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Jessie J

lines on the record: 132
first: 2022-05-02
most recent: 2022-05-02
sittings or episodes: 1
sources: podcast

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“English people say, you know, trash your gut. Literally, it's your second brain. Trust your gut, you know, like, and don't just trust your instincts, act on them. Like if something doesn't feel right, it's because it's not.”
2022-05-02 · The Diary of a CEO · Jessie J: I Quit Music, Deleted An Album, Then Changed My Mind · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Can see the resonance, right? I'm grateful to, as I said, the biggest thing for me is never to think that I've had it any worse than anyone else because I talk about it. It's knowing that I'm giving someone space that may not be able to find that for themselves to... Grieve or to feel something that they need to feel”
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“All my dreams personally and professionally. Able to happen with people by my side, and I don't have to do everything by myself. I think that's the biggest thing for me I'm a very independent I can do it. I don't need help. I don't need support person. That's bullshit. Like I need people around me that. Want to do what I want to do, and I enjoy being a team player. And I don't think that was clear to me a year ago.”
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“I mean, yeah, I mean, right now I'm in the process of like. Trying to create a one woman show Which is what Jamal was helping me with? Which is a combination of the things that I love the most, which is therapy and talking and honesty and emotions and standing in the middle of them and feeling the storm and the joy and the sunshine and the rain and all of it. Singing and singing, when I mean singing, singing as hard as I can, as loud and high and as soft and as low and everything as I can, and making people laugh. And combining those three things. Don't know what it looks like. Have an idea, but you know, life does this. And preparing my body to. Try again to Be a parent, you know, at some point in the next few years, for sure. Thank you. Are you going to write notes about me in your book now?”
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“Acting, comedy. I really want to do comedy. I really want to do stand up. I mean, me sitting at crime for the last three hours isn't giving that people that impression, but knock knock.”
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“Acting on my instincts, making music that I love, making music that Feels like it speaks to myself as much as it speaks to other people, finding a team of people that have the same passion as me and giving my personal life as much nurturing as my career.”
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“Just been mates. The amount of times I've been in relationships with my friends that I've just gone to dinner with. The amount of times that people have said I've been pregnant, little do they know. Obviously now it doesn't happen. And I think if the press did say that now, I think that I would probably feel confident to say something because I see them do it to so many women without knowing what they're internally going through. I constantly ride the line between not giving a fuck and wanting to protect it to every little part of me. Would be lying if I didn't say that what other people Think or say, or constantly believe Don't bother me”
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“And I may never know. Like, I just feel like love is a constant moving experience. And I think that when you meet new people, you always want to dumb down what you've experienced because you don't want to make them feel bad. But the truth is, all we're ever doing is going, is this love? Do you want to be with me? Are we going to get married? Can we live together? Like, would you take a bullet for me? Do I really want to meet your parents? It's a constant Yeah, it's a lot. And I think that I've been in relationships where The process of me working out if it's what I want or not, what I want, the press are giving the narrative that it's exactly what I want and it is going to happen and it's this and it's that. And I'm like, we may never have been official We were, or we may have been engaged, or we may have like.”
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“Yeah, exactly. And it wasn't me going like. Going to get married, we're going to do this. It was just like this is what it is, this is who it is, and piss off. And then they did piss off to some degree, you know, it was like, okay, and then the picture they posted of me and I laughed about it. I looked like an old man that owned a boat that was wearing a wig. Like it was so bad. And I was just like, really guys, this is the picture you're going to use of both of us. And like, it was just terrible. But there's that thin line of, Fuck everybody. I'm gonna live the life I want to live and I'm gonna experience love like my mum says to me falling in love as many times as you can it will stick or it won't”
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“Someone in the pandemic and who wasn't famous, and I was very protective of that, when then when we did get seen, I was like, I don't want to talk about it. Like, and we were together for like dating for maybe a month. And then obviously it was put out everywhere on this one picture. And I was like, you know, my frustration of like... The way they worded all of it, and I just was like, no, this isn't what it is. Like, if you want to, I don't, I hate that the press can control the narrative. I hate that. But I also get it, but it doesn't mean that you sometimes don't just go. Know”
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“You can't control, and there's a lot of things in this life that we ask for, and then there's some things that we don't, but happen anyway. And so that whole experience definitely made me go, I just need more privacy and I need to have something that. Always me talking about it and being open because even if people really understand it, everyone just everybody slows down at the car crash. Very rarely do people get out and help. And now people don't just slow down. Now people slow down and they film, they zoom in, they comment, they send to somebody else, they will pretend something else happened that was there, that wasn't, like, that's what it is now, right? So then when I met.”
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“Yeah, and he's an incredible father and was going through a really personal, traumatic time. And it was just a lot of... Emotional collisions, you know, of like both of our lives at the same time. And we got on really well. But again, that same thing is that when you're famous, you can go for dinner on a date. Like how many dates have you been on where you would never see them again? But you get photographed and you're both famous, and they put it on the internet and go, exclusive. And you're like, and that wasn't what happened, but, you know, we got seen and it kind of propelled into something probably more than maybe it was also because of what was going on in his own life. And then there was this comparison. And it was just, it was so many things that I always say that there's a lot of things that fame control.”
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“Is why you put, yes, so obviously I was in a very, very public relationship and it was a very different experience for me. It was actually very interesting because I felt like I was experiencing what my exes had felt like Was them and he was me He was on a whole nother level of fame and going through a very personal time publicly.”
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“No, it wasn't even that. That was the one before the last one. It was that I was frustrated that you have to almost. Fame is weird because even though people go personally not to post or not to speak or not to be seen, you can't live a normal relationship if you don't aren't seen. So even if I don't post a relationship. These people will hide and hide in bushes until they get a picture and then you don't want them to have the control of what they say it is.”
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“It's allowing opinions and poison to seep in that really do nothing for it. But can actually do something to it. And I think that my last public relationship.”
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“So funny because I wrote a book when I was. How old was I when I wrote a bloody autobiography at 12? You know, you get a book deal and you're like, okay. And when I look back at it now, it's like there's a whole section of like, I like ice cream. And I'm just like, who read this? And is it called Nice to Meet You? It's like my career so far in like 2012. And it'd be like six months in. But I remember... Obviously, with regards to me talking about relationships from the beginning, And the impact that I had positively and negatively to myself, my relationships, my career, how I hurt people, how people hurt me. I wrote this big chapter on love and personal love. And then I deleted it all and just put a little thing of I need to keep something personal. Protected because if I talk about everything so openly all the time.”
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“Trust wholeheartedly. But I don't need that many. And I'm grateful that I even have one because some people don't even have one And they're the people that I cry for too because I think about how lonely they must be. Look at my life. I'm so lucky and so grateful for everything I have. And I know that we've sat and spoken at probably the most worst parts of my life, like the most worst moments, but... I also live a life of absolute Peace and happiness that I couldn't even fathom. Someone would tell me that this is what my life was going to look like. I'm beyond grateful”
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“Have like five people. Childhood best friends. My parents are definitely people that we've gone through now. As you do with your parents Know we carry so much of our parents' good and bad. You know, and I think that all of us know that My dad, I remember me and my dad when the tables turned, and I had to go to him. Do you want to look at yourself? Like, I love you, but... Know, I carry some of your traits that I don't like that I'm trying to heal, and I'm sitting with you, and I can see you doing them, and it's irking me and irritating and like triggering me. And we need to talk about it, you know, and I'm grateful that I have. People that are open to challenging me as much as I am challenging them. But you know, I don't have that many people that I”
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“Probably something I'm working on all the time is that I do let people in. I definitely give people... More than they give me Most of the time, you know, but I also think that's my nature. Like I'm a hostess. I'm a very caregiver. I like to cook and entertain and like care for people and look after people. I think there's a thin line of people presuming that I have someone else that's going to do that for me. And then also people that isn't just that that's not their love language. But also, I'm very guarded, and I think that definitely in the last few years I've got way more clothes in I wouldn't say that I have a fear of I'm funny about people letting people in. I think I let people in, but maybe not to the real, real me. There's only a few people that really know. How much my brain is always working.”
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“And I know that may not make any sense to anyone I just imagine him there. I feel safe and I feel calm. Yeah, he's definitely given me A gift that I don't think he even ever knew he did. Think he realized how special he was to me. Which I hate And I wish I could have protected him from himself like he protected me from myself. That hurts me the most. I know he would want me to live my life as hard as I could. Know which is why I do try and make decisions that I know only propel me to a happier and more peaceful and secure environment for myself and my future family.”
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“Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Or we'd just laugh because we'd be like, if someone said something stupid, he'd be like, wow. And it was just like he just got me, you know, and it's very hard to find people like that. And I do believe that you're right when you said about expectation. I think that when you've experienced I've had a handful of people in my career that Loved me and seen me and heard me and felt me and understood me and respected me and elevated me. Consistently that are still here with me or aren't anymore for whatever reasons whether they've moved on or they've passed away I think it's hard that when you've experienced that Want anything. It's weird, like I feel sometimes feel safer. Talking to Dave, this probably makes me sound crazy at an event and imagining him there than I do with another security guard.”
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“Oh my god, he was the biggest Jokar, the biggest clown. He would send me shit while I was sitting in the voicair to try and make me laugh. And like, we just had all these jokes, and we lived in this house in Australia together. It was whale season So we would watch whales, like we would sit and have dinner and then we would sit when we bought binoculars and we would sit and watch the scene, see if we could find Wales. And so it became this thing that every time we'd be in the middle of a conversation, we'd be like, whale, and then we'd all run to the window. So it became that thing for years that like if there was an awkward moment or one of us wanted to leave somewhere, we would say, whale. Was like our code theme. Random”
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“Things that those people gave me in my life. Things that I know I have to find in myself. My anxiety comes a lot from my fear of not being safe. And Dave gave me that. And Jamal always gave me self belief, which is like my biggest anxieties are self-belief and my fear. And so losing those two people in my life. And then obviously the baby was just such a huge part of who I want to be in my life and what I want to give to my children one day. I think that's why the grief is so present right now because I'm in the process of trying to give myself the things that they gave me. Yeah, the very special guys. And Dave was. hard work. Hard work. Hilarious Took no bullshit. And have my back 100%. And I've not had anyone like that since.”
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“Their own life and their own group of friends that they hang out with, like that they talk to and that they do the things that they enjoy. And like, I don't want my life to become your life or to feel like we have to be intertwined all the time. Like women have grown up with blogs and magazines and books and this, that and the other. And that's one of the things I loved about you. And this is why I said yes to talking to you because. Men don't talk enough about how they feel. Point blank, you know Almost raised to go be respectful to women, you know, or not, it's not be respectful to yourself, you know. And I watched people react to Dave, who was this big, six foot five, tattooed. Guy going, Are you going to beat me up before they've even spoken to him It's crazy because the tears. Between Dave and Jamal and even the baby, like.”
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“When you're on tour, you want to be at home, and when you're at home, you want to be on tour. And there's this push and pull of like, where do I belong? Like, I want to keep moving, I crave stillness. But when I'm at home, it's too still. When I'm on, you know, when you're on tour, it's too much moving and you crave stillness. And then when you're still, it's like, I need to move, you know, so I knew so much about him and he knew so much about me. And I protected him as much as I could as he protected me. Yeah, I mean, like, one of the most important things for me now, and has always been that because of my dad too. Is men need to talk. Like, whenever I've got into a relationship, I'm so adamant on my partner having.”
