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Annie Macmanus

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“Thank you so much, Steve. And also, like everything I've talked about has been inspired by talking about change on a weekly basis. That is empowering learning from other people and how they change their life. So I think that's helped me a little bit. The podcast has helped me to be brave, to change.”
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“I liked that because it kind of set the bar for what I wanted to do with the writing. I didn't want it to be influenced by anything that had come before. I wanted it to be real and true and authentic to who I was as a person. So it felt right to give it my full name.”
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“Parts. So it felt like a disservice to the book to give it that name. I was also very determined to try and call it by my full name. Contrary way, I suppose. My agent at the time would have probably said that surely you should just cash in on the fact that it's Annie Mac. And people know you for that. But I really didn't want to do that. I wanted the book to be judged for the writing and for nothing else. I kind of did it all the way. I should have started with a memoir and then gone to a book, but I did it all. I wrote this strange kind of bleak novel about addiction and grief. A young girl growing up in Belfast and it was so far removed from any perception of who I was as a kind of professional person.”
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“I don't know, I just felt like I went through this period of change, Steve, where I just like I wanted to change everything. It was like, okay, I've changed my job. Something so huge and what felt quite insurmountable at times to be able to change that empowered me to want to change loads more. Writing this book, it genuinely, the first book I wrote, Mother Mother, it felt like a whole different side of me. It felt like all of me. When I'm on the radio, well, first of all, when I'm DJing, no one really gets any of me apart from my music selections and the odd crowd surf if I've drank enough. But radio, there's also a very limited kind of surface level of me that you get that you got because I was only able really to talk about music most of the time. And yes, tidbits of your life. But with this book, it felt like a real kind of sum of all of my.”
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“I'd always been the dumper I was always that person who kind of was able to up and leave. I'd never been on the other side of that”
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“Getting dumped When I was in my twenties. Yeah, getting dumped um it was the biggest kind of experience like that and it was really important for me to know how that felt to be on the receiving end of heartbreak I was incredibly miserable, but I climbed out of it and I think it was a real big lesson to know how that felt. So yeah, getting dumped in my 20s. Yeah.”
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“And just, yeah, I guess kind of doubling down on all the work I'm doing and trying to be the best and the biggest at what I'm doing as opposed to doing what I'm doing well and within my means.”
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“I think it would be running away with a sense of what I should be doing as opposed to what I actually really want to do. So let's take this, for example. Let's say changes my podcast. It would be, okay, it's doing well. So I want to double it. I want to do two more episodes a week. I want to try and be the biggest, best podcast out there and kind of doing that without the resources or without the team around me to do it, taking on that responsibility as opposed to just allowing it to grow kind of. Slowly as it is, it would also be DJing Waymore, it would be trying to write a book every two years, which I have been doing, and I don't know if it's sustainable.”
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“I felt like a sense of contentment and peace, but also I felt alive. I felt alive. I always go back to that. I think writing makes you feel alive because it forces you to put what's there down on paper and it forces you to look at what's in your head. Forces you to figure things out. Um... Think learning makes you feel alive, it makes your head tick, challenges you. So it's that combination of kind of peaceful contentment, but also feeling like pushed and challenged. In a way, that isn't going to Be damaging Some make sense”
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“I mean, this is fascinating because as I've got older, my idea of what success is has completely changed. Success for me isn't numbers, it's not tickets sold, it's not. Awareness it's not algorithms, it's not anything like that success for me now is personal happiness. Personal happiness stems from feeling stimulated, feeling as alive as I possibly can. Learning and also feeling like the people I love are in the best possible way that they can be in terms of living their lives. So that's success now So, if you were to tell me at the end of my 40s that you had a successful decade, for me that would mean that I felt”
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“Looked at the lineup, and the first 11 lines of names were all men. The 12th line where there was a female name. And I remember emailing back to promoters who were all guys and saying, who I knew and worked with and was like, guys, like, come on, what's going on here? And that was the first time I ever kind of answered, you know, was just like, this isn't okay. And then from then it kind of snowballed and I became a lot more vocal about it once it clicked that I actually had a bit of power and I could do something about it, you know. And it's been a joy to watch because now there's so many amazing women. They're like killing it.”
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“I kind of had to like change my mind on that a little bit. Not change my mind. I still don't think that women DJs should be assessed with regards to their gender. But if we need to have more women in the game, then yes, we should be encouraging any way that we can do that. And if that means putting loads of women on a lineup and reminding people how great women are as DJs, then go for it. I think for a lot of my early career, it didn't even occur to me that it was, you know, there was, I mean, I knew there was a problem and that there wasn't a lot of women DJs and I was always delighted when there was other women around. But it didn't occur to me to be an activist about it and to shout about it and to try and bring women through. There was one turning point I remember when I got asked a DJ at a festival. They wanted me to be a headliner.”
