you know, son and mother situation. So I think it really hit me mum like a ton of bricks if I had my time again. I would have been more present and aware of those kind of ideas. And I actually here's a story actually. I've never told Daisy and Phoebe this. Daisy and Phoebe are two of my sisters who are identical twins. And they're about four or five years younger than Lottie. So they're about 21. Now, I could always tell them apart perfectly, but they look utterly identical at these two, especially when they were really young. And I can remember the more time I spent at the band, the more time I was.”
2025-10-09 · The Diary of a CEO · Louis Tomlinson: "The Room Was Cold That Day". When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“That's something I can remember really clearly, and she used to do the university analogy, and she used to say, I knew you were going to leave home at some point, but I had at least a timescale to that. I could work towards in my head okay, you know, in three months' time he's going to leave for union, that's that. One direction never happened like that. You know, it all ran away with itself. So I think it felt like we all blinked and before we knew it, I was no longer living at home. So my mom had no time to even grieve that idea of like, and just for context, I mentioned this and I made a film and documentary. And it kind of sums up me and my mom's relationship perfectly. The first person I told when I lost my virginity was my mum.”
2025-10-09 · The Diary of a CEO · Louis Tomlinson: "The Room Was Cold That Day". When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Never thinking, oh, wow, this is like, it's amazing for me actually that all the boys have done that. Because, like, look how good this makes me look to Simon. I look really loyal. And like some of it was deliberate, but mostly that's just how I am as a person. Like, I would rather just keep the happy family kind of out. That suits me.”
2025-10-09 · The Diary of a CEO · Louis Tomlinson: "The Room Was Cold That Day". When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT