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Mary Portas

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“And that is the greatest gift I think we can give to anything and to our kids, you know. I mean, I put them through a great academic system because I could, but I always said you choose. I remember my daughter coming to me when she just finished Oxford. She got into Oxford and she was like, I was deeply proud. And she finished her degree and she said, Mom, I know everyone's going to expect me to go in and make a lot of money. I don't want to do that. I said, why do you explain that to me? Like, you know, I'm really going to judge you on that. And she wanted to do something that just connected not with what her truth was. And that's the only thing I think we need to try and find in life. Now, your truth probably was that, you know, you wanted to get to that place where you were able to say, I did this because that's truth that was important to you because everyone else was telling you can't do something. You're not sitting in this system. I was much the same.”
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“I remember him talking about when he used to give the last rights he used to be in Ireland and he'd go to give the last rights to whoever was dying and he'd go in and he'd see these little pinched faces. Had lived a life that wasn't in line with their true self because they couldn't, they had no choice. And he just said it used to make him feel so, so sad. And then he would give them the last rights and he would literally see the pain on their faces, their skin just unstress and unwrinkled because they were able just to be.”
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“And there are times when you have to be, as I say, performative and be, I'm Mary Portas, you know, going out, I'm working, I'm writing a piece or I'm doing, of course, but I'm rooted in who I am deeply. And I think it isn't whatever we call it, whether it's spirituality, whether it's our soul, whether it's our spirit, whether it's our truth, whether it's our vibration, whether it's our, you know, whatever our vortex or our frequency is opra says. Whatever getting back to that, you know, I remember I was listening to the lovely Irish poet and I think of his surname and I'll think about it and they'll all come to me after I've done this. But anyway.”
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“You know, most people don't. And that, you know, I remember when I first discovered it, people don't, you know, don't talk about that because you might sound a bit odd on spirituality. Don't talk about that. And you're like, and I didn't for a long while. You know, I even was chatting to a great producer at the BBC saying, why isn't there a show on something like this on the BBC night? No, don't mention spirituality in the BBC at the moment. You're like, what? This needs to get out there. And it's not hokey pokey stuff. This is our truth. And I think what I've tried to do is to allow the people who work with me. Express that and know about it. And we share it, we share it in the business. And it just opens this whole thing up.”
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“Yes, I think, you know, the thing is, it's, you know, It's knowing what the truth is. It doesn't mean that we're not going to have this. We are truly connecting on a truth here. I don't think we're performing, but part of it is performative because we are doing a job that's going to be this podcast. There's being on the path, some people never even know that path there.”
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“For sure, but I also milked that. That was very profitable. But you know, I knew it was Brand Mary, the Red Bob, the Rings. I've always loved fashion, I've always loved, but it was very much a signature. And yeah, of course. I mean, I advise businesses globally on brands. I was, I suppose, a brand my own self. And I just didn't want to be that anymore.”
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“I was living totally outwardly to my ego and my persona, Mary Portis, Mary with Bob, Mary the Businesswoman, Mary the Mother, I was not connecting truly with who, my spirit, my So everything was done to feed that. And you believe that that is you. You believe that that is your personality. You believe all of that.”
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“And that was the start of my journey. It took many years. I'm still, you know, getting still partly hybriding that life. I'm never going to sit in an ashram. But I discovered how to connect back truly with me and stop loading this stuff in your life, Saying no.”
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“And I thought, and I went into, there was this wonderful Indian guru who used to sit in this little room. She could go and meet and chat with. And I remember going in to see him. And he didn't say a word. And I was crying. I didn't want to speak with him, but I wanted to go to the bookshelf that was behind him because I knew there were some books there. And I picked up Eckhart Tolly's New Earth. And I just took it, and as I left, he went, That's the right one. And I went back to my room and I read it, and I read it on the beach days. I was like, oh my God, I've got the world wrong. I've just completely got this wrong.”
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“Truly connect with me. And I remember I went away to some very expensive spa place where it was all shanty and downward dogs and eating stuff. And everyone's all this, you know, you go where rich people are because you got money and you go and you discover And I remember sitting in this yoga session and I just was crying and I was like, please stop, please stop, Mary, please stop. And there's all these sort of women in their Lulu lemon. And I was going just crying.”
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“You're not allowed to say that actually, I'm thinking about that at that time, there would be those women on the front of the Sunday Times magazine like that. We can't show our pose, but it'll be like that. You can have it all. They got eight kids and they would get up and they would be doing, you know, yoga at 6 a.m. and then having a global call with China or whatever, then they'd be dropping the kids off at school while chatting to God knows whoever, sorting out the day. And you just thought, oh God, how shit is that life? Where are you? Where are you? And I lost me in that. There wasn't times where it wasn't fantastic. There was. But where was I? I didn't stop to breathe. I didn't stop to truly connect.”
