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Jim Chapman

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“Sport, you know, you have to be smart, you have to think about where you're positioning in all the time. And I've never, this is not, I don't know if it's not in my nature, but it's something that I won't entertain. There are times where I get driven bonkers by Sarah or by people. And I just think, oh my God, I could just like nut you right now. Obviously, I'm never going to because it's just every fiber in my being would not allow me because I've seen the impact. I've seen. I'm six foot three. I could do some real damage, but I just... Never would so I do get loud sometimes if I'm you know if we're having an argument I will kind of just talk louder and”
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“Totally, yeah, yeah. I'm very work on, and I hate this, I hate saying it as it sounds like really wanky, but I work on bettering myself. I know my flaws. I work too much. I forget to bring my head up and I neglect Sarah sometimes because I'm too busy typing away or I'm too busy in my own little world stressing about whatever I'm stressing about, which doesn't need to happen. Aggressive, never been violent. Weirdly, I do boxing quite a lot, but it's not about the violence of it. It's about the chess of it. I really like it, it's an intellectual.”
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“But I think that the thing is, my degree is in psychology, right? So I know a little bit about it and I'm always quite conscious. Like I know, for example, there are certain genes. Will only get triggered under certain environments. So, yes, all right, I might well have his gene for something, but if I don't, if I'm not in a environment where it's had to have expressed itself, then I might never. And I also think that there is an element of I guess consciousness that can override that self-awareness.”
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“For example, when I moved house, wouldn't stop going on about parking? Like that sort of thing. Oh, you better go a park. I live in London. You don't get off street parking. I've got a parking permit, a park around the corner. That's my life. She's like, oh, you need to get a driveway. I'm like, no, I don't. That's the sort of thing she won't let it drop. She's got a fact in her mind about Trump, for example. And she goes, all Trump's bad. He did this thing. I'm like, yeah, but what about all the other things? You know, so she's... That's her kind of annoying trait. And if that's the worst I get, then I'm fine with that. As far as my dad, I don't think, I mean, yeah, like I say, he's half me, or I'm half him, I suppose.”
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“100%. Yeah. And I'm very proud and very happy to have broken that cycle because, you know, I don't know what his dad was like, but my granddad taught my dad his behavior, not all of it, because I actually do think there was, I actually do believe my dad had sociopathic tendencies, which isn't necessarily a taught thing. It's more like a brain function thing, you know. But I think there was definitely something there and it didn't help having his dad teach instill in him certain beliefs and patterns or whatever.”
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“Yeah, I think I just have empathy for people. I think there's definitely blame. I think we all have to own our own actions. But I think there are also. There are reasons behind actions. I don't think it's ever as simple as he hit my mum just because he's aggressive. I think you have to dig deeper. My granddad So his dad not okay. I remember going to his house and he'd be like watching. Not porn, but like soft core in front of us, you know, as just he was just, I don't know, I don't know if he was just a bit like. Senile at that point, or what, but you know, it's not all right to do that with young kids around.”
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“We were all in the same ocean. So depending on how good your lifeboat is, you weather the storm or not, right? There's a storm on the ocean. We're all in it, especially at the moment, there's a pandemic, right? We're all in the pandemic together, but it depends on the boat you're sailing on. And there are times when boats kind of bump into each other or someone's in a dinghy and you need to sort of tie them to yours for a while and help them get through things or whatever. But I really don't feel like anybody is purposely an ass. It might be manipulative. They might see a way that they can behave that will better them in a situation where they go, okay, I'll come off better with that. And it might do him no favors, but they're not doing it for that reason. They're doing it for that reason. They're doing it because they want to have a better situation for them, not just to piss me off. So I tend not to have arguments. I will say to someone.”
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“And they will have equal and opposite feelings on the way I behaved because of their actions. Nobody, I believe nobody will go out of their way just to be a prick. You know, they've always got Thoughts and feelings and their motivations, and I don't think anyone's doing it like, oh, that'll piss Jim off. I'll do that. You know what I mean? They're living their life. We all live in our bubble. My therapist calls it the lifeboat. We all live in our lifeboat, right? But”
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“Yeah, I don't. I actually think of myself as quite an empathetic person. I rarely have arguments with people. I do with Sarah, obviously, because we live under the same roof. And we have disagreements. Yes, my fiance, although not at the moment because she's pregnant, so she can do no wrong, but I do have, I tend not to have extra personal drama because I do consider how it would be from someone else's perspective. And I appreciate that. Yes, okay, I could have my say because I feel slighted about a thing and I could say, well, you did this and it made me feel that. But that's my feelings on an action that they...”
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“You know, there was two parents earning, but also he earned it by sort of nefarious means. Suddenly, we had no money. My nan had to buy the house that we lived in, and we stayed at my mum's best friend's for like a year or so because she took us in and we couldn't afford anywhere else. But I was safe and I was happy and I was like my mom had more capacity to be a better mom because she wasn't constantly running for the hills, you know. So actually, I think that it's a really positive thing that that happened because imagine if he was still around. Imagine if he was still my father figure now at 33 I'd be a mess for one thing, I think, but I'd also be I wonder if I'd be not a nice man and actually I pride myself on being decent and kind and he missed out on that.”
