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Elizabeth Day

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first: 2021-04-19
most recent: 2021-04-19
sittings or episodes: 1
sources: podcast

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“Well, I need to ask you this, so I'm going to ask you this after I've tried to answer it because you have to deal with it on such a massive scale. And I'm just like a micro tiny thing in comparisons. I don't think that's fair.”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Authentic self in integrated selves. So like professionally, personally, and when I'm asleep, like I'm in my friendship group or when I'm stroking my cat, it's always the same me.”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“I feel I'm worthwhile. And I was on a hiding to nothing because actually I was outsourcing my sense of self to everyone else's opinions of me and to kind of external validation. And I've now realized, and it's taken me a long time to realize this, that my only validation that means anything can come from within and from my cornerstone relationship. So like the four or five people I love most in the world whose opinion actually means something to me, that's what it is. Now, having worked that out, how can I bring my authentic self into every area of my life? And that's why the podcast has failed and the books about failure have genuinely been such a gift to me because they've enabled me to connect with a really big audience whilst being my true self, whilst taking the risk to be vulnerable. And that for me is success being my”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Of who I am because I've redefined my notion of success. So in the past, my success was not necessarily being a happy sexy millionaire, although I wouldn't say no. In the past, I had a very different Contextual upbringing from yours. And I'm immensely privileged in many ways. And one of the ways in which I am privileged is that there was a lot of kind of creativity and cultural discussion in my home. Like I was surrounded by books. I was never taught to feel that that was odd that I read all the time or that I wanted to be an author, even though there was no one in my family who did that. So I had those kind of conversations. And that's an enormously wealthy way to be brought up. Even though we didn't have that much money, that was very wealthy. And so for me then, success was about doing well at school. It was doing well academically. And I realized that when I did well on an exam, I got approval. And that for me became a substitute for self-worth. So for a long time, I was on this feedback loop where I was like, if only I could just do better and do better at more things, eventually.”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Because I know that, yeah, you believe like I do, that vulnerability is the source of connection, true connection. And that was really beautiful. I think I have figured out who I am now, but I sit here as a 42-year-old having only just figured that out. And the reason I figured it out is because of all of those things that went wrong. Those relationships that ended, that imploded, the jobs that weren't right for me. Like that was what prompted me to do the soul searching. And I'm a big believer in things happening for a reason. The universe unfolding as is intended. Even if you can't make something meaningful as and when it's happening because it's traumatic and it's devastating, I tend to believe that there will be some meaning in there in the fullness of time. There'll be something that I needed to learn. I wish sometimes I'd learned the lessons more quickly because I believe I kept being sent the same lessons until I really, really learned the thing that I needed to learn. But I do think now that I'm aware”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Relationship ending and by all of the IVF and coming to terms with my first miscarriage and all of that, I actually felt strong for having withstood it. And I actually felt kind of liberated too because I had no plan for the future. And having no plan for the future can be terrifying and it can also be this enormous opportunity to change your life and to redefine it according to who you really are once you've stripped back that pretense. So that's one way in which I felt like a failure, but I probably wasn't. It was what I've been told to feel.”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Girl, whereas boys were enabled to be mischievous, and that was seen as kind of cute and charming. And that led to me being an inveterate people pleaser, which I know is something that a lot of people have in this kind of industry. And it also led to me imagining that I wanted to be married and have children. And that's what I tried to do. And in my 30s, I did get married to the wrong person. I ended up getting divorced. And I tried but failed to have babies and went through various fertility treatments that were emotionally devastating in various ways. And it got to a point when I was 36, divorced, didn't have children, where I really did feel like a failure. And the reason I felt like a failure is because that's what society had conditioned me to believe of myself. Because actually after I'd got over the pain and the grief caused by that seminal relationship.”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Of course, yeah. I realized I had to define failure after I had launched a podcast called How to Fail and after I had written a book called How to Fail. And then I kept getting asked this very reasonable question. And I realized I'd never come up with a satisfying definition for me. So the definition I came up with in philosophy is that failure is what happens when life doesn't go according to plan, which totally taps into what you've just asked me about. Because then you need to start to think, well, where does the plan come from? Is it genuinely my plan? Is it genuinely what will make me happy? Or is it what I've been told I should expect my life to be? Because when I looked at some of my metrics for how my life should be, and I put that in quotation marks, it kind of came from like 1980s rom-coms and patriarchal society and conditioning and the idea that I'd been raised in the 80s to be a nice, pleasant place.”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“I felt like a failure, but I probably wasn't. It was what I've been told to feel. I've had countless failed relationships. And it sucks. Like heartbreak, there is no pain like heartbreak. I now realize that I learned something very instructive from each one of those relationships and from the fact that they ended. It taught me something that I needed to know about myself. Infertility and miscarriages are not a mishap. For people who experience it, it's a tragedy over which they have no control. And the idea that I was exploiting it to make a full-time career out of it was so insulting because I know how fucking painful and traumatic it is to go through.”
2021-04-19 · The Diary of a CEO · Elizabeth Day Opens Up About Heartbreak, Miscarriage & Failure · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT