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Craig David

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“Single Which is again, you have to, especially as a guy, and I can only really kind of speak on my experiences, and we tend to. Our actions have to line up with the way that we're feeling. And I felt that there was times when I was talking a good talk, but the way I'm acting is no different than what I was acting before. So then there's a part where you have to pull back the faders and be like, okay, well, this means that I can't enter into things where it's purely, this changed 10 years ago for me, the objectifying of women, that thing, there was something where I had to just check myself and be like, what is this patterning that you have of a look and how someone's got to be? And that's all part of the same thing that was happening as a kid, that it was very dreamy, but without the relationship. And now it's flipped. I look for a relationship. I want to have a situation where I can connect with you. Now, regardless of the look, if we're not going to a place where we can go there, we can laugh. Life is one of the biggest values of any relationship.”
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“I've got you, and baby steps have been needed to, but I'm with you, yeah. I'm at that place now where I'm It's open in a way that I'm down if something tried to close it down. I'm open as much as I was when I first had my heart open. And I wouldn't have said that maybe in a few years back. The journey has kind of rapidly kind of entered into a phase where I just know that that's the truth of the matter.”
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“Crushing feeling I had after that set the tone for the rest of my life until now I've unpacked the whole thing which all goes hand in hand with some of the songs I've written on albums before where I'm talking about breakups there's a song called Thief in the Night which is about a girl who like why did you have to end up being with my best friend like why did there's moments where I'm looking back thinking when I was writing that song what was I feeling I was feeling the same heartbreak that I had at the same zero understanding of what relationship is and now I see it's all about relationship. It's all about opening your heart up again the same feeling that I think we both share when you said that you had your moments of the trigger points and you're like had to open up again and you met someone who met you at a place to help you through that which is even better when you meet someone's conscious and gets it instead of yeah”
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“I've never met a girl who was in something. And I tell you a story that I was breaking up, we're not really in it. But you're starting, it's reinforcing the same thing of Stay sing Don't get involved in all this because your heart will be protected and life is good and we can keep at arm's length. Then link that into the first breakup, first heartbreak. Heart was open. Gave everything, relationship. I'm all in. Like I'm going to, as a child, I was like, okay, it's hard psychologically, you don't really understand what's going on in your family, your parents, but you just at school now, you see a girl, I'm falling for you. She's into you and it's all happening. And it could have been, I think it was only like about a week, week and a half, yeah, the break. Really? It wasn't, it was this one we're talking early, early days. But when your heart is fully open.”
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“Having no modelling of what real relationship is, it showed me early from mum and dad as much as I love them with all of my heart that being single is the best way to get through life. Just stay single because I never saw my mother with another partner. I never really saw my dad with another partner. And I have sisters and brothers. But of my dad's other relationships that he had. And I love them equally. But it's just, I never had any clear reason to say that relationship works. And then it reinforces. So the story adds on later on in your life. You start to see how people are with each other who are in relationships and you get friends who are in relationships and they may be cheating on their partner or you're seeing how there's been scenarios where a girl says she's in a relationship. And thankfully it hasn't been husband, but there's been relationships. I'm not going to be there. The guys say.”
2022-04-18 · The Diary of a CEO · Craig David Opens Up About His Painful Rise, Fall & Redemption · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Get enough karma, you'll start to see that there'll be someone who will be your teacher at some point. And I thank every woman in my life that I've had relations with, I thank you for teaching me in some way. I want to go on record with that because I feel like it's something that I've always, I now get it, that I was moving a little bit reckless and the early times with the music and everything going on. And there were people who were trying to get to my heart and I was just like, nope, got this thing. It's easier to keep it arm's length and it just doesn't work like that.”
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“After early childhood sweetheart breakup, my heart had kind of closed down. And I feel sorry for the girls and women in the last days of my life who've tried to open my heart up. And that's all they were trying to do. There were things that went a bit toxic and went, but I have to own those situations. A lot of guys are like, yeah, the girl was like this, or she was crazy. No, no, no, no, forget all of that. I walked into that and I stepped in with a certain kind of energy and I gave off a certain feeling, and especially if you're having sexual relationships,”
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“I was so open and I had that first heartbreak and it just went from a kid who has had his heart open and thought this is it and you're into me and it's going to and then all of a sudden it just crashed and I was like whoa that feeling and I'd never felt anything like that before where I was like I didn't know who to turn to it was like I felt that”
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“They haven't really worked out too well, or you've been guarded. And it's a journey of, again, of is this story true? There's a point at which you've got to be conscious enough to actually ask that question. And it tends to knock on the door. And intuition is always there, sort of saying, we can have this convo if you want. I'll present you with the books. I can present you with the click on the right podcast to go to. I'll get you to, we can unpack this. Someone will inspire you to do that. But there's also what I've seen now, and I feel very, I feel open enough to be apologetic for relationships that my heart was closed from the basis that not only from the family modeling, but also your first break, heartbreak. So for me, it was like I...”