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“Let the card's life doubt him ruin everything, I think. And I think because of that, he was angry. I also, I mean, and I don't say this lightly, but I think he was definitely sociopathic. He manipulated everybody. A lot of it, my mom didn't even know about until we were clear from him. And then people start asking her for money because, you know, he owed to them. I mean, he went to prison for like armed robbery or something. He was just, you know, he did some really bad things. So I think for me, that's kind of the first thing my mind goes to when someone asks me about kind of childhood formulation of me. But I don't necessarily think of it as a negative thing because actually I think that because he was removed from my life by my protectors, my mom and my big sisters, I had a wonderful childhood. You know, we didn't have any, when he was around, there was more money because I think he stole a lot of money and because he took it.”
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“And he missed out on that because he was. Well, I would say he had MS, and I always remember him being a victim of it in a way. My sister inherited from him. And she's so positive with it. Like, she's not a victim. She doesn't let it be her. She has times where she's tired. It gets on top of her. She has a little sob. She goes to bed. She recognizes the signs, though, and she goes, right, okay, it's getting on top of me. I need to rest for a while. I remember my dad just being like a victim of it. and being like, oh, it ruined my life. It did this. He used to play football. From what I understand, a fairly high-ish level, like kind of, he played for West Ham, not in the A team, but something. And he was like, oh, the MS ruined it for me, which I'm sure it did, you know, there's no question with that. But life deals you cards and you react, you behave in a way that you see fit. And he...”
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“It was a very unsettling time for a child, but because of that he was removed and I spent most of my childhood being bought up by my mum and my big sisters. So I wanted for nothing. I was very well loved, very well protected, super well looked after. And I think actually I often wonder, and I was having this chat with Sarah the other day because obviously we've got a child on the way. And I was thinking, I wonder what man I would be if he had stuck around or if we couldn't get away from him or whatever it would have been. And, you know, whether he wanted to or not, he taught me a lot of lessons. But I think mostly cautionary lessons because my family are bloody great. You know, there's got two big sisters, a mom, I've got a twin brother, and I would choose no one else on the planet to take those roles if I had the choice, they would be the people I choose 100%.”
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“Car and kill us all. He drove like a maniac. He was drunk quite a lot. My mum couldn't just leave with four children because he found us, we tried to leave and he found us, you know? So I think that he's very much a cautionary tale for me. He was out of my life from fairly young, but never fully out because he, you know, was taken away by the police. He was arrested. He was in prison for a while. But despite the fact that we had like a court order that he couldn't come near, he still came near all the time. At one point he kidnapped us a very strong word, but at one point he took me, it just kind of came to the window. And I was his son. You know, he was my dad. So I worshipped him and I still didn't fully understand. So I remember going to the window and saying, Mum's calling the police, you have to go. And he just sort of went, okay, and just took me with him and drove. We're in a bloody police chase, drove like super fast. And the police had to kind of, you know, stop him, pull him over. It was, you know, it's a...”
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“This is great. And I think I got, as I got slightly older, I realized that things weren't quite right. And it was one day my brother and I were in the room next door where we slept my parents and we walked in and my dad was like on top of her just beating the shit out of her basically. And my brother and I, we were only tiny. We must have been like five or six, try to pull him off, but obviously he was huge. So just pinged us away. And it was a wild night. You know, the police came, took him away, etc, etc. I didn't know at the time, but he had been beating my mom and abusing her for years. But of course she was trapped. Now, my mom is a saint, but also she doesn't tolerate fools. She's not, I think about domestic abuse is a lot of people go, oh, just get out of there, just get out of there. It's not as simple as that. She had her kids to think of. I remember being in the car with my dad and he would threaten to just crash.”
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“Okay, I guess, and God is instantly going to sound like a sob story, and it absolutely is not. This is a positive thing. I guess the first thing that springs to mind is my dad. So my dad was, he did some bad things. Like, he abused my mom from both even before I was born. I got two older sisters who, you know, dealt with it as well. I don't think he ever turned a hand to them, but he verbally was very, I mean, even I remember that and I was super young. I remember him being very, very hurtful and very unkind and just bullying to my sisters. I think he always wanted boys. So my brother and I were kind of like, I've got a twin. So we were like the prodigal children, I suppose. I didn't know this because obviously I was born into it, but it's not, it wasn't until I got a little older and I'd have like sleepovers at friends' houses or I would just be in the presence of other people and their parents and I'd be like, wait, your house isn't terrifying?”
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“My dad, he was out of my life from fairly young since he was arrested, he was in prison for a while, he was definitely sociopathic. I wonder what man I would be if he had stuck around. I've lost count of the amount of times I've been called a cheetah. Me and Tanya broke up just over two years ago. Me and Sarah got together as far as the world is concerned a few months later, but obviously that wasn't it because the world only found out me and Tanya broke up when we decided to tell them. I lost my shit the other day on social media. So I can take Hay, I've got a thick skin. It bounces straight off. I don't care. This is my job. It's not a personal reflection on me. But when it comes to somebody calling my pregnant fianc ⁇, the names they called her and saying that my baby should be miscarried, that's where I draw the line.”
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