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Ant Middleton

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“start that journey you will get addicted to it it is fascinating and it will it will only serve you well only serve you well because it's a life I want to live till I'm 150 because I live until I'm 100 100 years isn't long enough I still want more I want to know more I want to I want to be on this journey for the for as long as I can be on this journey this is what gives me longevity this is what gives me purpose I want to be on this journey for as long as I can be and when I think the only setback is when I think you know I've got another you know 50 60 years of it it sort of saddens me so I'm hoping that by that stage we can we can live to be a bit bit more immortal a bit more a bit more a bit more immortal”
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“But this is who I am. So there's so much more behind what the media put out and what the papers put out and what the media agenda is and what they want you to be seen as. And there's this whole life behind me that I just, that's the real me. That's who I am. So when any of this other stuff that's made up by other people that comes in from not within, it is so easy for me to just battle off. So easy for me just to go bang, bang, bang. But don't get me wrong sometimes I work harder at it to bat it off. Sometimes it does stick and you have to go, but it's such a liberating feeling. And I'll always say to people, and this is my, you know, find out who you are. Go on that journey, not self-discovery, because that sounds spiritual, right? Go on that journey of finding your purpose or becoming the best version of who you are. Because once you...”
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“With the planet and being connected to Mother Earth. But unless you are in tune with that, then you just think I'm talking bollocks. You just think, oh, what the hell is he on about? He's some spiritual idiot. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. So, you know, this is the personal life that I really keep to myself. I've spoken a lot about it today, which I've never spoken about before.”
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“Listen, we are powerful. We have a connection. Without you, there wouldn't be me. Without me, there wouldn't be you. And just that confirmation just makes me realize, wow, you know, this is powerful stuff. This is how you should be feeling. Once you're in tune with yourself and connected to this planet, then there's not much that you feel like you can't do. There's not much that phases you in life. There's not much that you won't try and achieve. There's not much that you won't achieve. And I feel sorry because I can talk about being in tune with...”
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“Kinhalf was an incoming, you know. Realised, I was like, well, just, and you see a little bit of mountain fall off, boom, bom, and it's where the energy, the energy of that mountain. And, you know, unless you get out and about, you see it's like. And I thought to myself, wow, I remember stopping and thinking, I felt that before that even not that specific moment, but I felt the energy. I felt the connection there. And then that was, it's almost as if the mountain was talking to me going, what you feeling is right. You listen.”
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“And I felt this, you know, I was in the mountains in Chile, in the Andes, and I could just feel a real connection, you know, like a real presence. It's a lovely, lovely feeling. And I can just remember an energy connection. It was really strange that it happened. An energy connection. And as I was walking by, I was walking alongside of this mountain. And as I was walking alongside, I heard a big massive bang. And I turned towards the mountain. And I'm not joking. It was probably about 300 meters away. So it's like, you know, and this bit of rock went, it must have passed. No word of a lie within two meters of me. Because the mountains, it's an energy source. They're fucking bursting. They're literally like that. And the mountain, every now and then, and it's the first time I experienced, I heard about it, but I'd never experienced it and I went, bang. And it nearly took my head off to the point where I was like...”
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“And I go back, going back to this moment where it just resonates, you know. And the reason why I do all these things is I just want to reconfirm that my way of thinking is true to me is why I do this. And that's why I put myself in these awkward situations because it just gives a light bulb moment where I go, do you know what? Bloody hell, you know, I'm on the right path. I'm getting this right. And I was away filming.”
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“There's a connection one can't live without the other. And we're the leaves. Yeah, we're going to fall off and there's going to be new leaves. But everything recycles back into itself. Do you know what I mean? We don't just all of a sudden go up into, you know, everything goes back into the earth. Everything regenerates spiritual.”
