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Ashley Walters

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“Probably What I always say to my kids when I leave the house, don't eat my chicken wings. Oh good not on a real note, it would be, I know it's cliche, but it would be. I love you. And I think I didn't tell my dad that before he left Yeah, we didn't have those conversations and he didn't tell me. Not in not using those words. I'm assuming that this last conversation would probably be the last time that I see them. I'd want them to know that. Yes, sir.”
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“Cups of tea and biscuits and period drama and maybe Nottinghill or whatever, you know, stuff like that to... Rest of the world kind of understanding that there's another side to what we have. And I think as a foundation, as a way of opening the door into the international market, accepting what we export. Think is really good. I think now from here we should push on into. Telling black stories. don't necessarily have to be from the same world as Top Boy. There should be black detectives, there should be black superheroes, there should be black, you know, we can, the boundaries are, you know, the endless, but I think that it's open. It's really opened the door internationally for people trusting in what we give them.”
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“Exactly that, I think. I think if I can define it, it will be. I had a meeting today. with like a Nigerian Nigerian man that owns like a record label, a very famous record label, right? And production company. And we sat down today and we were talking, and he was like. Thank you because it's made his job A lot easier. I had the same conversation with Giggs who spends a lot of time in the States and he was like I don't have to explain myself anymore when I go out there. Around the world, they now, because of the show, they kind of know where I come from. It comes to marketing or whatever. Do you know what I mean? Like announcing yourself when you go somewhere into a new territory or whatever. It's like there is an association. For them to have. And I think that's what. The show has done, it's kind of taken us from”
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“Yeah, I mean, look. I wouldn't say necessarily that we won. But I think the process of pushing back. Fighting for what you're believing. Without doing that, I don't think we would have got to where we got to. I think that the push and pull that happens within that process is what makes the show as good as it is.”
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“I was just going to say that, yeah. It's also scary because that was. To get that stability in the acting game is very rare. Usually if you want that sort of stability with a show or whatever, then you have to go and do a soap. Don't really get it from drama like that. So yeah, it's been nice. It's been good for the family. It's been good for me to focus on. Just being an artist and enjoying what I do rather than worrying about mortgages and other stuff. But yeah, been a brilliant time.”
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“But when I say life back, meaning that I can pursue other avenues. Contractually, I was tied down to that show for a long time. That's how it works. And it'd be nice to see what else is out there, what else I can do, where I can take my career.”
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“Input all the time that we desired. And this is like a common thing, you know, this happens behind the scenes. So this is not me being a grass or anything. It's just like it's the reality. Sometimes, you know, when there's seven execs, eight execs, not everyone agrees and you know, you have to, it's business. You've been there, right? You know how it goes. So it was tough. We went through a tough experience we haven't been through before. And that brought us closer together. So it's even harder knowing that this is the last time because we developed another level to our relationship where I was like, ah, as businessmen, like. We're a team as well, you know what I mean But the sweet thing about it, if you want to make end on a positive, is that. I've got my life back To a certain extent. Shane is a very popular character.”
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“Yeah, that's a bit of thing for me. It's like. Remember you spend more time with these people than you do with your actual family. You invest so much into them and so it's tough. I mean if I'm honest with you the last Film in the last season. Bought me and Kane probably even closer than we've ever been kind of doing that show because We don't have the greatest time fighting for what we believed in. Making it the best show that we could make it be the best last season for the fans. People don't understand like we go hard for that show. We go hard to make sure the scripts are right. We go hard to make sure other characters are being represented in the way they should be and storylines make sense and whatever. The truth is, we face a lot of resistance this time around. We wasn't given the creative.”
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“Some of the people on that show. I've worked with the whole time and been doing it. I like my family. And actually I know. We've discussed this, the type of person that I am. Not gonna see them that much after, right? It was our reason for connection. See what happens in this world. You move on, you make other families, you develop other relationships, sir. I worry about losing those connections a bit.”
