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Sarah Bahbah

lines on the record: 92
first: 2019-01-22
most recent: 2019-01-22
sittings or episodes: 1
sources: podcast

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“That's energy. You've pushing all your energy into believing this idea is real. And then getting it done, which is the hardest part, it's the doing it that's hard. Like having an idea and then executing it is where most people don't, they don't even get to that point. There's so much resistance. I'm reading the War of Art right now.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Well, I honestly don't think it's, I personally don't think luck exists. I think People who call it luck don't know what hard work is. I'm gonna just keep referring to the universe, but it's also. So let's just say I dedicated two weeks curating 20 shoots in October. I then strategized the release. And then I went online two months later because it wasn't going where I wanted it to go. And I strategized again. And then it took off. But that was four months, a four-month process, October, November, December, January, where I was hustling and I was trying to make this work and I was trying to break through the internet. That's hard work. That's not luck.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Well, he chased me out of the venue, and I was just like, fuck you. I don't need you anymore. No, he was just the most toxic Cuban. So it was like my kind of revenge knowing that. And that's so salty of me, but I was young at the time. So I was just loving the idea that he was seeing me everywhere.”
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“That was 2014. So 2015 was January 2015 was when it went viral. And the week it went viral, and this is just like a fun little sugar coating, but I ran into my ex.”
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“They were the first to do the post, so they found it on BuzzV Community, took it, and then they were like the ones that made it viral. So Ali Daly did it first. And then I was just like, that was the source as far as I'm aware. And then every other publication that existed did something too. There was juxtapos, there was days, there was Huffington Post and Israeli times, like everywhere. And I'm just like, what is happening? And so after that, I got picked up by a gallery. We started exhibiting the works in internationally. So within America, UK and even Israel.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Thousands of emails, notifications, like 50,000 new followers in 24 hours. And I'm like, What is happening? Like, what is actually happening to have that like... And so I quickly jump on Facebook, and all my friends are tagging me in Elite Daily.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“So I break up with him in December. And in January, I planted an article on BuzzFeed, just one random night. It was like Tuesday night or something. I planted an article on BuzzFeed community. It's like you contribute your own post. And I just set it up like a buzzfeod article because my background was in social media strategy, so I knew exactly how to do it. You know, it was like, this is sex and takeout, blah, blah, blah, blah. And I went to bed. And I don't know what possessed me to do it that night because I'd been doing it for two months. But that night I decided to do it. And I went to bed and I woke up. I'm not kidding. I woke up to like thousands.”
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“And I was like, hmm, this is interesting. I'm just going to be patient. I'm going to be patient. And I was with my ex at the time. We were together for almost a year. And it was almost like the universe was waiting for me to break up with him. Before I flew out the fucking internet”
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“I just gathered everyone in my neighborhood, like I asked friends of friends if they would just model for me. And I was like, look, I need you to sign a release form. And I never had anyone sign release forms before. And I was just like, it's going to go viral. It's going to appear on this and this and this. I just have a feeling. And they're like, yeah, fuck yeah. And so we all, I shot all of it. I think it was about 20 different or 15 to 20 different final pieces. And I shot all of it within two weeks. And then I put it, I did an exclusive online with this publication. And I think we released it in October 2014. And it picked up momentum, but it didn't go as crazy as I thought it was. It would.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Yeah, I have a good one. Mine was like a big breakthrough So sex and takeout was my first viral series. It is a series I created to capture indulgent moments within yourself and with your partner if you have one. And I wanted to be able to empower women to feel comfortable in these ideas of eating what you want when you want without feeling shame or guilt because that's a conditioning society gave us. So when I was shooting this series, it was about two weeks of me. Being like, oh my God, how has no one done this? How has no one done this? This is so genius.”
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“It's just honestly just me hanging out with me and it's my mind hanging out with myself and those two are having a conversation.”
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“By doing that, the day I just lay on my couch and I breathe into my belly and I'm just like, hey, how are you? Like, what are you feeling right now?”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“In order to tap into your intuition, it's spending time with yourself and breathing and breathing through your being and essentially meditating. But people are scared of the word meditation for some reason. I feel like people think it's a lot of work and it's like too spiritual, but really all meditation is grounding yourself and being like, I am here with me. I'm not here with Netflix. I'm here with me. Keep using Netflix as a reference because that's my biggest game. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I watch so much TV. But it's about...”
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“I think it goes back to what I was saying about. Choosing to be with yourself instead of choosing to be with your surroundings. And I mean, that's fine too, sorry, but it's more like to tap into intuition, you have to have a sense of your being and you have to know to distinguish your ego from your body, from your soul, because the three entities are completely different. And then some will argue that emotion is its own entity. And I haven't quite figured out where I stand with that because I feel like you can react emotionally through body and you can react emotionally through soul and emotionally through mind. So I feel like emotion is like the umbrella and then everything falls under that.”