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“Probably physically exhausted. I just didn't get that joy, you know. I just was on this, I was doing TV shows, radio shows. I had my own collection. I had the business. I had two kids. It was crazy. And I was the matri. I was the center. Know I had some husband who was me, you know, and I thought, yeah, but I, and the more that comes, you'll know this, the more it comes, the more it comes, the more it comes. It comes, keeps coming, keep coming, keep coming. You've got to do this, got to do that. And there were parts of it that was just, you know, incredible. I looked back at what some great years, but I was exhausted.”
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“Deeply important to the next generation. You know, we've really fucked this planet for you guys. You know, my generation. The generation before me, the baby boomers, they know that. So we have to hold on to something deeply precious here. And there is a movement and understanding that's greater and deeper. We were blind. We were blind consumers. We thought that having it all was having more stuff and living a life while we slowly killed the planet and our well-being. So it has to be you guys that go no. If we get one thing out of this, that's going to be there, that we're going to change all those ridiculous ideas.”
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“Need to talk about it on your show. You need to talk about this when you're doing business. You need to get this out there. You need to be a voice for that because. You know, it's only by sharing our voices and having an opinion. Doesn't matter who knocks us or who comes back that you go, no, this feels right. This feels right. This is deeply important.”
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“I think it's going to come. That's why in my book, I think it's going to come from business and think it's going to come from people like us changing that.”
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“You're able to give up that control That's what you're giving up, and saying, you know what? I know who I am, and I want you who works with me to know who you are. And so let's give up that control. That doesn't mean that I'm going to have any lazy bath coming in and, you know, sauntering in whenever they want and taking. No, they know. I talk about the kindness economy. The kindness economy is doing what's humanely right. It's not taking the piss. So you have very, you know, strong ethos and ethics and guidelines of what you believe your business is and where you want to go, but let everybody be themselves within that. And part of that is connection. I mean, it's fine for me sitting in my North London homeworking or I'm in the Cotswolds. What about the ones who I've seen them on Zoom in their bedroom sharing a flat? You are waking in there and you're doing Zoom. And if any owner of a business or organization isn't understanding that, shame on you.”
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“Who wrote this shit? How do we want to work? I want people in my business that have a voice that feel I will sit with a 23 year old and I know we'll sit and have a great conversation as much as I will with a 45 year old as running the business. We've actually put that with these two days when the chief execs in, we want everyone in because this is the time when we learn. This is the time we laugh. And we really do laugh. I mean, I'm the biggest joker, the biggest kid in the office. And my daughter's been coming in so she can get some just some interaction. She works in food policy because something completely different. And she goes, Mum, you're the biggest kid. I said, I know. I need people around me. I need it. And I love to laugh. And it's just fantastic when you're in an office and you hear that. And it's not difficult this stuff. You know, it's all about when you feel as confident as you do.”
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“It's a competition of like, you know what I mean? I'm with you. You know, it's look, as I say, you're younger. I remember when I wrote work like a woman, I was like, looking at this and thinking, who created the codes?”
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“To be the things that are part of our society, which are deeply important, that do need bloody government intervention. I know Tories don't want to intervene, and it's a free market and all that crap. Transports won, our high streets are one, our national health services another, and the way we work and connect, I think, is another. So I would be putting this on the agenda. I heard it on one of those, what is it called, question times, which I keep getting asked to go on. I think, oh dear God. And I was listening to there no. This is vital please, please, anyone listening. And if you're listening and you're a millennial or a Gen Z and you don't think you've got any power, pull together, get your pals and put pressure at the top. And Arsene, open back up.”
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“Dogs in this was like 10 years ago, what you know, we need to ease up and realize that we need more of this in our lives. I've had to sublet parts of my office because we had too much space, but we bloody went out and sublet and fought because we wanted to keep it because I knew that this was deeply important, especially to your generation. And, you know, I know there's people and my kids have seen it. They said the sort of 40 pluses, yeah, it's nice having some time at home. I understand that. You can pick up the kids, of course. But let's get that balance. Let's get that balance. And you're right. The more we close down, the more we squeeze our little souls, because those small trivial things are what make up our lives. I know that, so I would be so pro it. And I really think this needs to be.”