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“Was go for a walk after the show, whether it was 2 a.m., it was raining, get me outside, I need some air, I need to come back down to earth. I need my ringing and my ears to go. I need to like have a packet of crisps or a sandwich. I just need to, like, and usually no one would be out because it would be late. So I could walk around, like I'd be in the rain, soaking wet and be like, you're going to get sick. And I'd be like, germs make you sick. Rain doesn't make you sick. You know, so like we would have these conversations and obviously I knew him and I knew his own battle with his own sadness and his own, when you tour for a living.”
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“Because it was just me and him. Like, he's my security. He was just, I would make him get on the roller coaster. He'd be like, no, no, just watch. Know it's an unusual experience to be pushed together with someone that closely for so long And to experience theme parks and traveling and aeroplanes and delays and hires and lows. And we would, every after every show, one of my things that I like to do, which I don't often do anymore now because it was a how thing.”
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“For years and years and years and years and years through me trashing a hotel women in Australia when I lost my mind to me fancying this guy that he told me not today or having the best success of a song or selling out a show or not selling out a show or having to cancel the show or he was the person that came to visit me the first person that came to visit me when I would just have my operation when I was told I couldn't have kids like he was my guy like he was my big brother When there was turbulence, he held my hand for nine hours on the plane. Like, when you've gone through those experiences, but you know you can only grieve alone because no one else has experienced those moments with you, like that was what was the hardest thing for me is like no one else was a part of really our thing.”
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“Yeah, I mean, it's interesting because Up until Dave passed, passing, I've lost people that I know of, you know, but like. Real close people, like he was one of the first and The hardest part of me, like. Losing someone like that, and I speak broadly for anybody that's lost someone is when you've had experiences that no one else knows about. So when you lose somebody that he woke me up every morning and was the last person I'd see close my hotel room door before I went to sleep and would put on the do not disturb and be like, right, see the morning bos”
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“My body can do it, not even everyone's can do it, you know. And it's honestly brought me to some of the happiest moments that I've felt because it's literally given, it's opened the door for me to love myself deeper. I'm still processing the whole thing and I still have moments of intense sadness and grief, but I also have moments of excitement knowing that I won't do it alone.”
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“It's a weird one to talk about because it's such a head trip because you're grieving not so much even so much the baby time you lose a baby. You know, I can't even imagine like. Women having stillborns, and I just can't even fathom that. And I. You're grieving the life that you imagined. That you prepared in your mind as well. Almost a bit like, you know, when you're really, this is a really stupid metaphor, but when you're really excited for a holiday, and then it gets cancelled and you kind of go, yeah, it's okay, I don't mind. But inside, you're like, I just bought all these outfits and I got this and I've got that. It was like that times a million But I always will look for the silver lining in any moment of pain and sadness. And Grateful that I got to experience being pregnant and I'm grateful that I got to experience.”
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“How have so many people experienced this? It's just, and more than once, like numerous times, and I just remember laying there. Knowing that it was still there, but it wasn't there. And that went on for like because, you know, it was a long time, it was over a week that I had to then go and do it in a non-natural way. And it just It was just the saddest thing, but at the same time. I knew that the reason it happened was because I wasn't supposed to do it alone. I stand by that now. I knew as soon as I found out that the baby had gone, I found my mom and I said, I know that I'm not supposed to do this by myself. I know that I'm supposed to find someone that wants this as much as I do.”
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“I got home and I opened my front door and I closed the door and I fell to my knees. And that was the worst moment of the whole experience was me realizing that. Other than my career, being a mother and having a child has been the biggest. Excitement of my life. Like, I've always been super maternal. I love children. Just always been something that I can't even explain. People go like, you know, do you want to be a mom? It's just something that I think that you gravitate towards or you kind of learn to gravitate towards. But I felt like I'd been given everything I've ever wanted and then someone had gone, but you can't have it. But it was still there. You know, I was still, and I would sing to it every night. And, you know, and so when I got home that night and I laid there, I've never felt so lonely in my life. The empath in me was like”
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“Even women I know that I didn't know and I hated that I didn't understand I couldn't support them in the way they needed me to because I didn't know it's such a painful physical painful emotional painful experience that you almost don't want to talk about it because you need people to just to see it to know but it's such a it's such a it's such a trip you know and obviously everyone's experience is different because you know the way the baby passes or it's all different for everybody And so I remember the hardest part for me was Wasn't doing the show. The show was actually kind of a weird, trippy dream, and I was actually just really grateful that I wasn't by myself and that loads of people that I love turned up and came and were at the show. It was when I got in the car after the show, you know, by myself.”