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“Yeah, my intention was never about money for me, it was expressing my story. And the fact that I've been able to monetize is like, it's another blessing. I'm really grateful for that.”
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“Honestly, I think it's more selfish. I think my process is so personal. And, you know, in me creating, I'm healing. And then, yeah, it's like when I put it out there, it's me giving myself a voice And if that's empowering others, that is a fucking blessing. I'm so happy that I can do that.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“And because the process is so personal and it's so real to me, in a society where we are conditioned to manipulate our image to seem like it's perfection and especially on Instagram, like you see so much content that's so curated and so it's not really real to the person. It's an ideal of who they want to be and how they want to portray themselves. But when you see my work, you're seeing me and me healing from my trauma and me giving myself a voice. And the voice that people are too afraid to give themselves. And so I think that's why people stop and pay attention, because they're like, I feel that way too. And most of the time, people are like, I see me in your work, or this is so me You know, so in me helping myself heal, I'm helping others to heal too. I'm giving them words that they otherwise can't.”
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“It's because I can't explain it beyond the universe just giving me a kick up the butt. And it's like, do it now or it's not going to happen. And so it's just you trusting your intuition and being like, I've got to get it done and you'll be rewarded after that. So I think in me trusting to answer your question now, in me trusting my intuition to create and then to express myself publicly is me giving myself voice that I never had.”
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“Of me being like, I've got to tell my story now. It's like I can't sleep. I've got to get it done. I call everyone I know. With every single series I've done, it's been a 24 48 hour process. Noah Centeno, the last shoot I did Dear Love. We met on the Friday for coffee. He was like, let's shoot Sunday. I'm like, okay, we're shooting Sunday. And then on Monday, I edited the photos on Tuesday, we had a preview party. And then on Wednesday they were out online. That was like the turnaround is so fast.”
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“Yeah, for sure. So I think with all of the series that you see on my side and in galleries and whatnot, I think they've all come from me having been able to In my intuition, that the time to tell my story is now. And so, you know, when these series come about, it's usually within 24 to 48 hours.”
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“It's the process and we skip a process. And instead of going from, I'm feeling sad to watching a sad movie, it's I'm feeling sad, I'm gonna like be with myself and I'm gonna feel what I'm gonna feel and I'm gonna cry if I need to and then I'm gonna watch Netflix showed that makes me feel even sadder or helps me express, but we don't have that dependency on ourselves. We have that dependency with everything around us. And we seek validation through escaping as opposed to finding it within ourselves. And I think it's so important that we learn to disconnect from the outer world and connect with ourselves to tap into how we're supposed to be feeling when we're feeling. Does that make sense?”
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“Yeah, well, I think what we are taught to do, or we're conditioned to do as humans living in this society, is to constantly distract ourselves from the way we're feeling. And we do that through our phones, through binging on Netflix, through drinking, through drugs, through everything. We're constantly escaping. Whenever we feel a sense of anxiety or excitement or happiness, we don't just sit with ourselves and we don't feel what we're feeling. We instantly run to our phones to tell people or if it's sadness that we want to feel instead of being like, hey, I'm here for you. I see you in a child. We jump to Netflix to watch like a drama romance that's going to make us cry, which is also fine.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“In the moment and asking myself, how am I feeling? Because that's something I never did. And so Instead of like waiting three months into a relationship, I was checking in with myself as it was happening. Because in the past, I was not checking with myself at all, and then I'd sit down and suddenly I had a burst. And that's when you go through my notes and you'll see pages with like 30 different lines. So, yeah, that process has really evolved for me.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“And then there's I can't let my energy live in you while you live in someone else. And so I actually sent that to him. And then I don't know what this one means, but my right and my left hand aren't the same people. I don't know that one I'm drawing a complete blank on my example of me having...”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“And so the night he told me I'd had a few wines. And so I just really needed to be able to check in with how I was feeling. So these lines just started coming out. And so this one I used in the Dear Love series with Noah Centeneo. And you've never seen me not want you. Are you ready now? So I was like salty. I was feeling like a little bit like wine. And then he texted me being like, hey, I feel like I didn't explain myself. Can we meet up for coffee? And then I didn't even respond to him. I just responded in my notes. And I'm like, I'm not going to let you buy me coffee while you tell me I can't have what I want. So there's that.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“The caddle paddle is literally, as you imagine it, it is a big giant sheepskin rug and there's a tempopedic mattress under it and there's like 20 30 pillows on top and then like throws and it is the spot in my apartment where everyone congregates to cuddle”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Okay, so this one came, I wrote this in September and it was based on This guy that I was seeing telling me that he was also seeing someone else and I was just like a little bit. No, it was okay because we went. We weren't even seeing each other. We just have like, he's a big part of my family community here. And we'd always just end up in the cuddle puddle and make out and whatever. You've got to explain.”
