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Patrice Evra

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“My mama my mom cry every time she see me. Because sometimes she's like, you don't understand it's many things you don't know, Patrice, like when you were alone and... No one wanted to help us. And now that's why it's so funny when suddenly you are someone and people, they like your auntie come back or your uncle, but they weren't there when we need them the most. So she always cries. She said, I'm too nice. But me, I'm like, I don't have any hate in my heart. It's difficult And Manchester United.”
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“Oh mom like she feeding us every single day like and why you don't give that money and I say me mommy I don't want anything this is for you because we're living in your roof you're feeding us every day this is for you no but Patrice this is for you mommy I don't need this and I say mom I'm gonna have my big contract. The first things I'm gonna do, because that's what's my motivation, is to buy a house to my mom. And I did it, and I think that's what the most pride moments of my life because I say to my mom and I keep my word, and I bought her a house in Senegal before I bought, of course, with my money when I played for Monaco, my Porsche and everything cars, because I like cars, not now anymore because I understand how stupid it is. But yeah, that was one of my biggest achievements. She must have been proud, right?”
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“Get rid of those people around me and the mafia and I sign with a new agent and I sign for Nice so I go back to France. Bigger salary. I think I was earning something like 3K per month. So much better life, be able to even help my mom. And from that moment, I was like, okay, now I'm safe. I'm safe. And after, you know, I signed for Monaco, of course, and I keep my word. I say, you know, when my dad left and in school they give you like a little money. And my dad was taking this money to send it to Senegal to my other brother and sister. So I remember my sister. Went after my mom with true lawyers and everything, she get that money from the school and not my dad anymore. My sister get that money and she go to buy like some makeup and everything. I was like, shame on you.”
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“I was like, mommy, I just love football. She was like, but you have nothing. Look where you live. If you see my first flood, I mean, like, they allowed me to live on that flat. It was disaster. But I was happy because I had football. And every time when I was training or when we played the game, I was scared to the referee to blow the final whistle. Because I was like, what am I going to do now? Back to the reality. So for me playing was. It was just a dream. Hard to imagine. It's hard to Hard to imagine how difficult life must be for you to. Want the whistle to blow on her on a football game Was there a moment where that changed and where you no longer started to dread the final whistle blowing because your life off the pitch was somewhere to look forward to? It is when”
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“And I assume we say we have to call off the deal because you're the property of that man. And it was a guy who's from the mafia. And actually on that time, I remember when I first contract, I was earning, it was like 50 pounds now per month. And we had like five months where they didn't pay us. I remember my mom and my brother, they come to visit me in Sicily. you know a breast chicken one breast chicken was for three days we had to cut it like in cube little cube i remember she was like twisting in a little bag and that's it that was for the meal for sometime we had only one meal per day but i was happy and i remember my mom come to visit me in sicily And she cried, she said, but what are you doing here?”
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“I made it that day. It was like I made it, mum. I won't be in the street anymore. I won't have to survive to fight. I won't have to beg money. So it was just crazy. And even in that time, even some people, they still take advantage. Because when I sign my first contract, actually. I sign a paper with the mafia, the Italian mafia, and I was their property. And I didn't doubt, I found out this when after I wanted to move for ISOR.”
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“You know, when people ask me what is your best memory when you play football? That was my best memory not winning the Champions League or is when I was seventeen. That kid and just. Having A normal track sets. Make me so happy. And that's my best memory I had since I play football.”
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“I was like, I want to be a footballer player, but I get in shock when I knew actually playing football you can win money. I wasn't aware about that like when I signed my first contract when I was 17. I didn't care about the money. In that time it will make you laugh. You know what I was most happy is when I saw my tracksuit on the bed and I wear it and I was looking myself in the mirror and I was, oh my God. And I went downstairs to join the team and I see all the players sitting at the table and people coming to serving them the food. It was like I remember like three fork on one side, three knife on one side. I call my mob I say ma'am. And even like this is paradise. People serving us the food, I've got like three. Now I've got a track suit. We all dress the same. And my mom cried the phone. I remember that day.”
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“I didn't have any plan B. This was all or nothing. And that's the scary things when I think about it now because some of my friends or some people, they were like, Patrice, you know, school is important. You should have your diploma and stuff.”
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“They didn't take me just for those two reasons. So, I have a lot of, you won't make it. And more people do that. More I'm like, that's why I say I'm lucky mentally. I can't tell you why I'm that strong, maybe about from my dad, my mom or all the things that I have to survive. But this was even making me more stronger.”
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“I know it doesn't exist. That's what I mean. But that's what I mean. And like even the job doesn't exist, go for it. Go for it. If you dream about it. And that was the beauty of me when I was child. Like everyone, like, I did a trial at PSG. And I did everything perfect. At the end, he said. Too small, and you're from the street, and we scare you going to steal things in the dressing room. Yeah, that's why. PSG. PSG, that's what the coach told me.”
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“You think it's going to be you? I was like, Yes, and everyone was even more laughing. But at the end now, I don't want to get any revenge with that. Teacher. I just want to make sure she don't say the same things to other kids because me in that time I was really strong mentally so no one you know can project their own fear because some people I hate those people when I'm going to this no you can't because they try to project in their own failure on you me now if a kid I was you know I see some some some kid at the school in Manchester and I was like if you want to become the president of the universe go for it you're going to have lots of enemies and make a lot of sacrifices”
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“I think I could say it was both. It was my escape, but he was also my love, my passion. Just when you give me like a football ball, you will say everything for me, you know. I remember that a teacher the first day you come at school and they ask what you want to become later. And many people were lawyers, policemen, many good job doctor. And me, she was reading my note and footballer player. But I didn't even know what was footballer player. I was like, I play football, but so a footballer player. She was taking my note in Frontafe1 and she was like, but she think footballer player is a job and everyone was laughing, everyone, my friend. I was looking so and she was going even deeper. But, you know, if it's a trial and 300 kid, they will pick one kid.”
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“So, football saved my life. When my friend they were stealing to get away from the stealing, I was like training on my own, even when he was snowing. But come on, Patrice, you're never going to succeed anywhere. You're from the street. You're a black person. You were never going to make it. You know, just find a white girlfriend with a lot of money. That's the way the people, yeah, think in my street. Stop, you know, you look cute. You can just find a girl and, you know, I was like, no, you know, I love football and I need to training every day. I remember even at school sometime when we went to school and the teacher couldn't make it because of the traffic or the snow and they were like, okay, we freeze some kids. They weren't wanting to go back home. I was like, no, no, no. It's a football pitch just next to the school we have to play. And I was threatening them. Sometimes they couldn't. Like some kid, I was like, if you don't come, I'm going to beat you.”
2021-11-08 · The Diary of a CEO · Patrice Evra: Learning How To Cry Saved My Life · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“I absolutely agree with you because he's a challenge because we have a little help because we find someone, like you say, we feel open and we can be yourself. But yeah, I think we should fight with that toxic masculinity because it's not good even for yourself, but even for your children, for many, for many reasons. You test me by saying Beatrice, if you didn't have that masculine, toxic masculinity, you will be able to survive in that when you were that kid. And I will look at you straight away and saying, no. Is a good subject, and I hope if you want to debate more about it, I will be a good client.”
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“But exactly, but what you say, I think we really see similar. And I was excited to come today and I'm even more happy to be here and to keep talking. We can talk, I think, many hours. And I just feel like so open even talking about you. You asked me a few questions. About why my dad leave many things like. Was not easy to not cry Like that”
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“But exactly, you know, I think it's easy to listen to someone, but to understand the person, you know, to saying, I heard you. This is different Mean you really understand because you can talk for many hours. I'm like, yeah, I'm listening.”
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“You resume it perfectly. And like you say, sometimes when we have a discussion, our love even gets even more stronger. Because we are in love with each other. But what I like what you say are word safe.”
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“I'm not trying to win. And then I understand I'm like, okay, baby, oh lucky we are. The special love we have right now. Like, I will never believe the way I believe in love right now. That's why I'm encouraging all the kids, the next generation. This love exists.”
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“When he cried now, you know, my woman can be, oh, come on, Neelas. I'm like, but it's okay. You know, it must be a reason because he's angry. So I'm the one softer now. So that's what I'm like, wow. You're just a different man. We are the rule. If we argue, because don't get me wrong, we argue like normal couple. We're not special. But it's just like we don't put it under the carpet. We fix it. But not like we force it in a natural way. When, for example, we argue straight away and she say, we need to talk because women say, we need to talk. I'm not ready. We need to talk. I'm not, no, give me my space. Then I come back, okay, let's talk about it. apologize but I'm apologized because I mean it not because you forced me to apologize”
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“The whole patrice will be like, but come on, why are you crying just because you speak come on? But in that moment, I didn't, I wasn't focused on the reason why she's crying. I was like just on the emotion she's crying. She's in pain. You don't need to fix it. She needs a hug. The moment she saw me crying, she stopped crying. She stopped crying straight And for me was new. I was like, what's going on? I can even feel your pain. You know, sometimes you say you love someone, but this is like a deep love. Like even now, she cried. I cry automatically, even now. We're talking when she's next to me. I miss her. Never experienced that. And now it's so special to come back to my son.”
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“You know, when women, this is more about relationship because now I know relationship is not just about love, it's about caring and communication. You know, I don't want to be like now the priest, because when I talk like there's so many people like that, oh, I wish my husband is like you know, I've been the bad guys too. So don't give me wrong, but now I'm more like feeling like, so back to that moment, we were in the car. She was with a drink and I said, don't drink because he's bumpy and you're gonna, and she hate like, you know, having Mark on her. She drink, all on the shirt. Yes, we're on the shirt. She cry. Promise you, Steve. I cry instantly with her because I feel her. I feel a sadness.”
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“Yeah, I was like, but I think, you know, when you cry, I will say like, no, don't cry. She was exactly what I'm talking about. When you cry, I want you to say it's okay. You're emotional out. But it's difficult for me at the beginning, so I was like, Nah, I won't, I don't want him to cry when he fall and everything. And the ferny path is She was still pregnant.”
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“Gonna teach, but I'll be honest with you, that's why my woman was scared when we have our son. She was like Patrice. Before he born, I don't want him to be like you. Wow. put that on my face. What do you mean? Yeah, I want him to be determined, passion, funny, positive, but I don't want him to have your emotion.”
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“What I love about you is the way you question myself. You even make me think, but you're right. If I have this feminine, you know, emotion in that time, I won't survive. Because we know women are more emotional than men. So, what you just said to me, I'm like, yeah, Patrice, we want to fight against that toxic masculinity, but you're happy when you need it Because you're 40 years old, you don't need it anymore”
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“Because for me a glass of eye color was the homeless people living on my street, and anyway my mom and my dad don't drink, so I never had that culture, so that's why I couldn't understand when I came in England and people were drinking, even like footballer players, and, you know, when we were going to party, they were always said to the waitress, can we have hot chocolate for Patrice? Because the alcohol and the drugs, it was like you're going to end up dead, poison, you know.”
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“He dies overdose in Senegal. Even Salis, his document, his French passport. And he went in Senegal and one day they called my mom. My auntie said, your son is dead. So it was tough for me to talk about this in my book because my mom, she's the son of my mom, and I don't have the right to talk about it in my book because we're talking about a dead person. I just unfortunately. This show me like taking drugs, I can lose my life. Like the same for alcohol. Didn't drink until I was 33 years old.”
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“Needle Lucky that you with like eyes, you know, like red eyes. Thus closing the door, and you have to hold on your, you know, if you want to pee, you have to hold it because it's there. And it was one toilet, all out. They teach me Any drug because I saw my brother and he lost his life because of that.”
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“This was a Massive trauma. You know, when you wake up. In the morning, and you just want to go in the toilet and you open the door and you see your brother with Oh, you say”
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“And I think men Like us, I have to change that. Crying is a strain. And you know, when you grow in the streets, just like holding the hand of your girlfriend is a sign of weakness, you're not allowed to do that. So I'm discovering myself. Gonna believe that 38 years old, now I'm 40, I will start to discover myself. Now everything makes sense. That trauma make me become who I am like sometime a soldier, like no emotion. I'm going to do the job. Sometime I win some trophy, we celebrate. It was fake I didn't I wasn't like that happy. If you ask me, Patrice, You happy now? I say yes. Now I'm complete, I'm content, I feel blessed, and I feel lucky. But when I used to play football, I was a robot. I was just doing my job.”
