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Russ Cook

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“I guess I do have empathy. For that guy, I think the thing. The thing that I needed to hear which was the most, which actually got me to force me into action was like... I need to take responsibility for my situation So that version of me at 18, 19 was very much one that looked at my outside world and blamed everyone else for my problems. Oh, it's because my parents did this or my boss did this and all of these other things. I didn't need anyone else to come in and say Oh it's not your fault. I needed someone to go. That's the fucking world mate get used to like do something about it or don't ups you. So Probably the message I'd give. Maybe I'd deliver it in a nice little empathetic way Ultimately. Know no one was going to come and save me. It had to be me.”
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“Well, just like the day to day I'm quite like. Keith a lot of things to myself a lot of the time, anyway. So, like, no one really knows.”
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“Probably I reckon, like, I don't know, I reckon my mum's probably thought about it, to be fair. I don't know. They don't know the ins and outs.”
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“Guidance in a lot of ways, and I think so blessed to have been born in this generation where the guidance can come through all of these online resources, whereas before, you know, like 20, 30 years ago, maybe that would never have come for me and maybe 20 years later I'd still be in the same spot. So like incredibly grateful for that.”
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“I think there's a few different things that went into that melting pot. I think actually a massive thing was things like listening to podcasts. I remember listening to Joe Rogan a lot back in the day. I remember the Jordan Peterson, there was a Jordan Peterson episode ages ago, and it was like a classic thing. But that really kind of hit me. And that's what I like. I love listening to him now. And I know he's a bit controversial these days and people have XYZ to say about him. But for me, just having that was like my...”
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“So that kind of sense of helplessness was a really big weight on me. And it just felt like I was never going to be able to shift it. I think that was the most difficult thing. I was like, I don't know how I'm going to get out of this.”
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“I mean, I remember I said I'd wake up crying to speak to my boss. I remember even one day with my boss speaking to him on the phone just burst into his crying. I think what was hard is that I didn't understand anything. I mean, I didn't have the tools to really make any sense of the situation because, you know, now I'm seven, eight, nine years older. I can look back and go, yeah, well, that's what happens when you gamble loads and you piss all your money away and you drink loads and you don't have anything in your life that's going to bring you any meaning or fulfillment. It's obvious. But at the time, I didn't know that.”
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“I guess I was just doing a lot of things that would make you. Miserable. I had no control over my finances because I was pissing away everything I earned on roulette. The only things I looked forward to was going out and getting pissed, which would make me feel that shit as well. And then I'd go to work and hate it working every day. So it doesn't take a genius to work out. That's going to be a pretty misfortune existence, you kn”
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“I'd wake up supposed to go to work. I'd just be like so upset. Just be like the worst, so miserable. Couldn't just fath Why does it suck this much? I really had no Felt like I was kind of trapped Lack of connection, I think, was a big part of that.”
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“Definitely. I was so miserable, man. So, so miserable at that time. Really struggled. I remember I would like. Why cop throughout the week just like crying? So miserable.”
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“Yeah, I mean, I think the alcohol stuff was just like binge drinking culture. I wouldn't say like I was alcoholic or anything like this. That was just. The only way I could really look forward to, I'd hate my jobs, I'd hate work all throughout the week, but I'd be like, all right, Saturday with the boys or Saturday drinking this, whatever, going out here was like the thing that I looked forward to. That was the only thing I was really living for.”
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“Yeah, oh Matt, it was embarrassing to even talk about I remember. I didn't have much money, but I'd done one night on roulette, I'd done about two, I think it was over two grand on online roulette just sitting there on my phone late at night, just tapping away. And that was kind of everything I had at the time. I had plus the overdraft plus all the rest of it I was too embarrassed to say anything, so I told my missus I think I just made up some bullshit lies about what this XYZ and said, like, I need to borrow money for rent and stuff this month. There was a moment there where I was like, okay, this really needs to stop. And I just went on every single gambling website I could find and did the self-band thing.”
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“You know, ended up with that kind of lack of guidance. I ended up just doing the things that felt to me like the most fun or the most like they would bring in my naivety, they would bring me the most meaningful experiences at the time, which ended up being going out a lot with the boys and drinking and gambling. And that's kind of what my life was for the next kind of two, three years after that.”