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“Well, I'm just trying to find one where I've got like 30 notes on it because they usually come one after the other. There's so many. No, because that's not out yet, so I can't share that.”
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“Just curl to the bottom. People would literally think I'm insane. There's so much like, what the fuck is she talking about? Like, it's so, some of them are so deep and twisted and then others are just sassy and... And then hang on, let me find a page. I even write wraps, but we can see.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Yeah, absolutely. So with my art, as I said previously, it is me expressing myself and my story. So my art is centered around. Me having repressed my emotions and being extremely apathetic to what I'm feeling. To suddenly feeling everything at once, and it's when I'm feeling everything at once is when a story is about to be told. And so when I sit with myself, and it's usually during a breakup or a grievance or feeling like I've been misunderstood, or feeling like this huge desire to just be like, I have to write, I have to tell my story. One after the other these lines start coming out of my brain, like these one-liners. And I write them in my notes on my phone. And I could probably pull out like a random one from a while ago.”
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“Really, I just allow my intuition to dictate who I want to connect with and who I don't. And it's pretty, for me, it's very easy to identify relationships that I know are going to be immediate and instant. And then other times If I don't feel a choling to you, I know not to exchange that energy. And so. Really does come down to the way I'm feeling in the moment. I can't really decipher it based on anything other than that.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“I think I've always had a since I was little, it was extremely competitive. But I was confident, but I also loved to be alone. And I'm like introverted extroverted. Like when I'm with the right people. I'm like the loudest one at the table But then I need to be alone, like 70% of my day, I need to just be with myself and not really give my energy to anyone.”
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“I feel like A couple of words Hm. Oh, I'm trying to think of the word. There's maternal. Very protective over myself and people in my life. Pretty laid back I try and really just go in terms of my personality, I don't necessarily like to label myself as anything. Like to just focus on being present and feeling. Because feeling is something that I struggled with. I was very apathetic growing up. And so I like to just always try and be here. And reacts based on feeling and as opposed to intellectualizing feeling. That's something I also did.”
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“Yeah, I think. I started doing the self-work two years ago, so at 24. Is that what you mean? And then, but prior to that, I was kind of, you know, when I think about my time on Earth, I should say it's all very hazy. I feel like I was kind of living in ignorance and oblivion. And so it wasn't until I stopped to ask myself, hey, why are you doing this? Or why do you think this way? Or why are you choosing to not focus on or spend time with yourself? And when I realized that, I was like, okay, I got to figure this out because I don't think this is a way to live.”
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“I do. I only see her once every two weeks though. But I was seeing her twice a week and then sometimes three times and then over the years as we got. Know, I've been doing the self-work for two years now. But the more we uncovered, the less I felt like I needed to see her. And now I'm in a really good place, but you still have to have someone you can check in with. And so I see her still like once every two weeks.”
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“I sideline a personal trainer full time. I moved houses because I was living with guys who were constantly around drugs. And then, yeah, I was able to uncover a lot of my trauma. You know, it was validated when I spoke to my parents. And so all of this stuff came up. And I realized that's a big part of my story that I was blocking out. And so when you see my art, you're seeing me before I realized my trauma and then after and you see there's like such a huge progression in the way that I tell my story, it goes from being really innocent and youthful and like very coming of age to really like dark and depressing to then me owning my power. And so there is growth in my art because my art is real to me and my art is my story. And so you see me uncover me. Throughout my art, as you go on”
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“I remember calling my sister and being like What am I feeling? Like, why am I having these memories? And then Know we kept working on it throughout. Trip Yeah, I don't know. I went back home and I decided to change everything in my life. And I went, like I said, I went cold turkey. I went and I started seeing a therapist full time.”
2019-01-22 · The Diary of a CEO · E22: Sarah Bahbah - Addiction, Intuition, Success · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Of safety again because my space had been invaded. And so my trauma brain was active the entire time I was away while I was coming off drugs. Then I started to remember my childhood in that state. All these memories kind of came out And I was like freaking out because I was having these flashbacks of being. Oh, I don't know I mean, it's a taboo, but I'm going to talk about it. Like, I was being molested as a child.”
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“And I was there, I essentially. Renacted, not reenacted, sorry, I had My trauma brain because I was alone. The Coming off drugs Waking up to a bed full of bed bugs.”
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“Through impulsive decision making. Had this weird thing with like first dates and how I would invite. Random strangers into my bed, but then I wouldn't have sex with them. And so I learned that that was me reenacting trauma. All these things that I was fighting. Eventually led me to Go and figure my shit out I took myself to the desert for 10 days. I went cold turkey on everything.”
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“And I No wine, I didn't know why I had certain desires and why I was behaving. Certain way, and why I was constantly choosing to escape. Just Drugs, but through Alcohol too, and through food. I battled with eating disorders my entire life.”
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“Moved to Melbourne Find safety there either. And, you know, I was trying to constantly escape my anxiety. Dived into Numbing myself”
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