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“She talked about those little things where you bump into someone on the street and you say, morning, are you getting a newspaper? And you say, can your daughter babysit tonight? She said, these little things are trivial, but the sum isn't trivial at all. It is a social infrastructure, a web of security that makes us human. The office is the same. The office is the same. Now, I started in my office with saying, you've got a baby, you can bring it in.”
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“What makes us human? It's ridiculous to think we heard Google aren't opening theirs up for another year and you think what the actual stop this. Have they actually asked their people? I have a young daughter who's been working at home consistently since she went out to the world of work and it is not good for her mental well-being. And I have watched my children get up at 8 a.m. and go straight on Zoom. That was, where's the travel time where you listen to a podcast, where you listen to a piece of music or you read something or you bump into someone on the street and say, morning, do you fancy your coffee? Yeah, I was saying, where's that gone out of our lives? We take this away and we take what it is to be human. When I did my high street report, I talked about exactly what you're talking about. We lose this. We lose what Jane Jacobs, who wrote The Death of the American City back in the 60s, well before I talked about this.”
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“Not looking at the mental health wellbeing. I've seen this. I've opened my offices. We opened them up as soon as we could. We have two days where we say we want everybody in. Because we believe that is everything you've talked about. And I know even when I go in and I will see them all and we will have a laugh and we'll talk about stuff that's not even in the work world, but those nuggets, those little messages, those little nuances that happen.”
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“I think you said it. I think, you know, I think there's a lot of businesses jumping on the bandwagon thinking, how can we, you know, save money on rent?”
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“This isn't going to happen again, you know. And there were times when they were just out in the grass playing round us together. That's the magic, you know? That's the magic for that little man there with his big brother and sister. There are times we just would sit up on a place near us in Swift's Hill and just look at flowers and draw flowers. I thought, this isn't going to come again like this. And so I was able to sort of slowly but surely build back”
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“And so suddenly this was like that might not be the case. And you are the young lad that you've got to put through school, you might be working until you're 70, whatever to get this back up. I don't want to do that. You know, so it was going against my flow and my energy as well, you know, that I want to go off and do other things. I was ready to go and do the things that one should be doing at 60 plus when you've had a very big career and doing stuff that, and I was suddenly going, oh God, I've got to get this back on. And so I just didn't like the way that that frightened me. It did frighten me. You know, there was sleepless nights. Then suddenly this place of acceptance came and you realized there was magical times where I thought I am in lockdown with all three of my kids. You know, one of which had left home. One was doing a master's and one who was eight.”
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“Well, for example, one of my clients was a big piece of business that we're doing on the other side of the world. It was a million and a half pounds. Bam, cloak done. I stopped. You're like, what? What I meant by that was I've never in twenty one years ever had anything where I thought financially. I've made myself so financially secure over those years. I've never had anything that thought that might go. Oh never I've never wanted huge amounts. I like a really good life and I have a very good life. But I've never wanted, you know, the big amounts. I've always thought, you know, this is really good. And so I've never, I've always shared the pie, as it were. I like a big slice of the cake, but I also like sharing it out. So I was never, oh my God, I've got to that. I like a lovely life.”
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“What I meant was that the work that I'd done on myself on knowing that, you know. This too shall pass connect back. You will be all right. World will look after you. I didn't. It took about a month. And then I was like, okay, and I had all the kids under one of those homeschooling happening. I was on, you know, phone every single morning with the CEO of my business. We were on FaceTime. It was, you know, we were on Zoom calls, hideous. It was like all the time. It was this world that you've been thrown into where I thought, all right, you know, approaching 60, ease up now, Portess, you know, you don't need to be doing as much. Everything just fell apart. Bam, like that. God, what has happened here? So, and I was a bit disappointed that I wasn't more, you know, um, baby.”
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“There was a great interview I heard, and I can't remember who it was. And I can't remember. I'd like to think, but I remember he was a philosopher and he said, we're talking about money. And he said, think of a time when you've never had enough. Think of a time when I've never had enough money. I've had very little money. I've lived, and I remember just holding on to that. When is the world never ever truly looked after you And if you can realign back into that sense of connecting and not go for the short term, whether it's, you know, following a route that you're trying to short-term fix it through stress or through that anxiety, you connect back to that true source, it always works.”
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“Where I'm going to do this, and I'm just looking down the barrel at 60, and I suddenly went into that complete fear and was like, you need to pull this back. I was actually pretty, I felt, I was a little bit ashamed that I wasn't better, if I'm honest. I was such a shock, such a shock. And I've written about it in the first chapter of my book because I want, it was so shocking. And it was like, they were falling down like dominoes, the clients. And we were like, what we thought as a business was just going. And it just slowly but surely I kept on connecting back to that sense of me, that deep truth that the world will look after you.”