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“I feel much better about myself, and I was still like, you know, I cry in front of her, now she will take advantage of me. To think I'm She was like, you know, baby, I even love you more. This is a strain. Stop thinking this is a weakness. That's when she introduced me. That toxic masculinity couldn't understand before. She explained me what he was about. Like being a man is not like being strong or I was like this is my education, this is the way I grow up. This is why the dad like many dads they do the same mistake and I did the same with my first child, then he said. Sometimes he was talking to me. I was like, You got everything, why you complain? Come on. You know, when I was doing this, come on, don't be weak. You know, it's painful. It's okay When I think about all of that, now I'm like, I live with that toxic masculinity”
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“Again, she looked at my face. She said, You okay? I said, yeah, I'm okay. Why are you asking? No. I feel Hiding something I said, why you know, I don't like when people want to try inside, go to get inside. I'm fine. I was still closing the door. If you love me, you should tell me what's going on. I need to know already. I look at her I just try crying like a baby I cry like a baby. she had me. What's going on And I tell her the full story. So she cried. She was like, I knew. Thank you. If you say that to someone, to the police, to your mom, I said all. You are the first person, and I don't want to say to anybody else. Do you want to see? And I said, I'm fine. I told you. No, Patricia, you're going to explode one day. You need to let it out. Then when I cry”
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“Like I said, the day I share that with her When she met me, I was 38, so I was just retired from football. Doing all my things and oh my God, you seem so happy and such a positive man. But I do you care about yourself, Patrice? I said, yeah. And she asked me one simple question. Are you happy? Yes, I'm happy. I'm happy, you know, I make you happy. I make my Patrice, what make you happy? No, just saying, like, I'm happy, this is not an unswerve. So she goes deep. And we didn't talk about the subject. I said, no, I'm fine. She said, no, because I can see, yes, you're an impulsive person. You like to fight. You say, because this is from the street and everything. But I think you got something. You got the pain on your chest and you don't want, I was like, I'm fine. I'm fine. And one day We watch something and it was about pedophile and stuff”
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“Yeah she make me Being myself and being honest with myself, don't be shamed of anything, baby, and I'm here. And I will never meatrice the tough guys. Don't throw any emotion think a woman can, you know, extract those real emotions for myself. I was like, wow. Years”
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“Doing that day, that's why growing up, when people say Patrice, you're good guys, I wasn't feeling that way because I was feeling as a co-work. because he wasn't about Patrice. He was about the older child I let down when the police called me. He's about the other child still being abused right now. So coming out with this Me a lot I have to say a massive thanks to the woman of my life, Margot, because. Know sometimes people say you need to psychological, but in life sometimes it's about which person you meet and someone I really believe in energy. And to be fair, after that, trusting anyone up psychology, I would say maybe I will tell him this, he don't care. He just pay for that job. Some of them are really good. I never met any psychological about. That woman like.”
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“And I was still playing for Monaco at the time. And the police called me. Is the number of Patricia? You know, we got a lot of complaint about that a teacher. I don't even remember his name. I couldn't even tell you his face because I erased all of this in my memory. Been a lot of complaint about child being abused about that head teacher Did he touch you? No. You Yes, I'm sure. And I was angry even when people asked me that question. Someone asked me about that, put the phone down. So all this year I was like wow Patrice you had the opportunity when you were thirteen years old you didn't I will understand But now you're twenty and you couldn't just what because you still shame of it because you're famous You scared of the reaction of the people”
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“After that, I live all my life with that from the street, you know, you come back, you like imagine you tell that to one of your friends, they're gonna say, you know, you're weak, all of that stuff. So even for me when I had my first sexual relation. It was weird because I had this man in my head Know, and this I never told that to anyone. So I was like massively traumatized. Actually, because all of that, I back to my school where I grew up in the street and I stop even going to that school. Even like people were like, but you're so good at football. Why? I said, I don't need it. I will keep training on my own on the street. I don't want to be in that school anymore. So, yeah, I grew up with that thing for so many years. And what I feel as a co-work is when I was twenty four years old, not twenty years old.”
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“I was even attaching my pajama with my late leases. Like I remember, yeah, shoelaces. Because to make sure he can't put it down. To be fair, you know, he was trying on the top of my clothes, but fighting So one day he did, he put my pants down and he put my penis in his mouth. And I was just like tailrights. I remember I just freeze. You know, I knock his head, but I just phrased I couldn't. Didn't understand what's going on. Then he left. Then I wake up, I can't even remember what's happened because those things you just erase them from your memory. So I'm back to school, I think in school I was thinking about what's happening. It's like something not normal then. I went home, I said, Mom, I don't want to sleep anymore to that teacher. She said, Why? I said, no, I just don't want. I never tell her the reason until now.”
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“But he was sleeping and I was feeling a hand on my body. It's like, oh, what's going on? You know? Then he was trying to touch me, but I was like holding his hand. So it was like a fight for 10 minutes. And I still couldn't understand. I was 13, but you know, I didn't have any sexual relation even with a. So for me, everything was new. I was like, what's going on? You know? We fight many times, and he didn't succeed. Was you know now when I have those images in my head? I could hear him trying to touch me and touching himself in the same time next to the bed, you know. Then he was leaving and every time I was like, oh, it's gone. So he started to become a ritual. Every time I go to bed, he's coming. The same things, fight, everything, fight, f And one day,”
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“So I went back home and I say to my mom, you know, he offered that. And my mom was like, not sure about it at the beginning because even when I tell her, I will speak later about it. I knew it. And she was like, are you sure? Can you trust this man? I was like, yay, it seemed nice, mom. That a teacher at the beginning, everything was perfect. It was cooking for me in the evening. He was letting me play his Nintendo. He had the Nintendo at the time. So I was like, yeah, that's cool. You know, I don't need to go back home on the weekend and I just stay here. Every night I was in my bed and every time he was coming, you know, in my room, and the first time I was like, maybe, you know, you just say, come to say goodnight.”