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“Stopped eating food, you know. I needed to lose the weight. I needed to feel homeless. So I kind of put myself in a situation where I left my household and I slept on a mattress in a one-bedroom kind of apartment thing and really pushed myself to the limits because sometimes I don't know how else I'm going to do something. just being able to act isn't enough. I need to feel it like I need to, you know. And then there's other times where I'm like, actually, I don't need to do that much. Like I know this person quite well. You know, I need to be well versed on who that character is, what their backstory is, so I can be free. Like when I'm in the moment, but I'm not one of these guys that have a set of rules and a lot of the time I believe less is more. You know, I don't want to be over prepared because then I feel like No vulnerability”
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“I have no set of rules, but I'm open to Being willing to do what it takes for any given, it's different every time. You know, I've had characters where I've gone into play that I'm like, I don't even know if I can do this. So I'm shit scared. So I would do everything. Like I'm not eating. Don't speak to people that I love. Like, you know, this was for a role where I played an alcoholic crack addicted character.”
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“You needed someone at the helm driving that had a clear understanding of how to get great performances out of people that hadn't had that much experience and also shoot a beautiful TV show.”
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“Well versed kind of filmmaker. That knows how to get brilliant performances out of people. And remember, maybe 90% of our cast in that first season had never acted before.”
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“Yeah, it was humans on the page. And what happened, you walk away from the... You root for these characters no matter what they're doing, and that's because they're 3D. So you understand kind of what's going on in their heads. I think from the beginning, we've always incorporated. Going on outside of that world, like, you know, I think in like season one on channel four, it was like mental health. There was a lot of other issues that we were throwing in there. You know, with the little kid gem soul, just kind of his family structure and neglect from his parents and stuff like that. It was just other things that kind of. We talked about that you just didn't get in the other shows. And then we had, I mean, a big, big, a big part of this puzzle was Jan. Jan DeManch. Because he's a filmmaker. He's a very cinematic.”
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“I think timing wise, when it was on channel four, it landed at such a pivotal time just in London and for culture. Coincided with The real kind of social media kind of push and all of that stuff. So I think it was kind of cemented in people's minds. And I think it was like the first of its kind really to, you know, to do what it did. So I think that having that fan base, that key kind of niche sort of fan base, cult fan base kept it alive. And then I think...”
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“The space there at the time for them to take it where it needed to go to the next level. But either way, like we discussed before. So good that it happened that way, right? And it had that space to just not be around and for people to want it back for so many years before we got into the new situation.”
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“I mean, you're not the only one who can't figure it out. I mean, I think over the years, because I've been asked that so much, right? I've learned or created scenarios that could have happened. So I don't know. I do think there was a change of God around the time that it was this third season should have been commissioned. And I feel like when that happens. Ideas need to change in order for the new person to feel like they're not living off the coattails of what the last person created that was successful. And usually it's the most successful thing that gets the axe then because there's nothing that, you know, I can't take the credit for this success. So I feel like that might have been a reason why Maybe there just wasn't”
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“Once I've read it, no. Once I read, I never read anything like it. And you've got to imagine I was reading loads of, like when I say everything I read was about a black boy from inner city, London that was a drug dealer or was stabbing someone or was shooting someone or whatever. It's like loads of different iterations of the same character, right? And when I read that just stood out for me, it was something different. I knew that there was something different about it, but I'd had no idea that it would cut through the way it did.”
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“He wanted to change the face of the game. You know, his initial intention was that I can do this. I'm going to be the best at it, right? But along the way, I'm not going to hurt people. And I'm going to feed everyone. You know that entrepreneurial kind of... It was like there within the script and within the character. And that was like it turned me. So like literally months after going, I ain't doing no more of these roles or whatever. That script coming. I was like, yeah, I'm doing this one though. And that's what made me do it.”
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“Like good fellas, scarface, like all of those films that are grown up on that were very violent, don't get me wrong, but behind it all there was some structure and hierarchy. It was the first time that I'd seen black organized crime not looking like a bunch of crazy kids with hoodies just doing crazy shit and not having known, you know, with no sense. Like I read characters that were human, that I finally was like, I saw the people behind the hood. Understood why they were doing what they were doing or what their motivation was for, whether I agreed with it or not. And I saw a character in the chain that was like aspired. For greater, like he wanted.”