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“Family life at home. I got a lot of feminine energy and female love and tension and care and all the things that you love from your mum and grandma. And then my dad was just like always had my back and I've got you. But I've never seen them together. So I think, again, looking at... Childhood imprints and patterns as how they affect you later on. Relationship with women was something I've always been really close to, but I also had never had a model of how do you stay together, like the relationship part. I'm a romantic, but if you look at your relationships, like...”
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“Had a lot of feminine energy in my life, which I'm really grateful for because it set the tone for how I wrote a lot of my songs, even seven days. I mean, I'm saying making love. 17 years old writing a song. Who's saying making love? Wednesday. I mean, you listen to the songs now, they're not using that kind of language, but it was that I got, there's a respect I had for my mother, for my grandmother And the fact that even for my dad, I didn't want my own cussing out on record. My dad would just be like, yeah, we need to speak about this. So I felt I got a really good upbringing. But at the same time, I didn't have a great model of...”
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“Yeah, I mean, my mum and dad broke up, got divorced when I was eight. But the beautiful thing is that my dad always would come pick me up on the weekends on a Sunday and he would either be going to Poulton's Park, like go-karting, or I'd be helping him fix a kitchen, which I've got, I would say to my dad, like, dad, like, where's I fix a kitchen? I remember the tools and it was dry and dusty. I think, but I love those times with my dad. Yeah, he really made an effort and our drives in his car playing reggae music heavily influenced everything that I was going through. And for my mum, it was like she was working nine to five. So my grandma and my mother were pretty much raising me. My grandma would come pick me up from school when my mum was at work.”
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“I got went on at sort of when I was in sort of Miami sort of time and even slightly before that was all to do with this childhood thing of I've got to the six pack, the captain and the school football team. It's funny how like those things like you're like whoa and it wasn't even and the crazy thing with it is that when I got into the music, when I started rewind started blowing up, people just want to hear me sing. It was like they didn't care if my stomach was here, there, six pack, one pack, two pack, and by the way, everyone, everyone has a six-pack underneath. So just know that. Otherwise, your stomach's going to fall out. So if that's just a saving grace for everyone, don't worry about the fat content and your fat percent. There's a six-pack underneath everyone. So walk out on the street and feel confident with that.”
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“So I could just set the tone as to how much I want to sell it for. Well, you want a Mars bar for, yeah, it's a pound 50. Like, what do you mean a pound 50? Okay, brother, wait till 11 then you can go and get it for 35p, whatever it is I've got a pound in there. Okay, cool. The leverage was incredible, right? So I always had an affiliation, and one of my favorite movies is Willie Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. So I think that set the tone anyway. I've got a bit of Augustus Gloop in me. I think we've got all the myriad of characters in that movie is me and ultimately Charlie. Do you know what I mean? So yeah, so it's just I've been unpacking it a lot of those things and realizing that my health streak.”
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“Because you're exactly right. It started then, and listen, I could eat sweets, like Cadbury's boost bars were getting eaten like crazy. I go to the newsagents before I went to school to get on the bus. Also, I was selling chocolate as well. So I had like a little, yeah, yeah, I was early days entrepreneur, early days. You'd find the chocolate that was like had about two weeks left before it was out of date. And I'd work that in my lessons, like listen, I knew I had like from 9 till 11 before there was a tuck shop break.”
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“100% like it all you're you're you've got this this period where your heart's open you want to you're experiencing life you're a child as you said you're a child you're a puppy you just you don't know and then all of a sudden you get to all Oh, I can't do that. Oh, that's the way to go. And you're getting all, you're imprinting all these patterns that only later you start to realize in your, not even say in teenage years, I think it's still in adolescent years at that point, but maybe in your 20s, you start to unpack things if you're conscious, you're starting to recognize that this doesn't seem to line up with my truth. And then in your 30s, for me, it was like, well, I have to unpack all this stuff that was like the overweight thing.”