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“Really simple is because Brettini, it was far from my house. I have to take two trains to go to school because I went to that school because it was a school where you good at football. After school, you have to train. So it wasn't an academy, but he was a school where you can train also. So it was a good opportunity to be fair. My mom was like, it's good. He's leaving the street because he will end up in jail or dead. So it's perfect for him. I went there and I was taking like, you know, two train, four hours sometime and losing my school bag sleeping on the train, you know, even sometime end up like to another destination. So it was a mess. And that school teacher, Ed's teacher, he speak to me. He said, do you want like to stay? Because I'm living inside the school. You have his home inside the school.”
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“It wasn't the right way every time. But at least I was like, you know, my mom, like, when I offer him a bottle of bathroom and I see how happy she was, but she was always where had that come from? And I was like lying. You know, it's just my friend, you know, he bought it for me. But I was me. It was myself stealing it.”
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“And to be part of the group, you need to, you know, it's like some people when they drink because they find that excuse to be like social. So he was stealing. So I start stealing and everyone clapped me. So I was like, wow, finally I'm part of the gun. And from there, you go like to do like video games, to sell weed, you know, to having the best like sneakers and, you know, even offering some stuff to your girlfriend. I offer even like a perfume to my mom, you know, and I was so proud because I was like, at the end, you know, my dad left. And a few of my brothers and sisters left after that. I was like, I'm the man. I need to be in charge. I need to feed my family.”
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“I think stealing was normal because I was like with my friend. I remember the first time I stealing was some gum. And I was hungry up with my friend. They were stealing. I wasn't because I was still like having a good education for my dad, for my mom”
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“And she bit me like so bad. But now I understand it's even worse, you know, because I was like, I didn't steal. I just was looking when my friend was stealing and stuff like that. So it was just a mess and no one, even my school teacher, when they were talking to me at school, I was like, can you put the volume down? You're not my dad. So I didn't let anyone, you know, talking like saying you can't do this, you can't do that. But I always respect my mom and my brother and my sister And Was respectful with my friend, but when someone tried to give me some authority, Couldn't have it because I was like the one I have like the most authority on me was my dad he left so now I don't need any authority from no one”
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“I was a warrior like Thinks a survivor. Because after, like I said, you know, it's you in the street. Oh, I kill you or you kill me. When you grow up in the street, that's why I hate when some people, they talk about their background and they say, oh, I was a gangster. No, I will never call myself a gangster. I was just a survivor. And it was difficult, you know. So, yeah, like you say when he left, no more restriction, going out, fighting outside, lying to your mom, the police, you know, bring me one day home around one a.m. My mom was so worried. I don't remember it was so funny because some words I didn't even know what they mean. So when they bring me back home and my mom was just, she put her hand on her mouth. What's going on? She was, you know, his son, you know, bring back from the police. And I was like, mommy, I'm just being an accomplice.”
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“Problem, you know, when you're a kid, you don't really understand I was happy because my mom at the end, you know, she was. She was happy. But to see your dad left leaving no matter which reason, you can't be happy. Now I understand the reason. I forgive him. But saying I was happy”
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“Yeah, I think sometimes we try to open the door and if you open that door. It was really scary. And when you heard your mom fighting back, because to be fair, my mom, she's a strong woman. And my dad said that. Play with your mom because she's a strong woman. In that time, yeah, when you experience that, Just terrorize you like what's going on. It's your parents, they should kiss each other. So, yeah.”
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“Elive because my mom divorced him. And sometimes it was violent with her. And I remember. Obeying kids, and no one asked me these questions. That's why I'm a little bit. And, you know, my mom was like, no one man can raise his hand on me. So she divorced, he had to leave. You know, she went to the police. And he had to go, and he was a tough moment because when you see your dad leaving, no matter if you know the reason he shouldn't have done that, same taking all the sofa, the big TV, the big screen, he was with a big trunk waiting for him and we were all of my brothers and sister crying because, you know, he's your dad. At the same time, what he was doing to my mommy wasn't right.”
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“When you're going to beat you even more. So that's the things I grew up with like, you know, I can't cry. And that's where we can talk about that toxic masculinity that I understand crying is normal. But for me, crying was a sign of weakness.”
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