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“Yeah, so I remember I had this flat in Worth and it was the cheapest flat available on right move. 450 quid a month, which is more than I could afford. But I was like, right, let's do it. Was working a bunch of different jobs trying to finish college. Kind of scrape through and then I I actually was watching This is so cringe, but it's funny. I was like one of them lads that watched Wolf of Wall Street and was like, this is it for me. Do you know what I mean? This is the gape. I'm going to become a millionaire doing sales stuff. So I went and got a few sales jobs. Actually, not bad money for my age, but really didn't enjoy it”
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“Oh mate, I couldn't agree more. Especially with me and my girlfriend's dynamic anyway, like that's really, she's, I look at her like a wizard in that sense. I'm like, I don't know what I'm doing. She's got that under control, which is amazing”
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“Yeah, yeah, yes. Before I left Africa, we'd spoken, me and my gathering, spoken a lot about these kind of things and how important we want families to be. And she... I felt like at a loss making that step. I just didn't really know how to do it, what to say, blah, blah, blah. But she kind of over this year is really done a lot in that sense.”
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“I think, like, a big part of that for me in building that bridge was actually my girlfriend when I was away. She went over and she went round the house and spoke to him loads and she's, because even before I left, I went round to see both my parents before I left. It was the first time I see them in Maybe like a year and a half, two years.”
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“Just because I think there's always a part of me that understands that my parent, there's no one else in the world that loves me like my parents do. And no matter what they do or how badly I felt I'd been wronged, which I wasn't really, they were just trying their best. I always knew that, you know, whatever happens to these are two people that actually care about me the most. And I think that just makes when things aren't going well, that makes you emotional because it's like Are the people I'm supposed to be closer with? Things are real bad right now.”
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“100%, man. And I think the hardest geezer kind of like that aggressive approach to it is just like a way of coping with it. Every now and again, you know, like the emotions would roll out. And I'm not denying that for a second. I remember seeing, I moved out and then I think I saw my dad maybe, I can't remember how long after it was a good few months, maybe a year or so. And it just made me cry just seeing him. So like the emotions were always there. To kind of get through it, it was like, right, you know. Fuck”
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“Yeah, yeah. Well, there's moments in there where it's got better and then got worse and got better. For a while, yeah, it was.”
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“Yeah, didn't speak to him for a long time. Even up until, I would say up until probably the last year It's a couple of years. It's been pretty. But...”
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“Yeah, like so much energy, which is in a lot of ways, I think, a positive thing, but just without those guidelines to actually get you somewhere, it just kind of becomes chaos.”
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“I guess I just wanted someone to understand and I think I just wanted the guidance of someone. I wanted guidance, but from someone. Someone that I looked at and was like, I want what they've got, you know, or like they've done life in a way that I want to do life. And they could teach me the lessons, but I didn't, I was struggling to kind of find that at that age.”
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“Yeah, I get it from, I think now I'm older, I just get it from both sides. It's really difficult. It was really difficult for them to manage that complex kind of personality. And it was also really hard for me to express or communicate in a way that I was going to get myself listened to. I wasn't doing that. I was just like totally trying to run everyone over, you know?”
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“They would have said, like, this guy needs humbling. He doesn't know anything about the world. He's very arrogant, very disrespectful.”
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“That was about 17 And then I organized a flat. It was the cheapest flat I could rent in Worthing. And I was still, I was at college. So I was working about four or five part-time jobs, just like cleaning. I was up on my bike, going to waitrose, cleaning toilets in the morning before college. Finish that and I went into sales at first.”
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“My parents were doing okay Yeah, but then and then I remember one night they moved all my stuff to my other granddad's house and changed the lock on the door. They were like, you're not coming back, and I kicked the door in. So it was kind of happening for a while, and then it got to the point where I remember my mum being like, you need to go. And I was like, cool. It wasn't like an out-of-the-door with tail between my legs or anything. It was, I didn't need you anyway. Sit out.”
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“It was quite a messy for a couple of years in there. I remember my parents sent me up to my granddad in Scotland one summer when I was like 15 and this was kind of the start of when things were going quite bad.”
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“I think that's maybe it, you know, like it's probably part of it. I'm not exactly sure why. But that's kind of what happened. And I think I had a lot of energy, a lot of motivation, viciously ambitious, but didn't really know how to apply it, where to apply it to get what I wanted. And I was looking around me for, I think I was looking around searching for the guidance that would help me but I wasn't really finding it. So I was just trying to discarding things that I thought weren't. Important or opinions that weren't important weren't going to get me where I wanted. And I was just looking for. Looking for it, and yeah, that's kind of how things started unraveling and ended up moving out. That induced a quite tasty few years in itself”
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“I think deep down, I was just like looking for something more in my life. I was looking at what. Know the life that the adults around me were living, and I was like, I don't want that. I want more than that. I want to go and see and live, you know. You know, that's kind of when. Know you've got a kid that's 16, hasn't done anything with his life, and he's just kind of disrespecting you, ignoring everything you're saying and doing his own thing, coming home or whenever.”