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“Don't look at a mountain and go, oh, I've got to get up there, it's working against me. No, no, that little stone there that you put your foot on, that's helping you up to stand on its apex. It's helping you up to stand on its summit. And I've always felt a connection with the earth, always, always, always. You know, when I put my feet in it, when I put my hands in it, you know, I belong here, and I have this sort of theory that people think that, you know, that If you put the planet as a tree where they think we're just birds that come and sit on the tree and they think we're just visitors and then we go. We're not with the leaves. Yeah, with the leaves of the tree. And then, you know, we grow in it. We're part of this evolution.”
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“Synchronized with the planet, which is one big energy source, it's one big ball. And at a moment of clarity on when I was filming, I've always felt connection with the Earth. You know, I talk about, you know, we can climb to the highest peak of the apex of the world, Mount Everest. We can climb to that because people said, yeah, but we've had to do this, this, and this in order to get there, you know, working against the mountain. I'm like, no. The way that that mountain is formed, that's a foothold for you. That's an arm reach for you. It's designed to work with you.”
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“In my diary forever. But that's super interesting as well. It's like, you know, but you can't take away that because it's written within evolution. It's written within the way the world has evolved. It's written in the way that we think. It's written in the organs, the muscles and the body that we have. It's all here. It's all fucking present right now. It's not in a book that we're going to read. It's fucking happening right now. It's here. It's real. This energy source that you are, your fucking energy source. We're energy sources.”
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“I come from the University of Life. And what I've just said there is, it's strange that, and that's why I love talking to people like yourself, because I've put that as in how I'm thinking. I haven't read anything for my book and you've just put it into a whole sort of scientific and I was like, that's exactly that. It's exactly what I've just said. And you've just put it into something that's been proven. And that's the way that I think, that's the way that's the way that I perceive life.”
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“You know what? I love how you just put that, Steve, because you've just put my thoughts into a scientific form. Because, again, I'm not an intellect, I'm not a bookworm. It's like I have psychiatrists come up to me and go, where did you study, Anne? But no, honestly, what books did you do? And I'm like, no, no, this is all, every single ounce of me is through life experience.”
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“Supposed to evolve So, when you've got this going round like this and then this stops. There's this synchronosity that's not working in partnership with each other. Without us on this planet, this planet wouldn't be as evolved as it was. Without the planet, then we wouldn't be evolved as it was. And what's actually happening is that you've got this. Two forces that are grinding against each other rather than working together of each other in synchronicity”
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“Yeah, and you could push a walk in front of your caves. You know what I mean to survive? You know, used to be at the top of the food chain. We're not designed to be comfortable. We're not designed to be wrapped up in cottonwool. We're not designed to be shackled down. And that's why there's so many problems in the world right now is because of these shackles. It's because of these chains. Is it because of the restraints that society is putting on us? It's forcing us into mental illness. It's forcing us to act in ways that we're not designed to act in. It's forcing us to switch off to the most powerful tool that the universe that's in the universe, your minds. We're forced to just put it on fucking dormant. We're going against the grain of what we're supposed to do, of who we're supposed to be, on how we're supposed to act and how it's...”
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“Cotton wool They're not designed. We're not designed to be comfortable. We're not designed to have cotton walls strapped around us. It's society. It's the restraints and the shackles of society that's forcing us to be like this. It's not who we are. Look how far we've come. You know, look just through history, how far we've come. And I feel like that we're actually devolving now. I actually feel that we've got to a point where we're going backwards, where, you know,”
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“Put in a situation where it's been forced upon you, but when it's not forced upon you, when it's not forced upon you, which the world does, it forces it upon us. But when it's not forced upon you, when you get comfortable, then you fall into this void. You fall into this complacency, you fall into not moving along with the world.”