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“Right to have to put us down to gender as opposed to ability, as DJs. Like, why are we grouping all the women together? Just let us all be DJs together, you know. You're either a good DJ or you're not the end. There shouldn't be a gender issue. But obviously over the years, with the lack of women in the game, it was like...”
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“I feel at the time I felt it and I meant it. So, what I was arguing about was a journalist who asked me what it was like to DJ in Heels and kept referring back to the fact that I was a woman when I DJ'd. And I was pissed off about it. I was like, can you stop asking me about being a woman? Because you're not asking this to Pete Tong. You know, you're not asking this to other DJs And then there was a thing at the time where it was like this idea of doing all female knights, you know, like just female only DJ nights. And I resisted that because at the time I felt like it didn't feel.”
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“Satisfying me. I couldn't, you know, I would exercise, I'd see friends, I'd go out, I'd be with the kids, everything I tried, I just could not feel satiated and I did not understand it. And then I realized that it was a hormonal thing. So there's so many things that you go through and it's like a weird jigsaw puzzle. But if you know what you're looking for, it really helps. And I actually have Davina McCall to thank for that because she sent me her book and she's been incredible spokesperson for menopause and perimenopause and just getting information out there to people. I think she deserves some sort of national treasure status. She's incredible for what she's doing.”
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“Yeah, it's so insidious because it comes so quietly. It kind of creeps in and it creeps in like, as Gabby said, like with moods, you know, you kind of quite your moods are more extreme. You don't deal with things as well. You kind of get irritable more or angry or upset easier. But for me, I felt like this is the other thing about perimenopause, it might come and then it will go for six months and then it come back again. So it's really, there's no regulation to it. So it's very hard to pinpoint, oh, that's it, you know. So what you have to do is be really across it and document everything. And then be able to zoom out and look and be like, why, that, that, that, that, okay, it is, it's perimenopause. So that's what I'm kind of doing at the moment. I'm documenting everything. Like I had a feeling recently of just feeling totally restless.”
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“This is all happening to me now. There's a whole different change in life. They call it the shift, you know, everything's changing there. So there's this sense of hormones kind of consuming you and taking over your mental health in a way that if you weren't aware of it can be really scary and frightening and damaging. So I'm trying to educate myself as much as possible about all of that stuff so that when it hits me, I know what's coming for me, you know, and I know what to do when it comes.”
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“I mean, the mental health journey has been pretty. Okay. And I realize how lucky I am to say that. You know, I feel very grateful that I haven't suffered from depression or anxiety or anything like that in my life. Weirdly recently, like, and it's interesting that you talk about this idea of when you stop, then kind of you have chaos in your head. So I've experienced a bit of that in the last six months. And I think that is finally like a year after leaving radio. It's all kind of settled down. And everything I've wanted to change has changed. And life is really safe. It's really predictable. And I'm a little bit bored. So it's like I've had to be like, okay, you've got everything you want, but now you need a bit of chaos again. So it's just constant tweaks. So, I mean, I'm going out on the road again. There's things that are happening that will scratch that itch. It's fine. But I've also felt kind of like hormonally just like, you know, I'm 44. I'm in perimenopause.”
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“It's only really in the last year that I've opened up to everything again. I think I'd been so blinkered like that's it now. Radio's done. I'm going to be a writer. I'm going to be a podcaster and I'm going to DJ now and again, the end. But now it's like, no, actually, before midnight, it's like, no, I can really flourish as a DJ. I can really make this last and blossom into something that's completely different than how I envisioned being a DJ as an older person. Same with, you know, radio. I could go back to that and find a whole new way of doing radio that feels amazing for who I am at that moment. So I really like this feeling of everything being open and attainable according to where I'm at in my life.”
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“Is unsustainable for where I was at, and this is the thing that I've learned is that where I was at in my life, it didn't work at that time. But as we know, life changes, our situations change all the time. So I could go back to being a full-time touring DJ in five years and do my Abitha residencies all over again. And I quite like having that openness. This doesn't have to be a closed book now. I could go back to broadcasting and doing like a daily radio show. It's about adapting with who you are at that time in your life and what you need. And that's what I did. So for me, um...”