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“I got on stage and I posted that post. I was by myself, I had no one advising me, my mom, my sister wasn't there to go, no, don't share this with the world, like make it real for you first. And I posted it. Because I didn't have anyone there to break on. I didn't have anyone to, I don't flip and cry again. I didn't have anyone to just fall apart on and just, and that's what I needed. That's what I wanted, you know. And so I did the show. The saddest point of that whole experience for me, other than the painful part of it, which it breaks my heart that so many women have gone through it”
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“Going into the car park and getting in the car And one of the first people I spoke to was someone on my team. You know, and obviously, you know, they were supportive and understanding, but one of the first things I was asked was, well, what do you want to do about the show tomorrow? And even though I understood it, you know, I didn't at the time, I don't think I realized that that actually really shifted the way I processed the experience. I got home and I kind of was focused on how am I going to get through tomorrow's show? What is happening? Like, I'm now so everything here in my stomach. I'm really hungry. I need this. No, I remember just going home and kind of not processing it. And I had a friend come over. And then the next day I went straight into glam. I did the sound check”
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“The baby's heartbeat is very weak, and I was like, but it's still there. And she's like, Yeah, it's still there. And that's when I went onto the street and I cried, and the man came up to me and said, you know, if this is happening because You're supposed to talk about this. You're supposed to help other people. Instead of going to get bloods, I got in my car and I said, I'm going to go and get a second opinion. I didn't go and get the bloods ever. And I phoned around some friends and no one was available and everyone was at work. And I ended up being able to go and see another doctor very quickly and he only had about 10 minutes before he had to go into a surgery. And so I went in very quickly and he did another scan and he said, I'm really sorry, there's no heartbeat. That was about within about three, four hours of the first one. I”
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“Something wasn't the same, and I called a doctor because I hadn't actually discovered who I was going to have as my doctor yet because it was still quite early. And I'd gone to see my doctor in London because I was there when I found out. And I went to the doctors and that dreadful silence when you first have a scan and they kind of don't say anything. And I was like, just tell me the truth. What's going on? And she said Your baby's heartbeat is very low. There's this like ring. And I was like, well, what does that mean? And she said, It often means that the baby will have some sort of disability or deformity. And I said, okay. She said, you know, we can have you tow and take blood today and then in a couple of days and just to see if your hormone levels are moving to see if the baby's still growing.”
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“Until I fired everybody. No, it sounds so savage. It's so amicable and everything's fine. But no, I mean, I do have a lot of team, you know, a lot of them are in the UK still. And I do have people here. But I have friends here. And I remember I got here and I was very sick and I was just like, right, I'm going to start working out and eating good and like getting on a routine and like I have my house and I'm in the sun and then I woke up one morning. I was like, oh, I don't feel right. I still had very intense nausea. I just knew something”
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“Yeah, and just say, like, because I was so sick. You know, I was like, people are going to know. You know, it's, so I just remember kind of landing in LA and I was by myself, you know. I live in LA by myself. And I have friends and I don't have any family here, but like I have my team, well, I did have my team.”
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“And then when I decided to do that first show, I remember the day before I found out the baby had passed, I was with a friend of mine. I was like, how am I going to do this show and not tell everybody?”
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“Overwhelmed with like your whole life just kind of instantly changes. You feel like you're carrying the most precious cargo, even though it's the size of like a bean sprout. You're literally just like, and it's a secret, but it's, and I'm such an open person. And it was such a new experience for me to... Go through something. That so many people could relate to But not want to tell anyone, but want to tell everybody. But no, I shouldn't, just in case. But then it's like, but it's also something that so many people have gone through. So it wasn't like a, you know, and I was just like, what do I do? And then when I booked these shows. Obviously, I'd booked them. I think I'd booked them before I even knew.”
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“The amount of women that are told that, and then they have children, you know, and a lot of it's mental, you know, and where our bodies are at. And obviously, when I was going through all that pain and discomfort was when my life was in complete, utter chaos with my career and my diet and everything, you know, like your mind, your body's so powerful. And as I've gotten older and my life, as I've kind of tranquilized, like been able to find tranquility and the chaos and, you know, like just my pain is so much better and I'm not on any medication anymore. And, you know, so when I fell pregnant, it wasn't, I know that I know that getting pregnant I don't think would be the issue for me. It would be staying pregnant. And so when I fell pregnant. I was”
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“Yeah, and I had two scans in the same day and within the first scan and the second scan the baby had passed. And it was such a... I mean, the whole experience was so spiritual for me because obviously I'd been told it wasn't going to be easy for me to get children. And realistically, I'm still discovering that now I think that any woman can say that.”
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“Archived it A moment of being human, I was just like You know what it was? It was a moment where I actually had it up and I wasn't in a space to keep posting, but I was tired of going back to my page and that being the thing that people saw because I wasn't in that space, but I wasn't in a... Hi guys, I'm gonna sing you a song space or a like. Anywhere near, say, the few posts before it yet. So let me just archive it and just kind of go back to zero”
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“Energy around me, what I want my career to look like, what I want my music to feel like, what I want the people to be around me to feel like I love to work hard, but I also like people around me to have a life.”
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“Demand more from myself and from other people in my career. You know, me and him had so many plans of projects that we were doing together, as I'm sure you guys were probably supposed to connect in some way. And I know that wherever I Supposed to receive from him. For those things, I have to find within myself. Because no one will ever be So, sorry, I'm so crying right now. Like, I'm such an emotional person and I really live from feeling. I'm not afraid anymore to be. Vulnerable, and I think that the first line of change with anything through grief or anything like that is talking about how you feel. And I think that I'm now in the next few months aware that I'm going to then start actioning the change that I'm speaking about within myself.”
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“When I sang at his homecoming and everyone was like, how did you do that? I said, because I was singing to him. I was singing for him. It wasn't a performance. You know, I know that. Would have loved that I just hear him going, geez, you know, like come on, you wearing vegan shoes and that. But I think that the biggest thing that you learn when you lose someone so young that you love and admire so much is that life is too short to sit anywhere other than where you're supposed to be. If you're sitting at a table where you don't feel like you're being fed, even if you're bringing a plate of food Politely just leave, you know, and I know that he has inspired me to.”
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“Being told that you're a great singer was enough, like it often wasn't, you know, and I would phone him and he would just remind me of, I mean, I met when I was 17, just remind me of the bigger picture and just his energy and... The fact that he talked himself into every room and then talked about everyone else. You felt his power when the world found out he had gone. Everybody was sad. Even people that didn't know him. Because Legacy that's been a word that's been used a lot with him Funny because The biggest legacy that I think he Businesses he started and things he invested in and platforms he created to elevate everyone else. It was the feeling that he gave people to me that was his legacy. That's why I miss the most.”
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“Yeah, it's crazy how much time he made for everyone. I can't. He was like so special. And when someone passes, you always want to remind everybody of like, Good that they were, but he was In another league of I can't explain it. Like when I was standing. At his funeral and just looking around and the impact that he made so one-on-one with everyone he knew because he never said no. He always had the time. I know how much he wanted to live life and how Unfair, it feels that of all people. That could have happened to that it happened to him. I know that his passing has enabled Me to make the decisions that I'm making in my life right now and my career with more. Strength and belief in myself. Jamal was someone that I spoke to I didn't want to do this anymore when I didn't feel like.”
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