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Alex Scott

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first: 2022-09-29
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“He was in the next room. I had a little box room. That was everything. There's a silence the next day. You're not allowed to speak until you're spoken to. That's the environment we've grown up in. So, all you have is a look or trying to catch a feeling. And our feeling is mum's alive. That we've still got a mum for the moment.”
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“So, a natural no, Tony, you get your lemonade. It is that icy tone when he repeated it. And she said no again. I'm looking at you, but I can see her So, yeah Then straight away I know what's coming Soon as everybody leaves that night he doesn't forget We all know what's going to happen My mum might have been brave enough and forgotten in that moment because she's having fun. She's having a conversation with her friend. Was the hardest night, that one. You know, the thing about the book. I've never had the conversations. So my Is trying to survive her And then I'm in a room. Listening to everything, go on and just hoping she's alive. She doesn't know what me and my brother are doing. Until I've wrote the”
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“Stephen, we had the most amazing birthday party. It's hard because there's not many things that we've celebrated or those moments. And I don't even know how this party came about, whether it was for me and my brother or it was my dad throwing at a party because he was a big character, you know, everyone loved Tony Scott. He had this way about him. But we ended up having a birthday party in a local community, me and my brother. And just yeah, the music, everyone was dancing. And that's where I could see my mum. You know, she was the life and soul of the party, just her energy was so infectious. And then party then ended in the community center. We went back to the flat where I grew up in. And then it was just exactly, it's a tone that I know all too well, that no one else knows, apart from me, my brother and my mum, when he asked her to go and get some lemonade. She was in the middle of a conversation.”
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“Still today. Still to She's scared of my book coming out because I finally told that story. She scared that her friends are going to look at her in a certain way. Like I said, she calls herself a coward. I had to see the woman that's so full of courage and the strength and the vulnerability that she's shown her whole life for us, for me and my brother.”
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“Because every single day See my mum walking on eggshells, she's scared to have a voice to say something because she knows what she's going to go through. So that light that is around her and the woman that she has been, that outgoing personality that, you know, everyone loves my mum. She doesn't see that because it's been stripped. She views herself as a coward. As much as I try and tell She doesn't see herself like that. She's a coward for staying with my dad for those years for not leaving earlier for her kids. So as much as we sierras, an amazing woman she doesn't see herself like that one bit.”
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“Weird because I sit here with you and then say it is dark and straight away. It's hard for me to talk about because I suppose I've hid it for all this time. It's easy not to talk about it. But even though there's so much darkness, there's so much I remember the good times with my dad. I remember going to the record shops and buying vinyls and coming back and dancing. My dad loved these music. I loved my music because of that. So there's so many things that... Even though all those dark times, I know because of everything that I've gone through, I am the person I am now. You have to take the good bits and the bad bits and it's what makes me me.”
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“I want to go home to protect my mum. Wanted to go home Put a shield around her Be strong for her. Even though she was doing the same for me and my brother. It's like you wanted to protect someone, but how can I? I can't. My protection was to try and love my dad. All I Keep trying to bring that side out of him. If he has the love, there may be he'll start loving us in that way. And all those darkness and the demons will go.”
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“My mum would go through. Terror. Helplessness that you can't do anything Yeah, so you'll live in fear. Living in fear every single moment. Saw high then the football cage becomes your escape.”
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“Or he left when I was seven, so from the moment I A baby from two, three I could see and feel, you can feel it, the environment that we're in, that you're not allowed to do something. Because if you do step out of line, you know what's going to happen and you don't want that to happen”
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“I can't put an age to it, to be honest, but it was there. Mostly what I can always remember. That you saw this love inside. And I always say the drink, but obviously the drink helps it come out a lot more. But you could see him turn like his thoughts or what he was going through in his mind. That's how he took it out on and say all of us more so my mum. Just for me, it was just sad because I could see this good in my dad that was there when he smiled, when he was listening to music. And that's the side I just always wanted to see and was begging to stay there, but it wasn't.”
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“Woman that is. Incredible person. full of love, full of softness. Just a light around her That wants to do everything for everyone before herself doesn't even think about herself. No, doesn't even see the person that she is. Ultimately, that was taken away from her. Dad, even though I see the love in my dad, I wanted to love my dad so much I was a daddy's little girl. He had this dark side. And that's the side that we saw a lot of growing up.”
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“Safe space A home environment Football I could smile. You felt free In Was locked It was Environment where it was very much controlled.”
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“I don't actually even remember sitting down to watch a football game on TV because both my mum and dad, they weren't athletes. So it's not a thing that we'd sit down and watch a football match. But in that area that I grew up in, that football cage was everything. It was the community. It was where people came together. And I think that's how I got into football, and that's what I liked. It gave me that connection to other people. So for me, it wasn't dreaming that, you know, I wanted to play football, be a professional footballer. That wasn't it at all. It was a sense of a safe space in that football cage and feeling at one with everyone else in the neighborhood.”
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“Instantly, even when you say East London, I'm smiling because I have so many happy memories and the feeling that it gave me a sense of community. Everyone looking after you, even though it's surrounded by struggle and hardship, it makes me smile. East London instantly I can go to playing in the football cage because that football cage was a freedom. For me it was an out. It was an escape. It allowed me, that football cage allowed me to start dreaming of a world that I don't know that I never thought that I'd be able to see or imagine. But in that space, it gave me that.”
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“There's certain things I just can't say, but it's almost I found a habit of just laughing at myself before everyone else laughs at me. Here I am getting nothing but pure hate. Threats and abuse, and I got to say, I'm like, I can't do this anymore. My dad had this dark side, so my protection was to try and love my dad all I can, and all those darkness in the demons will go.”
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“I'm in a room listening to everything go on and just hoping she's alive. That was the hardest night at that point. Alex Scott. 140 cups, three World Cups, four European Championships and 12 international goals. Alex Scott always allowing me that platform to see things, learn things about the world that I know was making me even more hungry. And to keep that, I needed to keep doing well at football.”
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