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“We become complacent when we get comfortable, when we get into one sort of situation and we stay in that situation. We're working in the opposite way that the world should be evolving. We should be constantly changing. We should be constantly evolving. We should be constantly moving forward. You know, look at my career. I've gone from the army to the Marines to the special forces to the media to books, to authors, to literacy, to business. It's like I love change. I love being put in a situation where I'm literally chucked in the deep end with dive boots on and I have to tread water. I love that because it's so challenging and it's so stimulating that you're forced to change. You're forced to think of something different. You're forced to do something differently. You're forced to change the way that you approach something because you've been”
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“Yeah, it 100% makes sense. For me It's about embracing change, you know. Majority of people they live their life on autopilot or they live in the void I call it where everything around them is changing you know the world is constantly changing everything around us is constantly changing whether it's you know climate control whether it's you know in the way that we think the way that we're evolving the way that the world is going the way that animals are evolving the way that the sea is encroaching or you know decreasing whatever it may be everything is changing around us and we are designed to achieve with it so what we're actually doing is we're actually going against the grain”
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“They're two completely different things, and happiness comes from In knowing who you are, you know, it comes from being true to who you are, knowing who you are. And you could be the poorest man in the world and you could be no one or nothing, but you could still be happy. Or you could be the richest man in the world. And, you know, the script.”
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“Aunt you're quiet. And I'm like, I'm quiet because I'm churning away at negativity. I'm not unhappy. Don't get me wrong. Listen, but I need to be left alone for two, three days, maybe a week, because there's so much negativity coming in and I'm chipping away trying to find light. No, nothing there. trying to find the light trying to find ah boom bang and then Bank this positivity, and then the next week I'll be boom, back to Ant. Do you know what I mean? Back to this positive, naturally positive person because I've trained my mind to think like that. I'm always in a positive headspace. But sometimes I go quiet doesn't mean I'm always happy. So don't get positivity mixed up with happiness.”
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“Know working on your mind to make it positive, challenging negative situation thinking what's negative situation, I've got to tackle it with a positive mindset. Make a concerted effort to train your mindset to think positively, to flip the script from this default mindset where everyone thinks negatively. And I love working at that. I love working at that. So all of this stuff that you give me, it does, once I got, because I go quiet, like this last week has been a media storm and I'll go quiet and I'll be with my family, I'll be with my management.”
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“Bounces in towards me is something to learn from, and it's a lesson. And it's going to, I'm going to learn from it and I'm going to grow from it and I'm going to get closer and closer to the answer, closer and closer to. To my objective, closer and closer to my purpose, and that is to try and get as close as I can to being the best version of myself. I'm fascinated with that. I'm addicted by it. I'm addicted to it. I'm obsessed with it. So like I said, when I get that fanos moment. I'm like, bring all this negativity at me, bring it because I'm just churning away at it. Doesn't mean I'm always happy. I'm not always happy. I don't go around sprinkling positive fairy dust. I'm not that type of preacher, right? But I preach.”
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“Trying to get the best possible version of Aunt Middleton, trying to get to that. But knowing that I never get to that answer, because I'll be on this constant progression of becoming a better version of who I am. But I'll never become the best version of who I am because I'm When you're perfect, that's when you're 100% you, and that's Not real. It doesn't exist But the purpose of getting closer and closer and closer and closer to that answer. such a fascinating journey for me that there's nothing that comes close to it. There's nothing that comes close to it. And whether I have the counseling or the shows that keep coming or the TV production companies that call me now and the channels that call, whether I have failures or whatever it may be, all of these, everything.”
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“I'm happy with that. I'm happy with that because not that I'm above anyone or below anyone, you know, we're just on different ends of the spectrum. Because guess what? I'm going to keep evolving. My mindset's going to keep changing. I'm going to keep getting wise. I'm going to keep getting more knowledgeable. I'm going to keep being honest with myself. Now, and for me, that's my purpose in life. Nothing out there. It's nice to have the nice cars, the nice houses. Don't get me wrong. It's nice to have money. I've had no money. And now I've got money. I know which side I'd rather be on. Okay. But that's all comes part and parcel with being true to who you are. And my purpose in life, which is I will never achieve, but which I find fascinating, is”
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“But please yourself, and ultimately, what comes out should be war, should be authentic, should be true. And then you'll find your belonging. You'll find your circle. You'll find your like-minded people. You'll find your, yeah, you'll find your belonging. It's like, you know, you must know as you get more successful, as you start thinking, you start changing, you start evolving your mindset more and more and more and more, your circle gets smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller.”
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“And I say to people what you've got to realise is that you are with yourself 24 hours a day for the rest of your life. No one else Even come close to that. No one else will even come close to that. So you are with yourself your whole life. People, they come and go, situations, they come and go. So ultimately, you've got to live with yourself first before you try and live with anyone else. You try and live with any situation before you try and put yourself into any environment. That's what I say to people. And they go, well, you're with yourself 24 hours a day to the day you die. Nothing comes close to that. No one comes close to being anywhere near that.”
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“Just gave me this kick yourself moment where I'm just like. How did I not see that? How did I not? You put it in such lame terms because I'm a simple man. I mean, I'm not an intellect. I'm not a bookworm. I'm a simpleton. I'm a simple man. I keep things, the way I get to my answers is good, bad, right, wrong, positive, negative, yes, no. Do you know what I mean? I keep it. But it's listening to who I am. And it's the most simplest way of getting to where you need to be. But we let. The constraints and the bullshit and the complications of society and what other people think Cloud all”
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“And everything that I do, and you said it then, and make what you just said there makes complete sense to me every single word you said about that story. I'm like that. Yes, it's like, it's obviously like, why wouldn't you do that? But sometimes the most obvious things that are the hardest to process, the hardest to achieve And with my books and my tours, you know, I don't get people coming off my tours going, and, you know, I've tapped into this part of my brain now. Thank you for this. It's like they come off my tours or read my books and go, and it was always in there.”
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“It's exactly how the thing about it is the way your mindset thinks in it's not a complicated way of thinking. Do you know what I mean? It's so simple, really, so simple, stupid, that it's almost incomprehendable.”
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“I'm a failure. So they, anytime failure is they think their safety bubble safety bubble, victim bubble, whatever, they won't go anywhere near it. But I love it. When negativity comes along and failure comes along, you know, I'm so intrigued on what I'll get out of it. I'm so intrigued what I learn from it. When you learn, you grow. When you grow, you become a better version of who you are. It's just that knock-on effect that it has. And failure is exactly that. Failure isn't going anywhere. I found up to now in my life I'm going to fail till the day I die. So are you. So you. So every single one of you in here is going to fail. Whether you like it or not, it is everyday part of life as much as it is breathing. It's surrounded by us. So why do we ignore it? If it's part of who we are and part of what makes the world tick, then why don't we use it to our advantage?”
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“It's like phalas, exactly the same with failure. I look at failure and it's just like a challenge to me. It's like you can't do that and you don't know nothing about that. You're going to fail at that. Well, listen, I'll tell you what, I probably will fail at it, but I'm not scared to commit because I know that the moment I commit to failure, I take two or three or four steps into failure and I might go, yeah, right, I haven't achieved that. But those three or four steps that I've taken, that's what I bank, those moments in the moment. That's what I bank. A lot of people, they might take on failure and they might fail their objective. And they think, oh, I failed that. Therefore, I'm a failure. And they forget how far they've come. That just completely automatically written off because they're going, oh, I failed that. Do you know what I mean? It's like...”
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“It tests you, right? And you dig into it, and all of a sudden you see a little light, you see a little glimpse of positivity, and that's all you're looking for is that one little seed. You grab that, boom, bank that, and then you grow that seed until you find the next one. And there's nothing more rewarding in this world than flipping a negative into a positive. Because if you're willing, and again, if you're willing to work hard enough and you're willing to take the shit and the fucking and the bullshit and everything that surrounds negativity, if you're willing to dive into the center of it and you're willing to work in order to flip it into a positive, then I guarantee you you will find a positive in it. And I guarantee you that would be the most rewarding thing you ever do.”
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“My love negativity because I will challenge it and challenge it and challenge it. I love the word. And the psychological sort of resilience it takes to challenge negativity. Because a lot of people that negativity comes and they ignore it or they bat it off. They run away. But the moment you dig into it.”