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“I'd just be looking sorry for yourself, feeling like the jeans ain't fitting quite right and the jacket's not and you're getting bigger sizes and then you're just feeling like I'm doing all the fit. I'm doing I could run some legs on me and probably boys that's going to be like you weren't a faster runner. Which part do you run it? But I'll tell the story. I'm on the mic. So I can move, but I was just carrying a lot of weight. But not unhealthy. I think there was a point that when it became unhealthy, it was when I realized that my weight had, I was like 15 and I think my weight had was starting to get to, I was 14 and my weight had got to 14.5 stone. So I was starting to get over my age in weight. And I was like, maybe I need to slightly rein this in a little bit health-wise.”
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“The captain of school football team tended to be the one that the girls were interested in. You were the slightly overweight one that the crown shoulder tell you all your problems have this real, you have a real empathic relationship. You'd be like, this is connection. This is real relationship, but we didn't want to take any further than that. He's the one. Look at the way he scored the goal. So then you've already got this early imprint of what society expects of you and then you start trying to conform to that. So there are periods where I look in walking down the high street and I'd look in the glass, the reflection in the glass.”
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“Yeah, well, the wait one was, it's funny because you like to tell the story differently when you're in a slightly different place and position, you'll tell it like, and I like everything about this is what your podcast for me has always, and I wanted to tell you off the bat what I love about you is that you're bringing out so much so much depth in people and you already know how much love I got for you anyway. The being overweight thing now I see it is actually in hindsight it actually it brought out so many wonderful things that had to kind of that have been repressed for a long period of time but at the time the social standard was you need to look a certain way”
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“Mum, you've always been supportive to me. Like, if I needed to speak to you, if I needed to say things, but. With bullying there is an element where you want to say something to the closest person in your life, be it your family, so your mother or your father. And I wanted to really portray that in the song properly, but I wanted to have that convo with my mum to let her know I knew that you would have always, if I needed to speak to you, you would have been there. Because I do say your problems of your own. And I've tried to tell you so many times you're not listening. And that is the case, a lot of the cases of bullying that even family aren't listening. So who do you turn to? Music has been that song in particular, I think that was a journey. My grandma had passed away at the same time. I just needed to get things off my chest that I felt like this is past a romantic love song. I need to help people.”
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“Is the thing with bullying is that I agree with that it needs to be spoken to someone it can provide in. But sometimes that kind of very rushing, you've told the teacher they rush in, it's all out in the open. I was seeing kids who would then have the kid waiting outside of school for them or it might be that they're being bullied for someone from a different school even so they'd be coming out to the school gates thinking, okay, well, I'm on my way home. No, it's about to start when you get on the bus to go home. So the whole world is now outside of school. You finish at 3 p.m. And now it's beginning for you. So I felt deeply that I needed to write on that. And like I said, my mum and dad had their own things going on in their lives. And I spoke to my mom. I wrote the song when I was in Southampton. I got like a studio when I was down there. And I played it to her because I wanted her to also know that.”
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“So, as a lesser degree of the bullying, I was experiencing it physically in the corridors. So I kind of, so when I was starting to write that song, I was drawing from, I had to go to how did it feel when that was happening? And it only happened with one guy at one period in the school. So I understood what bullying was. I mean, that was, I was felt helpless. I couldn't, it was two years older, stronger, could rough me up if we really wanted to. But then also I was seeing other people who were getting a real, I was getting a psychological element, but there was a deeper side of that psychology of when they say tell the teacher, they'll deal with it.”
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“Yeah, that If that was a song, I had to The first time I think kind of opening up and expressing. Experience that I felt I had maybe on a lesser degree to a lot of other people in my school. I think at school, like in my secondary school, I've had a very, had a beautiful upbringing. I enjoyed life as a playful kid. I love music. But secondary school, all boys school went to Belmore and Southampton. And for the majority of it, it was a great times. But when you come in in your early years and you've got the older boys in there and they're like, you got two pound and you know I haven't got two pound and push you up again. You've got two pound on you. And then it's not a case of like if you've got the money. He's like, let me check in your pockets. Let me try and pull out the pockets.”
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“Height of success when it is like whoa, there's so much of the human part that's being unmet. I felt like I was starting to make music the tick boxes when I started to do abandon myself and I started to do things that just weren't in alignment. It was a point where I had dark thoughts. I was just like, I can't live my life like this. What people enjoyed from me was music and I realized that from when I came back to London. I feel like the kid again. And trust me, the crowd are going to go off when they hear something soon, okay?”
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