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“And connect with some deeper strength, whether it's through meditation or whether it's just pause and breathe, it will come through. And it does. And that's not to say we have to go through grief. We have to go through mourning. We have to let that go through our bodies. Leaving it in your bodies is the worst thing you can possibly do. And I've done that over the years and I've had my back put out. I've been laid low because it's in there. I've learned to do that. You know, at first when COVID hit, it was shocking for me. I mean, all my clients in my business, which has been my backbone for 21 years, just closed down. And nobody said, are you guys okay? They just stopped work. I had 55 people what the actual fuck is happening here. And I'm talking to my kids about being connected to your source. And I'm like, Jesus wept. I've got to pay for all this. And I don't know.”
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“That has been. I wish someone had done that a little bit more. It was shrouded in religion when I was a kid, the Catholic faith, which I just could not connect with at all. You know, my mother literally, you know, going to confession. You should go into the church and see these 80-year-old women beating their chest and saying, dear God, you know, I've sinned. You think, what's she done? You know, this is crazy. This isn't life. What? Some poor old on kneeling down, beating her chest. That's not what the world's about. You know, that's what I've discovered is if you try and get back to your essence and know and try and align.”
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“And you have to just connect deeply with your inner whatever you call it, whether it's your spirit, whether it's your soul, whether it's as Oprah says, my inner frequency. You know when that gets shoved or you're not aligned, that's when you start to behave and you follow whatever's happened to you rather than actually connecting truly back with your strength, your resource. So that for me has been, and I've tried to guide my children on that. And actually,”
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“Is the wonderful line of this too shall pass, and it does. For me, I have found great resolve from some of the great teachings and the philosophers who I have read for a long time now, probably about fifteen, twenty years. And even if we look at the basis of most religion, which is a patriarchy and has been completely screwed and bastardized by most men, but actually if you look at the truth at the heart of it, it's much the same thing that we all have to follow.”
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“Well, he's just one of my great, I discovered him a 13th century Sufi mystic. And he talks about the bruises that we hit and how they repair, but that's how we grow.”
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“lying awake three nights on the road not sleeping a dot and getting up but there must be so much adrenaline in my body i mean i don't know i lost about a stone in weight and i'm pretty slim but i remember putting on my trousers and dropped below my hips i went oh my god that sort of stress and pain but you have to keep going because you are responsible for these children”
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“Undoubtedly, my mother died where you wake up and it's... Like something's on your chest. And I remember it was sunny, sunny, hot. I didn't like the summer for years. It was July, hot July, the late 70s, that summer when it was boiling hot. And I just associated that. And I used to love when it became autumn or cold. You could go indoors and hide. It felt like a security. Me and everybody was out playing tennis. and happy and somewhere and you just this heavy black pain deep inside you um And both separations I've been in two big relationships and I've been married and that when you split up a family. And I'm a family person when you have to sit and go, okay, how do I do this? How do I do this? How do I sit with you, my children, and say, you know, this little life you've got? This is moving on. That was those. I actually remember.”
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“I just genuinely don't regret a thing. Life's been extraordinary, had extraordinary amounts of pain, extraordinary highs. And it's been colourful and one that I would never have predicted.”
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“That's another thing. I don't feel resent. I don't know all we wanted was for Dad to be buried with mum'cause you know we were brought up Catholics and when mum died and she was a deep Catholic. We booked the plot so that you have the plot so he can be buried on the same ground and she didn't want that so we had to bring the family priest and go and see her and we got that in the end no I didn't ever ever feel a dot of resentment”
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“No, she sold it, she took it. Nine months of being married to my father after twenty five years of marriage in a family home they built.”
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“The woman my father married. I mean, again, I think about that and I'm talking with my children on this And when I had to write my memoir, you had to go back on this. And I just cannot understand anybody not looking after children who are grieving for their parents. I can't imagine, you know, being with anybody or me marrying anybody. I mean, I was married a second time to a woman and she took all my children. I can't imagine anybody doing what she did. I just, it doesn't fathom in my head. Here's a woman who had a child the same age as my younger brother who left us homeless.”
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“Nobody wanted to see that. They wanted to go. And actually, yeah, deeply, there was another part of me that wasn't expressed.”
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“I think it was a part of my personality and my behavior, but I think I believe that that was me. And I believe that that was going to be part of my success, you know, being quick-witted, fiery, doing things fast, which is, you know, being a part of my work. But I think I didn't ever discover the deeper sensitivities. And there were times when I felt vulnerable and there's times I felt lost and I wanted to be understood. And it was like, oh, it's Mary. And you'd go, well. No, because everybody judged you on that. Weirdly, even I think the persona that I had on TV with the orange bob was that and people would edit me to that and I would often think, but I spent so much time behind the scenes sitting with those shopkeepers holding their hands or talking to them at...”