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“Preach positivity till it comes home everything I believe is down to a positive mindset and how you perceive the way that you think and the way, you know, we have this default mindset, which is negative. You know, everything's like, what if, this, what if that? I won't do that because of this. Mine's the opposite. Mine's like, my best outcome is this, this, this. If anything comes along, I'll deal with it. And it's that mindset that I always, always fall back on. And again, it's one of those that I just find so liberating that I can just think that way. But I put myself in the firing line. I put myself constantly in the firing line to constantly challenge myself, to constantly flip these negatives into positives, you wouldn't have positivity. It wouldn't exist. It's a polar opposite. So people say, so I challenge negativity.”
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“But also when it does get into me, because the moment it starts, you know, when it gets over, it does get into you. Once I sit down and process it, it fuels me. I feel like in Fanos. It's like, because I'm being true to who I am and they're all this negative and I'm thinking, right, just boom. Because guess what?”
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“Yes, I do. The rest of the world doesn't. Well, guess what? I feel comfortable doing it. But yeah, but he's going to have something to say about it. She's going to have something to say about. They're going to have something to say about it. I don't care. Is it true to me? Go back to who I am? Yeah. Boom. I take it. And I deal with whatever comes at me because it can bounce off me, right? Because as we spoke about, it's like we know who we are. We know what we're about. We know we're good people. So I'm willing to take that. Bang, bang, bang. And it does. Steve, it does literally bounce off me.”
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“So I've got two years suspended since two years of going down a road that wasn't me. Going down that road of pure lies, every step I took wouldn't be a true one. I always say to people, people will mold you and direct you in life. You know, that's what people are there for, good people anyway. They try and mold. But if that first footstep that you take is not a true one, I said, do not take it. And the only person that knows that. And I always, always, always go back to that. Do I feel comfortable taking this footstep?”
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“You say you've got PTSD? He said, I guarantee you. That's what he said to me. Guarantee you will not go to prison. You'll get suspended sentence. You'll have to go and do a couple of courses. And then you'll be at home with the family. Now I'd four kids and a wife. Actually, at the time I had two children and a wife at home that relied on me. Couldn't lie to myself. I thought don't get me wrong, I'm not going to lie to you. I thought to myself, do you know what? That sounds appealing because who can tell me that I haven't got PTSD? But then the question always goes back to you because only you hold the answer, Steve, only you have that answer. Only I knew that answer I could lie to myself, live a lie and fuck knows where I'll be now, right? I might be a bloody PTSD counsellor. I might be, but I would have gone down that road. For years”
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“No one can question it. Actually, wait, wait, there's one person that can question it, me. Because I haven't got fucking PTSD. Well, no, no, no, you haven't. But if you say that, then, you know, the papers will do this. The courts will do this. People will start to go, oh, well, actually, you know, the stuff that he's been through and he's seen he's done, he's witnessed. Yeah, of course, listen, throw him another bone. Give him another chance. Feel sorry for him. Fuck that. Do you know what I mean? It's like when I went to prison. I left the military went to prison got into a violent altercation. Yep, violence on violence. Of course. Put my hand up 100%. I'll do my time. Do you want to go to prison? I was like, of course, I don't want to go to prison. Who wants to go to prison? He said, well, listen, here's your out. He went, say you've got PTSD.”
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“You step into that victim mentality, that's when you feel that the world owes you everything. That's when you feel like that, you know, why is he where he is and I'm not there? Why has he got this and I haven't got this? Well, I could quite happily. Not be cancelled. Okay, so for example, if I went guys, yeah, really, really sorry about that, but I suffered from a bit from PTSD, the death of my father, you know, it's like fucking hell. It's like, one, I don't suffer from PTSD. How many times have I had that thrown at me, Steve, going? And if you say you suffer from PTSD, who can question that?”