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“It was kind of a combination of both. A lot of the DJs at Radio One were really competitive as well. So it's kind of, you kind of sense that there's a sense of like wanting to be able to stand and be proud of your lot and what you represent and what you bring to radio on, you know? So that momentum carried me all the way through from my mid twenties up to being around 40. And then just kind of just so mad, like just, you know, stepping, stepping off that train. It's just crazy because you ask yourself all these questions. Where was all that coming from? Why did I want to work so hard? Who was I trying to prove these things to, you know? But the fact of the matter is I did enjoy it. And, you know, I'm not going to sit here and be like, it was awful. It wasn't. It was absolutely fucking amazing. So I'm really grateful for it.”
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“I Do now, but it definitely hasn't been in the past. I've always worked from when I was fifteen. I really enjoy working. I've been hugely ambitious. So I had a sense of momentum that I felt like I had to, you know, I had to honor. There was a lot of pressure being female. In what was essentially what felt like a man's world. So I felt very... Like I wanted to prove that this was possible and that women could DJ and we could carry a crowd and we could carry a club night and an event and a festival and a residency, all of that biz. I felt like I wanted to prove a point basically. So there was that. But I also loved it.”
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“Going from working full time to having one show a week and just being really like what? Because I love working. So I was a bit bored. So I had to find... Like a way to make peace with being freelance, I suppose, and working in my own hours.”
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“I mean, like, as in I used to DJ around my friends' parties and stuff just for fun from when I was about... twenty. And then I got my show on Radio 1 in 2004, so I would have been. It would have been maybe like three or four years. Because when I got my show on radio, when people knew my name immediately, which was quite mad. Was just mad to be like, even though I'd worked behind the scenes at radio and I'd seen DJs, it was just quite. Bizarre to be going from the assistant producer, the person who made the tea. Then being like a DJ, get an agent. Let's do a photo shoot. You know, it was just like, whoa, it's quite. But actually, the biggest shock for me was, um,”
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“It felt a bit like a phenomenon because at the front of all my shows, it was women. It was all girls. And everyone used to remark on that. And I used to love that. So I think there was a feeling of me bringing a different maybe audience to the table I was very amenable. I was very, you know, ambitious. I was professional. I showed up. I had a great team all female team who work really hard. I don't know. I think I can't say any more than that”
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“So, I think for Radio One, they quite liked this idea of having a young woman join the station and do dance music. For them, they really liked the fact that I wasn't an expert. I wasn't tried and tested. I didn't have a reputation for being a huge global DJ. They wanted to employ someone that was representative of the audience. My initial tagline for my first show was like, I'm coming at this from the perspective of the dance floor as opposed to the DJ booth. I'm a fan here. And then obviously I got the gigs off the back of that and then slowly that transformed into me being a touring DJ and beath of residencies and all of that beers. I do think that at the start of my career there was a kind of”
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“I think essentially I was different because I was a woman. There wasn't that many women around. When I was starting out in the world of dance music, So, I mean, there was women. And I'm by no means kind of saying that there wasn't, but there wasn't very many.”
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“I agree. I think fear of the unknown is undeniable and indisputable, but I think it's about allowing that fear to exist, acknowledging it, seeing it, allowing it and living with it to move forwards. Fear sometimes is healthy. It's a human instinct, it's important to feel it.”
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“But I think there's something very. Life affirming about not knowing everything, and something very important about being comfortable in that space of not knowing everything, you can't control life. You cannot control life as much as you try. I have tried. It's not possible. At some point you have to relinquish control and allow yourself to move through life freely without trying to control everything around you. For me, stepping into that, there was definitely an unknown ahead, but I knew enough to know that I was going to. Okay, in terms of emotionally and psychologically. And that was okay.”
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“I'd had the most amazing time. So I didn't feel like I was leaving too soon. I felt like I'd done a good inks, you know. So if anything, I felt at peace and I was just excited, was excited to get the news out, excited to move on and move forwards. I've always been like that. I'm really impulsive. I'm really ask any of my friends or my management team. And they will say, I'm very impatient. I'm very impulsive. I want things everything to happen now. In a way, it was good to have time to make this decision and to have time before it came out to the world to process it. But I genuinely didn't feel fear. And I would say for anyone who's standing on the precipice of change, the best power you can have is knowledge. So know what you're stepping into. You know, as much as you can.”
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“Knowing that the choices I'd made were right. I didn't feel scared leaving Radio 1. I didn't feel scared making that decision because after I made the call to my boss to say I was leaving, I just felt the most huge sense of relief. And I always say that you know you've made the right decision as soon as you deliver that decision. You get a feeling afterwards. And that feeling tells you whether you've made the right decision or not. And I knew with that feeling of relief that I'd made the right decision. And, you know. I'd been there for 17 years, Steve. You know, it wasn't like...”
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“And there wasn't because I'd spent two years. Trying to do the things that I wanted to do behind the scenes, and I knew with all my heart that I wanted to write, that writing was, it felt like coming home. It felt like the most wonderful feeling discovering writing again. And I knew that the podcast had potential to be a business if I had the time to put into it. So there was this sense of kind of...”
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“And what is all of it anyway? What is doing it all? I think there's something tremendously powerful in being able and feminist in being able to choose to step away from a high powered job, to look after your kids because it's a choice. I was very lucky in that it was a choice. And I still worked, don't get me wrong. Worked for my life as it was then.”
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“Have the space to try new things and learn. I think it can happen to everyone. And I think when you're busy and when you are in a situation where you're just keeping things going, you're just trying to maintain life. You're trying to keep a business running. You're trying to keep your job going, trying to keep your kids happy. It's very hard to come out of the chaos and look in. It's very hard to do that. I spent a good from about the age of 30 to about the age of 30 from 40 my entire 30s. It was that. It was just maintenance. I was mad ambitious, don't get me wrong. I wanted to get bigger. I wanted to try everything. And I fiercely wanted to prove that I could do it all. But when it got to my second kid being about two, I realized quite quickly that I just doing it all wasn't always cracked up to be. And actually, there was different ways to do it.”
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“Was more just feeling incredibly stressed and burdened and demanded by people. I felt like so many people needed me. I had a lot of teams around we production teams, management teams, and a lot of people around me, a kind of ecosystem of people of which I was in the middle. I'm sure you relate to that. And I felt like I didn't want to be needed by so many people anymore. My kids themselves were very needy and obviously needed to be needed. And I wanted to devote most of the needing to them. And then also try and devote more time to.”
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“I think, I mean, I think I still might be in the midlife crisis. I feel like something goes on in your 40s where you really are compelled to look back at your life. You're halfway through life, right? So you're like, whoa, what's going to happen for the next half? So you look back, you're kind of forced to look in the mirror. So there was that in a way. I think at that time, I don't know if I would attribute that directly to a midlife crisis. It was more just.”
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“Everything else that was going on. So I had two years of total chaos, of trying to juggle everything, right? And it was after those two years when I was like, okay, I know enough. I know I love writing enough. I know I love podcasting enough. I can give these a go. I'm going to take myself out of radio now. I'm going to take myself out of what was essentially my day job and give myself the space I need to really pursue these things. And that's when they're not left. When I made the decision to leave is when they're not left, when I called my boss and said, I'm out.”
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“It was a way of me trying to understand myself because they say that about writing, like writing is a way to know yourself. So I thought if I wrote In hindsight, maybe it was a kind of weird subconscious way of me trying to climb out of the panic. You know, it was kind of like, I know if I make myself dedicate time to writing, then I will have to confront myself. I will have to look in the mirror. And I know deeply, deep down that there's something wrong, but I just don't have the time to confront it. I was doing writing, I did a course, a six-month course. I was also doing podcasting that was on top of DJing, on top of doing my five shows a week, on top of.”
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“I didn't just walk away from the career and be like, See ya, I'm just going to see what happens. I obviously took a couple of years to try out some different avenues. And these were avenues that I felt very passionate about I really wanted to do. So one was writing and one was podcasting. And podcasting was a reaction to the BBC. It was definitely me being like, I want to own something with regards to my own broadcasting. I want to control it. I love the BBC. you know fly the flag for the bbc forever but it can be very frustrating working for a huge institution because there's so many islands there's so many departments it's very hard to get something off the ground so i wanted to be a broadcaster outside of the bbc and see how that felt so that was podcasting and then writing was something that was very much not professional or career orientated at all that was for my soul that was like i want to try and learn something i know i loved this i want to try and do it again and also i think in return”
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“Yeah, and do more, or just like maintain I wasn't even about doing more, it was just maintaining at that point. So when I made the decision that I was going to leave radio, it's important to know the context of which that happened.”
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“Of peace. Yeah, it's the opposite of peace. It's a constant feeling of kind of turbulence in your head constantly being pushed and pulled. So when you take that out, Again, I was too busy. I keep talking, I keep going back to it, but I keep talking about checking in with myself. I was too busy to do that. I hadn't done that. I never did that. I was never spiritual or into any of that stuff because I was too busy. It was like, I don't have time for anything apart from just getting up and getting through my day. My friends used to take the piss out of me because everything was like five minute increments. They'd call me, I'd be like, cool, give me the headlines. How are you? I don't have time for a full, you know, it was always that it was always like, how can we truncate all of this into as short a time as possible so I can move on to the next thing and do?”
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“Definitely. I'm kind of all there now. Is lovely. Yeah, it feels really good. And I think part of my The big changes that went on in my life in the last couple of years, kind of extricating myself from Radio One and doing writing and writing books and taking up podcasting, that's all been about that. It's all been the kind of nucleus of all of those changes is me saying, what do you want? What do I want? What makes me happy? What is not making me happy? It's all of that. It's all just checking in and doing what I feel is right. And there's no way I could have made those changes 10 years earlier or even five years earlier. It takes time. It takes. It takes time to feel like at peace with yourself enough to just walk away from a career like that and say, no, I'm going to do something completely different now.”
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“So, you know, we all have those every DJ does. But again, I think that's a really good lesson in instinct and a lesson in kind of reading the crowd, but also holding firm, holding firm to your own conviction in something's good. And I think that has grown over the years. It's grown with confidence. It's grown with, I suppose, the idea of my shows being successful and my DJ sets being successful. So as I've become more successful in my career as a result of instinct, of trusting myself and trusting my instincts and my tastes. Obviously, that feeling grows more firm. You get less worried about making the wrong decision.”
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“Yeah, I think. I think it really has, actually. I think it really has. I mean, as well as radio shows, DJing is a huge amount of that. It's having the courage to draw for a tune that you know the audience don't know. won't recognise but you still think will keep them on the floor and again that is like it's it's a really hard exercise and it takes a lot of fearlessness to be able to do that and it's very easy to panic and just put on the tune that you know it's going to fill it up”
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“I guess that's why I'm so happy and just grateful for before midnight because that is an extension of that. It's me using my instinct and saying, no, I believe in this. Surely there must be people out there who believe this too. And it's been amazing.”
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“Music and break bands, right? You get sent so much music. Okay. Now, at some point, you have to say no to stuff. And the grounds of that, there's many reasons you can say no. They're not the right hype band. They don't have enough followers. You know, they don't have someone from their record label who's nicing me up to play it. But actually, the decision has to be down essentially to you. Does this song move you? Do you feel like this song has got something, ideas, lyrics, sonics that can, you know, that elevate it to the point where you feel like moved by it? And I supposed there's training in that because it makes you every day, every week, have to use that mechanism in your mind, which is instinct. Do you know what I mean? You have to listen to your own instinct. So I was kind of exercising that muscle by default in my job”
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“Yeah, I think that's the key, right? To everything, in my opinion, is authenticity. And in order to be authentic, you have to trust yourself. You have to have conviction in yourself. And you have to trust that your own instinct is the right instinct, even if everyone else is telling you something different. That's hard. In order to do that, you have to really know yourself. So I don't know, I think at radio. My job there was to”
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“Women in their forties really who are doing what I do. So I was coming at it from a very unique perspective, which is Women in their voice just aren't listened to in the music industry. Music industry is run by men mostly, right? So when you have a woman in her 40s, they're kind of forgotten about, right? I don't think people think about women in their 40s or 50s when it comes to selling music. And they really should. It's a big, big industry. There's a lot of income there. There's a lot of investment of time. There's some great taste. It's been wonderful to kind of feel like I can give those women a space in the world of clubbing.”
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“Then I kind of opened a door and made it work for me and a lot of other people. And when I do the before midnight shows. People just come up and say thanks. They're just like, thank you so much. Thank you. Thank you. I'm 52, and I feel like I can belong here and I can come out. And, you know, it's not just people in their 50s, it's all ages. It's club kids. It's mothers and sons. It's, you know, people in their 70s. It's the most beautiful atmosphere. I've never DJ'd to a crowd like it because they're so... Kind and open, and it's not really that druggy. Everyone's just there. It's there one night out. They invest so much in it and they're there to have a good time. It's nice to know that My own feelings about something were echoed by so many other people and I don't know any other.”
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“Right, I'm thinking about how much sleep I'm going to have in the pillow on the way home in the back of this car before my kids wake up at 6 o'clock and how I'll be able to get through the working day tomorrow. I started dividing my time in increments of kind of 15 minutes because I was so stressed out about not being able to have the time to sleep, to rest, to then be a good parent, to be able to do my job properly. It became like this kind of feeling of the walls closing in, you know, just like I can't please everyone. So at that point, it was like, this isn't sustainable. It's just not sustainable. I can't keep doing this. And I started DJing a lot less because of that. The world of DJing and dance music and club culture was in the very nature of how it worked, kind of shutting me out because of how I was changing as a person.”
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