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“Yeah. And also being able to become to in a place of acceptance and having techniques on, but I think I had a lot of. I mean, my father was very quick tempered. But then with five kids running around screaming in the house, I think I would have been. So I think that was there. And I don't know, I just think what I did was I just kept going blindly. I mean, I didn't have any goal or any vision. It wasn't like, oh, I'm going to show them. I just kept going. And I think what I did was ignored the deep sensitivity, the deep me. I think I ignored that. So I believed I was this naughty going fast quick-tempered individual. Actually, I'm not. I'm really soft. I wasn't that, but I didn't know that for a long, long time.”
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“But that was it. I wasn't going to go and sit in the headmistress's office and have a sob, especially with a nun and have to beat my chest and say about ten Hail Marys. So I didn't know. I don't think any of us did. This was the late 70s. I do remember it was funny, like last night I got a little eight-year-old and he's into Elvis Presley for whatever and I put on some YouTube and we were dancing to Elvis Presley. He was trying to do the little movements and I said He said, Elvis died, didn't he, Mama, in 1977? I said, yes, the year my mum died. So my mum died in July in Elvis in the August. And I remember everybody grieving Elvis. And I was going, no. And I couldn't get on this. I was like, what? And everyone's like, AlphaSide. The headline. So I was just thinking, no, my mum's died.”
2021-06-21 · The Diary of a CEO · Mary Portas - How To Stop Living A Life That Isn't True To You · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Never I remember the headmistress saying, you know, if you ever want to come and talk. And the headmistress was a nun called Sister St. James, who was, you know, this wonderful. Actually, I really, really liked her. She was pretty scary by most standards, but I really liked her.”
2021-06-21 · The Diary of a CEO · Mary Portas - How To Stop Living A Life That Isn't True To You · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“But my father remarried within a year. I succumb home from school and he'd be crying, you know, and I was actually then finding Lawrence and I were managing his grief with these young kids really, you know. And he remarried very quickly and then he died of a heart attack nine months after getting married. But in doing so left the family home to the new wife of nine months. So we were all out on our own, really, after that. And I think I look back now, I look back now and I didn't look back for a long while, didn't look back at all. But I look back now and I see that I was in grief for about four years. I mean, I used to walk to school crying and then just get on the bus and smile. It was grief, but I don't, you know, somehow I suppressed that. And put it into... A life that I never dreamt I'd have, that's for sure from that.”
2021-06-21 · The Diary of a CEO · Mary Portas - How To Stop Living A Life That Isn't True To You · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Well, mine sort of went from this terrible traumatic. My mother was the central figure, this sort of fiery redhead who... Just was the backbone, and I don't look back in hindsight and go, oh, amazing, but she was. I was just about baked, just about baked. I'd had enough of love and time from her at 16. I think my younger brother, Lawrence, at 14, that was terribly difficult. So you at 10, I'm with you. I can feel that. That's a very lonely place for a young boy.”
2021-06-21 · The Diary of a CEO · Mary Portas - How To Stop Living A Life That Isn't True To You · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Just by the place where I was in the family, my elder siblings, my elder brother Michael was at university and my sister was just about to go and work at Go Training at UCH. And my other brother was hairdressing. And so I ended up looking after, being the one at home and looking after. younger brother. And I had to grow up very quickly and all that misbehavior went into sort of responsibility. What I think happened anyway. I mean, you know, and I just took on the role of the I wouldn't say parent because I was not very good at that at all, but the one who managed stuff at home and even when my elder siblings then came back, and to this day, you know, it's Mary's house that we meet at”
2021-06-21 · The Diary of a CEO · Mary Portas - How To Stop Living A Life That Isn't True To You · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“So I was very naughty as a child, you know, just spent a lot of time up to pranks and trying to find my voice, I think, really. Very loving household. My father was very highly strong, hardworking, and my mother was poetical, musical, and was pushed us academically, put us all through the grammar school system. I remember my sister coming home from school and saying, I'm number two in the class I looked at the register and my mother said in Hawkes number one. So I think that gives you a sort of taste of what life was like. But we're very close. My mother died when I was very suddenly encephalitis when I was 16. And she was the center of, you know, the world.”
2021-06-21 · The Diary of a CEO · Mary Portas - How To Stop Living A Life That Isn't True To You · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT