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Madonna Badger

lines on the record: 40
first: 2018-04-16
most recent: 2018-04-16
sittings or episodes: 1
sources: podcast

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“You know, living a life of love, knowing that love is the most powerful, incredible force in the entire universe. There's so much we can do when we take care of each other and are patient toward one another and love each other. that love is forever. And hate is... Hate doesn't take you to all of the beautiful places that love does. It's a power unlike any other, and it doesn't die. It doesn't go anywhere. I mean, the love that I had for my children, and they have for me, it's still right here, right now. And that's super powerful.”
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“Yes, having the human experience. And I really believe that. I don't know, I don't understand yet why we have to have a physical experience. No one's really quite been able to answer that one for me, but I know that we're spiritual beings having a physical experience. I know I'm a spiritual being, you know, I know we all are. And because of that, for me, we're all connected. We're all just pieces of this beautiful universe together. It's an amazing revelation for me personally that my children have really taught me. Loving them was... When they were born and knowing them made me want to be the very best person I could be, the most spiritual being I could be.”
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“Yes, I do. Oh, I definitely do. You know, even in the craziest rehab places that they sent me, I would get a little piece of wisdom. You know, somebody would give me something. Somebody would share with me something. This girl came up to me and read me something from the Bible. It said, We all suffer, and some of us suffer worse than others, just so that that person can tell us what to do, you know, when that person suffers. And so, yeah, I think that the... The pieces that were all these connected beings, you know, that we are all connected. We all come from the same source. So we all have the same energy inside of us. We are all spiritual beings. And I really...”
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“I mean, you know, certainly. I don't know. I'm gonna see my children, you know, that I'm gonna be with them again, and that we're gonna be together. And I'm gonna do everything I can to make them proud of me while I'm here.”
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“Does help. It does help a lot I think my parents were both really hard workers, really, really hardworking people. And I do love working hard and I love what I do. Our biggest client right now is Avon. Which has over 6 million representatives around the world. Six million women.”
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“Bill and I did some volunteering work. And, you know, There are times that I get behind school. And I see little girls in the window. Their times, you know, they go to the park or a restaurant or I hear some little girl call mommy. Know yeah, that makes me want to shut down. It makes me Want to stay inside my house, you know. And I just try to twist it around, you know, and see. See love there, you know. It's all I can really do”
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“Yeah, no, I never, I mean, I never stopped loving, right? I've never, I mean, the love I have for my girls and for my parents is so strong. That love has kept me alive. And the love that I've gotten from Kate and from Jess and all these amazing people in my life, then... My heart never closed down. So I don't understand That idea. I don't understand the idea of shutting down the love because then I would be too scared that I couldn't feel my kids.”
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“Yeah, no, I think, I mean, I've known Bill since I was 19. So I've known him for, I'm going to be 50 tomorrow, as you know. And so that's a long time to know someone. Off and on, you know, not close. And Bill is a very spiritual man and a very kind man, very loving man. And he's a yoga teacher and a hospice worker. And he walks the walk. And he's He's my rock. I'm so blessed.”
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“There's peace in the truth Where the piece is, I think. And, you know, I mean, I heard somebody say the other day, you know, I don't have to like what I have to accept. I just have to accept it. And I love that, and that for me is the truth. I don't like what's happened to me at all. Of course I don't. I mean, but living in acceptance to the best of my ability does make me feel a lot better.”
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“It'll stop other people from getting hurt. Whatever has happened, it could happen to someone else because it happened to me. And I want to make sure it never happens to anybody else.”
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“I think when I came out of my window, it went pop, pop, pop pop, and there were these giant electrical pops that went on on the main power lines. Bright white. I saw sparks coming out where my meter is at the back of my house. Okay, so something really major happened, major electrical, okay, happened. I don't know why I don't know what happened, but I think someone does. I think there's got to be someone out there that knows what happened, that saw what had happened. And my prayer is that they're going to come forth and tell the truth. five people And they took the house and they threw it away. And they tried to blame me, you know?”
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“The second floor? Yes. So when you look at the front of the house, my bedroom was basically the front of the house on the left hand side, photo left. And then you see the turret. And in the one turret at the top is where Gracie's room was. And then you would go through there into the other two rooms. And so I went up, I came out and went directly up and tried to put my head in. And I couldn't get my head into the window. I couldn't physically because of the fire was so hot and the smoke was so black. And so I kept trying to get into the window, trying to get into the window, but I couldn't. And I was screaming, you know, bloody murder. And then the firemen came.”
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“I know it didn't. You know it didn't. I was the one that said it was the ashes, it was the ashes, because I was afraid, you know, because I blamed myself because I was hysterical on the roof, you know, trying to get the fireman to get into my house as quickly as they could.”
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“And all that stuff, organic food doesn't matter Like the fact that they can eat food is good enough. You know, I mean, yes, of course, all those things are good, but I'm just saying that. Wished I had known that like Could have moved to Arkansas and gotten a little house and been just fine. Just didn't know”
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“Pretty remarkable. It's pretty remarkable. Love shows up. In so many ways I think, you know, the other part for me that's so important is. I wish I knew now what I wish I knew then what I know now. When I was so worried about having them eat organic food all the time. When I was so worried about them getting into the right school or when I thought that that deadline was so important at work and I stayed and worked late or the time I missed a recital that Grace did because I was Wish I knew how important all the”
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“Right after the fire, who had been introduced to me through a friend, and he had lost his parents and his sister in a horrible plane crash and had watched them die. And he said, just hold on. You're going to be all right. Just hold on. And it's terrible. I called Wyatt Webb, who you know, and I love, and I've been to him, see him so many times. And I said, Wyatt, what do I do? Tell me what to do. And he said, just find someone to love you. Just find people to love you. That's all you can do. So if this helps other people, then that makes me feel like I've done something.”
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“I don't know, honestly, I don't really know why I'm supposed to tell my story. You know, I've gotten phone calls out of the blue from people struggling with the death of a brother or mother, you know, children. And, you know, and I talk to them, you know, and tell them it's going to be okay. You're going to be all right. I talked to somebody.”
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“Oh, yeah, as soon as I sat down, my chest felt really full and I don't feel, you know, I just, I feel super present in my body. And that's a big thing. And that's a big part of not being bitter, you know, is that that's the only way I've found by not by being fully present in my body. That's when I feel them the most. And I don't know why you know, I don't know why, but boy, when I feel bitter or I get really angry, then I can't feel my children, you know?”
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“We were talking to each other in the mirror. And I call Kate and I screamed, this is real. It is real. It is real. You know, I'm not making this up. They're really talking to me, you know. And it was so mind blowing. And so ever since then, I believe it, you know”
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“And then Sarah came to me and Lily and Grace and everybody was there. And Sarah talked to me and she told me not to be afraid that there was nothing to be afraid of and that love was the most important thing in the world and that dreams are more real than this life.”
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“Yes. I mean, for the longest time, I thought I was nuts, you know. I really thought I was bonkers and that, I mean, I didn't really care very much. But I thought they were talking to me. There was one experience in particular where I was cleaning the bathroom and I started crying and I started crying in a way that was so intense. It was what I call level 10 cry. It's like it literally feels like blood is coming from my eyes. It feels so... I don't know, so much pain. And so I looked in the mirror and I saw myself crying like this and I never really seen myself crying like this, you know? And the pain was so severe. And I remember thinking, wow, that woman is in a lot of pain. Like it was almost like I was stepped out.”
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“Absolutely. I mean, that's part of the grieving process, it's part of the whole thing is knowing that. I'm just trying to do the best I can and, you know. Live my life the best I can for my girls and my mom and dad and for them to be proud of me.”
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“I think I was, you know, in my case, I want to say that I was too afraid to lay in bed. That's part of it because of where my brain goes. Even now, sometimes I can lay in bed, I can wake up in the morning and be in the fire. You know, that happens a lot.”
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“Know my God is full of love. And being a loving, caring, amazing God, you know, in my life that leads me, you know, and teaches me and carries me.”
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“And God cried first, yeah, exactly. And that really helped me so much. I mean, the God I believe in is not a punishing God, you know, and would never, ever hurt children or do anything in any way to Make people miserable, make people sick, you know, give war. I mean, that's not my God.”
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“Oh yeah, a lot, a lot. And the minister who did the funeral was really helpful in that. And he said, you know, that God is not a puppeteer.”
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“Not really. I wouldn't say I'm terribly religious now. I mean, I have a deep spiritual. Life that's important to me, and I certainly believe that there is a great big power out there bigger than me. You know, in every possible way.”
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“Yes, but it's so much more, in my experience, it's so much more painful to try and stay outside of that pain. And the latest thing for me has been about sort of figuring out that I can't outrun my pain. And just going as fast as I can or doing as much as I can. Almost like in a manic way, you know, I can't do that. It doesn't work”
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“I think it definitely comes with both of those two things. I think it comes with definitely the love, you know, letting other people love me has been a huge part of this journey for me and letting other people take care of me has been a big part. And certainly time. Time doesn't heal anything, I don't think. I think it just you just sort of learn how to live with it a little bit better. And then I don't numb myself. So that was the big thing that Dr. Smith told me was that if I don't start acting out, like shooting heroin, okay? Or if I don't start drinking around the clock or Like those are the kind of things that don't help at all. And those are the kind of things that don't allow for that skin to heal. Like you have to actually feel the feelings, okay?”
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“It completely changed everything It changed everything. It gave me hope where I had none. I mean, I just thought like, okay, this is it, you know, like, I mean, talk about wanting to die.”
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“Which is a different thing, of course. But I was just basically a great, big raw nerve. And, you know, and that they could help me, you know, and they did.”
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“Right, so he said, yeah, no, she's not crazy. She's sad. She's really sad. And, you know, he explained what had happened to me in a way that no one else could or had. And that basically that mother child bond is so huge. And it's like having nerves that are, I guess, called Vega nerves, but they're emotional connections.”
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“On Super Bowl Sunday, Dr. Smith came in from Arkansas, and he was the head of the Psychiatric Research Institute. He basically She's not crazy. Everyone's treating her like, you know, she's been struck mentally ill.”
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“Well, I went from the acute care unit, and they sent me to like a rehab facility in Tennessee. I mean, nobody knew what to do, you know, and this was a rehab. I mean, this was”
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“My dad was the director of safety and security for brown foreman distillers, which means basically the head of Jack Daniels and Old Forrester and all of these gigantic distilleries all through the world. And his job, part of his job was actually training firefighters, you know. And so, I mean, if anybody knew what to do in a fire, it was my dad.”
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“Yeah, you got to come and help me And then finally, the fire department was coming. And so I climbed back down. And then I was trying to get into the second floor window, which is where my bedroom was. And then they just basically took me off the roof with the ladders. And I just kept thinking they were going to come walking out. You know, I just kept thinking.”
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“I think that we don't get to choose when we die. I don't fully understand what happens when we go to the other side. So I don't have that knowledge. And so I don't want to do anything to mess that up. Quite frankly.”
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“Yes. I still Those feelings. I still this last Christmas I had those feelings of I just want to die and certainly the feeling of why didn't I die I wanted Wanted to die so many times, you know, just to even be with them. The doctors, they would come in and I would tell them the story and they would start to cry. You know, nurses would come in and hear me wailing in the night and read me poems and they would start to cry. And it got to the point where I was on the floor to the doctor and I was just, I literally got on my hands and knees and held him by the ankles and begged him to let me out. And he wouldn't. They wouldn't.”
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“Absolutely. I mean, in the beginning, especially, you know, Even just getting up and going to the kitchen and getting a cup of coffee was a huge victory or having a shower or making a phone call or seeing a friend or those things were such huge victories. And in the beginning, my skin was literally gray and my hair was falling out in chunks. I mean, it was really, really bad. And, you know, putting together those little victories made me know that I could do the next one. I could do the next one, that, you know, I would get up and I could get up. And, I mean, they're all little steps along the way, and you just sort of put those together. And that's all that I really could do.”
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“My friend is a teacher at that school. It's the Nightingale School in New York City And it was to 100 high school girls. And the topic was resilience. And she thought that my story would really resonate with these young girls. And I got so many beautiful notes from them. And one girl in particular wrote to me that she had Been having trouble getting out of bed and that her parents had sent her to all kinds of therapists and psychiatrists and given her all sorts of medicine and that after she heard my TED talk, she was in the audience, she said that that was the best advice she'd ever gotten was that you can't think your way out of bed. You have to actually physically get out of bed.”
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