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“Typecasts, yeah, and I was like, I'm not, you know, I'd done a bit of research, I'd watch like videos of other actors, like black American actors, had been in the same position and other people. And I just said, look, I have to be willing not to work, but I want to be seen for other roles. Like I want to be, she made me know. She was like, look, you may not get any work for a while. That means like no money, no this and that. And I was like, so be it. So that kind of situation came about. But then the top boy script came. I remember not too long after having that conversation. And for the first time for me reading that script, I was like, wow. It felt like.”
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“I didn't. Do you know? Do you want to know why I did it? Right because, like, literally months before, I'd said to my agent, I said, look. I'm sick of just being a bad boy. I can't keep on playing these same roles. All I'm getting is after I've done bullet boy, I was just getting the same scripts over and over again.”
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“Yeah, it's been an amazing journey, you know. Never thought it would actually, when we were shooting the first season. I remember Kane looking at me and going, are they going to put this? Are they going to put this on TV? 'Cause the subject, you know, some of the things we were in the process, we were shooting that scene where we cut off Sway's finger. The market in summer house and we was literally looking at each other like channel four gonna put this on TV because we've never seen anything. On TV like it at the time, but Cut from that to where we are today, one of the biggest shows on Netflix, one of our biggest kind of exports from the UK globally. And people walking down the street and people were just hearing the shame from every angle of London. It's crazy. It changed my life.”
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“I feel like there's a slight distance between me and my older kids. There's a lack of trust there. Feeling sometimes like Why didn't they come to me You know. For me to dance a dad thing to dad conversation to have. And it's what I think I passed on my My distant kind of Ways to them.”
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“Yeah, a lot of the first bits of their life. And then when I wasn't, I was out, you know, I was touring, I was me doing music, and then I was acting. And then, I mean, if I'm honest with you, a lot of the other times, I didn't care enough. I cared about them. I loved my children I didn't want to. adult responsibilities that came with it and I didn't want to sacrifice you know what I needed to do in order to give to them so for a long period of time I was like I was not there in the way that I should be. And I know that I felt. I'm slightly paying the price for that now.”
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“100%. Yeah. I mean, you know, I carry a lot of fear for that It hasn't gone great with all of my children. I don't have the greatest relationship with all of my kids, especially my older ones.”
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“Yeah, I mean, we've done a lot of work on it. We're in counselling, you know, we're in counselling every week. We discuss it, you know, we talk about it. I don't think the issue has been up until that point being in a room where someone's slightly mediating and helping to pull things out. I haven't felt comfortable enough to be honest with her personally. But I think that's happening more now, and there's ways we're learning ways to kind of talk about issues that we have with each other.”
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“Shall I be honest with you? It feels like that to her now. I don't think she understands. Yeah. I mean, I'm hoping somewhere deep down she does because. With me.”
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“Be quiet. You know what I mean? What's your next steps? How are you going to make this what you want to go there? Write me a business plan. That's what I went through”
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“Yeah, I'm a fixer. I feel like. That's what I need to do. There's no world. Where I feel like you're telling me something just for me to listen to it. Like, that's crazy to me. So I feel like when you're telling me something, it's like, all right, so you want me to, you know, you could be just saying, I walk down the street, I fell over or whatever. You know, that happened like last week or whatever. I'm like, so should we book an appointment? Do you need to x-ray your foot? Like, I need to do something. And I think the key to... But that's my mum has been like that. You know, my mum was. Shut up. How are you going to fix it?”
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“He keeps his mouth shut, and I said Can't do that What happens with me is I cannot just listen. Do you know what I mean? I've worked that out now. It burns me to keep my mouth shut because. I want to solve it for you.”