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“That's why I say that statement we have the privilege of knowing you is so powerful because ultimately that's what you fall back on all the time. That's why you can take that and it will bounce off you. So it's like that's your negativity. It's nothing to do with me. That's you and it bounces off me like it bounces off you. But the moment...”
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“But that's a privilege of knowing who you ask. So you can take all that income. Yeah, because they haven't got the privilege of knowing you Right, but you have the privilege of knowing yourself because guess what? You've been there, you've done it, you've got the t shirt, you've been honest for yourself, you realize your mistakes, you realize your errors of your way, you learn from failure, you grow from it, you become a better version of who you are.”
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“But that's how I, it's not only what selection process is, that's how I live my life, Steve. I'm so... And the environment I choose to be in. And it's that brutal honesty. It's that brutal. Sort of The motivator is always becoming a bit a version of who you are, of learning something, growing from it, and becoming a better version of who you were yesterday.”
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“There's no positive motivators to aim towards. It's like a plow. I say the plough is the positive motivator and the fuel is the negative aggression, whether it's revenge, whether it's proved people wrong, whether it's, you know, these are all things that fuel you. But you be sure that there's always a positive motivator. So when I'm talking like that to the recruits, when I'm doing it's believe it or not, it's to get the best out of them, to make them realize what they're capable of, make them bring their attributes and personality to the forefront so they can identify who they are. And a lot of people, they are bringing that to the forefront or I fit that mirror on them. They look at themselves and they go, oh. I don't like what I see AVW or they go or they leave.”
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“Negativity is a great fuel, it's a great source to use to get to where you need to be. But only if there's a positive motivator ahead of it. So you can't use negativity to get through a situation if there's not a positive motivator. Because all you do is you'll veil off in the negative lane.”
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“I mean, yeah, I shouldn't have said that. I shouldn't have done that. And I'm the first one to admit it. But people have to realize that, listen, it's a work in progress. It's not something that I can change overnight. You need to understand me. You need to understand who I am in order to acknowledge that, okay, well, fucking hell. Yeah, that was a bit uncomfortable to see. Some of the things that we do with the recruits, they're like, fucking hell, like he's on his knees and you're literally, you know, saying to him that you stay there. If you think you're not worthy, you know, if you're a piece of shit, blah, blah, blah. But it's hard for people to see that and to watch that. But ultimately, there's always a positive motivator behind that. So that's where people, I think, get confused is like.”
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“In the military environment, I'm not in society. Controlling that that I find really difficult, but knowing also acknowledging that it needs to be controlled, you know, I'm not in the military anymore. And I always hate this once a marine, always a Marine. Yet people go, hey, once a Marine, always a Marine. I'm like, I was a Marine 12 years ago, 10 years ago. Now I'm a media TV presenter. I'm now an extinguished author. I'm now, you know, I like to say about mindset. My mindset grew. I'll go around, do my tours. I'm in a completely different space, but I have to pull upon this young soldier every now and then in order to get the job done because I know that that works. You know, I know that if I do that, but I just need to fine-tune it. I need to buffer it around the edges, which again is a work in progress. I put my hands up when I go, fucking hell.”
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“And only when I'm doing a military style show, you know, you come out, you might say something, which is for me, probably a throwaway common or a bit of banter, then you realize there's a hundred crew members listening. And there's nothing, you know, just might be, I might say something about someone or it's never direct, you know, it's always an indirect conversation that we have. It's that military banter that I fucking hate. Sometimes I hear myself talking like a military man and I hate it. I might say military words, hoofing, honking, waz, you know, there's loads of them out there. And I think to myself, why are you talking like that? But it's just comes out because I might find myself in a high obtained situation, in a stressful situation, in an aggressive situation, in a violent situation, which I revert back to what I know works, which is this ultimately this military person. But then I think fucking hell, I'm not.”
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“They're two different worlds Now you deal with dark humour. Arc To get you through certain situations. And that dark humor and dark banter and dark way of talking is the norm to you because you live and breathe that And sometimes that comes out, you know,”
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