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“Things have got quite bad with family stuff. I was A piece of shit honest with you. Very rebellious, very disrespectful, didn't listen to anything that they were saying. And very intent on doing my own thing. And I think that kind of took a big toll on everyone in the family because I would, you know, I was stressing everyone out.”
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“I'd agree with that Yeah, I mean, I think it wasn't for the lack of It's like you said, they didn't have the tools, and ultimately that is what kind of pushed me to go and try and find my own things, which worked out for the best.”
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“I kind of feel bad for saying I want to do them a service when I'm talking about them. Because I do respect them a lot now, especially now I'm older and I understand things more, but I don't think at the time, I think they've had their struggles like a lot of us have our struggles, you know.”
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“I looked at people and I was like teachers for example or any kind of authority figures in my life and if I sensed that they weren't very happy in their life so they were a bit miserable I would kind of discard a lot of what they were trying to tell me I found a lot at that age had a lot of people trying to tell me what to do or you know do this do that behave like this and I was like if I do what you say then I'm going to end up like you and I don't want that so I'm doing my own thing and I think that kind of started a journey of trying to find my own answers and stumbling of course a lot of different things to try and find that”
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“I guess it was more stuff like I was finding it hard to find my way in the world, especially when I got to teenage years. And I'd be like. How do I do this? How do I build a career? How do I make money? How do I do all of these things? How do I navigate friendships and relationships and all these kind of complex? How do I find meaning in my life? Not that I was directly asking those questions, but they're the kind of things I'm prodding out of that age. And I think... From my parents, it was quite hard to find those answers just because I think they will struggled with communicating like that, you know.”
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“Make sense at the time, it's hard when you're young. I found it really hard to make sense of a lot of things. I was one of them had a lot of questions. Hard to find the answers, but I kept digging.”
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“No, I think that's exactly it. And I think as I've got older and I've understood where they've come from and their parents and their outbringings, then it's like makes sense.”
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“Yeah, no, my dad's. My dad or my mum aren't very affectionate people. I don't think I've Think I've ever seen them even kiss, maybe once or twice when I was young, but like, you know, the I loves using stuff like this wasn't words that got thrown around in our family. Not that they didn't meet they didn't mean it, I just think that our family's a bit stiff like that.”
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“Not really he was he was working pretty much all the time so he do he ran two marathons one when he was 31 when he was 40 but he used to take me out on runs when I was quite young and you know It wouldn't really say anything, but it was more just me seeing it that I think was important for me. And that's how he operated”
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“Yeah, I mean I guess I I think now I'm older. I just look at it like my dad was doing everything that he could to provide for his family. You know, like I think he took that responsibility really seriously. And... Yeah, I mean, it's hard to really contemplate how that affected me. But the few things I did see if my daddy was just always, he ran a marathon when I was a kid. And I remember that being like a big, you know, he would always talk about willpower. And he didn't say much, but like he was more of a man of, he did things rather than spoke about them. So you go out and work really hard, or you'd go and run a marathon. And I'd see these things happening. You know, he'd come home from work and he'd be knackered and he'd be on the sofa. Like he kind of just that was the way he led, you know.”
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“My mum was very what I always remember about her mum, she really enforced it in us to be polite. That was like a big thing for her. So always like, yes, yes, please, thank yous. Whenever we'd go around to people's houses, she was like, make sure that we behaved well and all of this kind of stuff. And her dad is like military man. So 18 to 65, always RAF like very well respected. So I think she got that from him and that's what she passed down to us. But she was very caring. Her whole life was her kids really. So yeah, like a lot of respect for my”
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“Ask one hell of a question, man. I think really I had quite a normal upbringing. And maybe that's like the basis for. Why, I ended up doing all this kind of stuff. Yeah, like dad, my early memories of my dad were he was a very hardworking man. He cut metal for a living and I didn't really see that much of him when I was young. He would be out working 13, 49 hours a day, coming home, metal dust all over him, mum would look after me and my brothers. And I think he kind of instilled the... That hard working mentality in me. Know a lot of the dominoes fell from that really.”
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“But ultimately, you know, no one was going to come and save you. You just had to be me. And I thought Africa would be the best adventure ever.”
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“Ask one hell of a question, man. Things have got pretty bad. I wasn't speaking to my family, I was drinking and gambling. I would wake up throughout the week and just burst into tears, crying.”
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“Was probably the hardest part of my whole life. So going down this dirt path and two blokes on the motorbike puller, I knew that if I'm on the bike for longer than half an hour, it's bad news. I ended up spending seven hours on that motorbike going into the jungle. I was getting kidnapped.”
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