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“I think it's a combination of both. I know for me, I definitely haven't learned. How to do that I don't know how to Saying it to a friend yesterday, I was like, he was talking about his wife and stuff, and like she's working now and he's not working. And her job finishes at like two in the morning. She gets home about three and then she wants to tell him about her day whilst they're in bed. And he's like He doesn't want to hear it because it makes him feel like. Wants to go and beat up her boss because you know the stuff that she's telling him is like so he gets angry about it and it's like starts to hold resentments or whatever”
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“That's how yeah. And so, you know, but I do. I get it and I struggle. I struggle with it. But it's something that I like, you know, on a daily basis. I'm just trying to... Give it more, and you're right, you're completely right, it's like, it helps me in everything else that I'm doing, kind of bringing that side of me out.”
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“Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm kicking and screaming. I'll kick it and scream it. She's going to be cracking up at this because I don't even know whether she understands that I know.”
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“How you feel? And I don't get that. And I do have to, I need to understand that more slowly but surely, like I'm getting there slowly but surely I will. I'll come a step closer, but I'm quite, you know, I can be quite cold as a husband. And that doesn't work with her. And she's a feisty woman as well. So he's not scared to tell you.”
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“Stuff, so yeah, that's where Dan comes from. So her side of the street is always like I'm like. Strap your boots Something's gone wrong. How do we solve it? It's getting cracking. And she wants to be like, I want to talk about what went wrong and not do anything about it. And I just can't understand. Sometimes we're like chalk and cheese. I'm just like.”
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“Whereas Dan's family was completely different, I'd come home, you know, to the flat. They'll all be lying on the sofa together, like lying in each other's laps, her brothers, her mum, or whatever, then her dad would come out of the kitchen. Oh, you're alright, Ash, whatever. It's just like this whole. And in the beginning, I was like, oh, this is great and on me. Like, I can't. I can't deal with this. This is weird. You know, that was my first reaction. This is weird. I've learned to love it. I've become a part of that family. And I've learned to realize that I want some of that. I wanted some of that. You know, I wanted some of that. It doesn't make me love my family any less, but it's nice to get. Some of that loving, like some of that. You know, physical”
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“Yeah, that was the war. The war was because Dan is like. She's the most loving. caring tactile Of person I've ever met in my life To the point that when I first met her When I first met her, no, when we first started dating, I met her a long time before we started dating, right? When we first started dating and I met her family. And I saw how her family Together like it made me sick. And I know now that it was jealousy. Because I just never. I love my mom and I know my mom loves me, but We can go without talking for two weeks. We're not all over each other hugging. Do you know what I mean? Like, we just have that really. Clean relationship. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. It's like that, like.”
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“Don't think I've got round to forgiving everyone. I think I do carry a lot of baggage, but I'm working on it. And I'm working on it And I'm working on making amends with other people as well. Maybe don't forgive me, you know. But what I do know is the people that maybe I don't forgive, they probably forgotten who I am. I'm sitting there thinking about them all the time. So who's really hurt?”
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“There's a very vengeful. Somewhere inside of me. I believe we've all got that part of us, you know. Some of the things that go through my head sometimes scare me. I've been hurt and I've been hurt. And sometimes it feels like the easiest thing to do is hurt other people. But I'm just glad that I have the ability control those feelings and to think about things and to kind of always In anyhow, I can do it, move forward with love. And I have a clear understanding that. hurt people hurt people so if you can if you can If you can forgive You're doing yourself a great favor first and foremost, if you can forgive. If I can forgive the people that hurt me, right?”
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“I just think you should never be making decisions in that frame of mind. You should always have someone to bounce something off. But I just don't think the voice in your head. I mean, look, in my opinion. In my life, the voice in my head has never been the best voices. I've done some... Some of the most stupid things because I said to myself it's the right thing to do.”
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“Because he's made me make some terrible decisions, in my opinion. Now, nowadays, I try to quieten the voice as much as possible. And connect. I think that's the most important thing to do. Like, if I can, if I'm sitting there thinking something. I don't know the answer. Something maybe emotion or something Like, it makes more sense. Call my To call someone else, you know what I mean, or to speak to open up to my wife about it and go, what do you think about this and get someone else's perspective and then make decisions? But I feel like. As emotional creatures as we are as humans and a lot of the moves that we make are based on Emotion, anger, fear, jealousy, this, that, whatever.”
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“I don't believe anyone should listen to voices in their head, from honest view. Head is an extension of you, right? It's going to be trying to bias. Gonna be telling you, majority of the time sending you the shit you want to hear, telling you stuff that's not really happening, but, you know, trying to justify. I just think, you know.”
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“It's not always great now. I'm a strong believer in that. That voice in my head is a mug. He's not the right person for me to be listening to.”
2023-09-14 · The Diary of a CEO · Ashley Walters (Top Boy): "Me & Kano Didn't Have The Greatest Time!". The Unheard TRUTH About Top Boy, Career Rejection & Personal Grief! · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Yeah, a hundred percent, but it became evident. I was drinking a little bit too much. I smoked a lot. You know, I was biting my nails I know this thing sounds stupid, but to me they were like. Things had never been able to conquer. became more apparent and evident where I had nothing else to do.”
2023-09-14 · The Diary of a CEO · Ashley Walters (Top Boy): "Me & Kano Didn't Have The Greatest Time!". The Unheard TRUTH About Top Boy, Career Rejection & Personal Grief! · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah. I mean, yeah, you're right. You're hitting the nail on the head. I mean, I can't. Articulate it any better, I guess that's what happened. It stripped a bit of me away and I became... Do you know what I mean? It was like the little part of me that made me slightly different to the people around me had been taken away and I just had to be Ashley and just and actually sit with my thoughts Deal with my flaws, you know”
2023-09-14 · The Diary of a CEO · Ashley Walters (Top Boy): "Me & Kano Didn't Have The Greatest Time!". The Unheard TRUTH About Top Boy, Career Rejection & Personal Grief! · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“No, I don't think I had a breakdown. I don't think I had a breakdown. I kind of know where you're, I mean, I had a moment. I did have a moment because I think. I think the pressure. The pressure of not it was hard for me not to Not to have the choice to work. Like it was hard for me not to have the choice to do certain things with my life. Yeah, it took its toll on me. I think, I don't know if I'll go as far as saying I had a breakdown, but I was very depressed. I was very low. very low”
2023-09-14 · The Diary of a CEO · Ashley Walters (Top Boy): "Me & Kano Didn't Have The Greatest Time!". The Unheard TRUTH About Top Boy, Career Rejection & Personal Grief! · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Yeah, I mean depressed. Yes, lately not worried about, I mean, worried about the state of the game, worried about where we was. I mean, I was one of those people that was worried, am I going to die? Do you know what I mean? That was like one of my first thoughts.”
2023-09-14 · The Diary of a CEO · Ashley Walters (Top Boy): "Me & Kano Didn't Have The Greatest Time!". The Unheard TRUTH About Top Boy, Career Rejection & Personal Grief! · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“You know, maybe about vice versa. She realizes a lot of things that. Irritated her about me, I guess, because we were spending so much time together.”
2023-09-14 · The Diary of a CEO · Ashley Walters (Top Boy): "Me & Kano Didn't Have The Greatest Time!". The Unheard TRUTH About Top Boy, Career Rejection & Personal Grief! · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“That was tough, man. That was tough, like taken away. My work from me and, you know, all of those talk of me being like, I'd love to be there more with the kids and love to speak with my wife a lot more and whatever I realized. I weren't ready for it. I weren't ready for... twenty four hours with my family. I wasn't used to it. I was always used to having a release or knowing that, all right, I'm going to have this week full-on at home. But then next week I'm going there, I'm doing this, I'm doing that. So there was always something coming. Yeah, it was a struggle. Opened up a lot of. Lot of things in our relationship. Definitely. I mean, me and the missus, you know. We dealt with a lot now. We argued a lot throughout that period of time. It was like it was tough. It was a lot of things I didn't realize irritated me.”
2023-09-14 · The Diary of a CEO · Ashley Walters (Top Boy): "Me & Kano Didn't Have The Greatest Time!". The Unheard TRUTH About Top Boy, Career Rejection & Personal Grief! · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT