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Jessie J

lines on the record: 132
first: 2022-05-02
most recent: 2022-05-02
sittings or episodes: 1
sources: podcast

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“Break up my first breakup that was kind of public because I was with someone that was, you know, was famous. Just discovering myself, you know, like it was really the first time that I'd had fame in America too. And so like when I was famous in the UK, like I obviously came here a lot. And it was kind of great because I was like, oh, I could just do whatever I want and no one cares. So it was kind of like I could just escape to just live completely in the knowledge that I would leave my house or my hotel. And for the whole day, no one would be like.”
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“Look up and manage my pain, and that's when I went plant based. That was, you know, years and years and years ago. And it definitely helped and improved. And I changed my lifestyle and kind of slowed my pace down, you know, after that record, the bang bang, sweet talker record, and I took a long time, not off, but just low down. And that's... When I wrote the Rose album, and so there's like behind the scenes, there's always a story for everybody. But yeah, that moment was super pivotal for me.”
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“Had an operation that they took all the endometriosis out. I went home. I still live with my parents. I went home and I was still in agony and I was still having the episodes. And so I went back into hospital and they did another operation where they discovered I have adenomiosis, which is a form of endometriosis that goes into the wall of the uterus. So they're little cells that you can't take out unless you take your uterus out. We were like, you either manage the pain, which at the time I was like, How do I do this, or we take your uterus out right now? And I was, what, 26? And I was like, and he was like, I would recommend you to do that. This is only going to get worse. And I said, I'm good Go home and I'll look at other ways I can.”
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“Oh, yeah In the middle of a really major busy time for me, it was right before bang bang. And I was all doing all these different shows. And I basically would have this extreme pain, like agonizing pain. I would pass out. It was awful. And they were like, you have IBS. And I was like, no, I don't. I know I don't have IBS. And they would just be like, yes, you do. That's what it is. And I was like, no, I know myself. I know my body. I know it's not IBS. And I stuck with it and I was like, I went to kept going to see different doctors. And I finally got diagnosed with endometriosis, which is very common.”
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“The show must go on. I after that show, I surrendered to my pain and for nobody else but myself. And that's something that I don't think I've ever done. And a lot of grief came out, grief of grandparents, of friends, of people that I've lost, that it all came out in that moment. And still is, to be honest, it was only four months ago that this happened, five months ago. I feel like a lot of grief that I had stored in in interviews where I was like, you know, and you've just got to find this. And it's always looking for the silver lining. I actually just enabled myself Just break open and be miserable and sad. Not have a quote at the end of my Moment and just go, No, it's shit, and I'm broken, and it's awful and I'm sad. Knowing that the light would come, and it did, and it is. Knowing that speeding up my process of grief.”
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“Yeah, for sure, but it isn't always the case. But I think it's just understanding that. Like understanding that. After I did that first show A huge part of me regretted it I was angry that I reacted as Jesse J. I reacted as my brand. I reacted as I need people to know I'm okay. Like I don't want people to think I'm this always sick, always ill, always have something going on. Like, didn't she just go deaf? That's the comments. Didn't she just, you know, like when you go into a new relationship, you'll be like, wasn't she just with so-and-so? And it's like, and that was two years ago, but they live in a little bubble of when they want to discover things”
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“Have a different perspective than someone else that might not, that I can share that with them and give them a different perspective as they can me. But obviously I do it on maybe a bigger platform. Is such an amazing feeling for me To be able to give that to someone that can't find it on their own.”
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“And I have experienced so many things that are so randomly rare. And then also I've experienced things that aren't rare at all, but no one talks about. And the amount of women and men that have been close to someone losing a baby or having infertility issues or losing children themselves or even women that have had children that don't know how to connect with their children, talking about that pain. Not only help me but helped other people. And I know that, like going back to what you asked me before, like I know that's so much of my purpose, as much as hard as it can be in moments. I get so much peace from knowing that. That I know I can handle”
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“I was standing there and I couldn't move. I literally just stood at this bush for like two hours and I was phoning everybody that I knew to try and answer the phone and just because I was by myself, I was in Santa Monica. And this man came up to me and said, I don't know what's going on in your life in this second, but I know that it's happening so that you can talk about it and help other people. I remember just going, that's the story of my life and the anger I felt where I was like, why can't this just be Why do I have to help someone else? And then I realized that is what I've been called on to do. Like, I know that what I do is so much bigger than me. It's not about the song or the accolades or the awards or this. It's about the feeling that you can hand over to someone that they can't find themselves.”
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“Jesse Jay and Jessica Koonish. Jesse Jay is just a brand name. They go hand in hand. They're the same person. You know, like the reason that my music exists is because my life exists. I write about shit I go through. You know, so I want to stand in the middle of the pain, even when it's terrifying and you're being exposed. But even in that moment, I was like, I know this happened for a reason. Like the day that I found out that the baby had died, this man, and I can't make this stuff up and I always wish someone would see these things happen. But I was on the street crying uncontrollably. I felt like my body had gone numb. Like I was just on the street and I...”
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“How long was that for? It's kind of been my whole life, you know, even up until recently when, you know, right when I got my voice back and I started doing these shows and I finally was told I could sing again and I find my agent and I was like I have to do like a I don't know like a residency somewhere and I started doing these acoustic shows and I was like I really want to do stand up You know, I want to do comedy. I want to make people laugh and sing. That's literally my purpose, right? And then the day before the first show, I have a miscarriage. And I still went and did it. You know, not because the show must go on, but to me, like...”
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“I'm like, maybe that's why it happened. I just feel like I've been protected by My health being what other people would see as bad, but every time something happens to my body, I'm always like, okay, what am I not listening to? So I feel like that's my personal way of looking at it and my journey. So, like, when you say”
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“Don't fuck this up. When my life has gone like this, it's always kind of gone, take a second. And for a long time, I felt like I was cast with this spell that like every time I kind of got somewhere, like I was just about to break America and I broke my foot and I had to pull out of an opening for Katie Perry on tour and all these things that like, you know, you've got your thing, you sit with your team and you go, this is going to happen and this is great. And it was excited. And then I get sick. And, you know, even Teresa, I was about to release my album and my first single and then I was in a car accident and I had a throat issue or I had nerve and tissue damage and I couldn't sing and then my meneas and I went deaf in this ear. But now I don't even want to release the album because I don't really like the music.”
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“A very young age, a very pivotal time of my career kind of starting to take off in a more of a, this could actually be my life way. My body would always keep me safe, even though it was shutting down. It would always just remind me to go, you're not superhuman, you could die.”
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“It's so weird because, like, when people go, my God, you had a stroke, and I'm like, yeah, I don't even think about it. I don't define, I don't want to define myself on it. I don't want to introduce myself with it. Because I'm grateful it happened because if those things hadn't happened in my life, you know, the maniers, the uterus issues I've had, the fertility thing, the miscarriage, like you grow in moments of sadness and pain, you know, and I grew up in those moments and I didn't take my body for granted. And I think it's actually given me more moments of beautiful success and joy in my life, not drowning my body in alcohol and drugs and having to take moments of still and resting and It was almost like”
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“I work there doing now jazz, now art, and I was like, I don't feel very well. And I was like doing a lot. I've always been someone that's over exerted myself and probably doesn't know when to take a break. Yeah, I lost the feeling on the right side of my body for almost a month. And now all my issues have been on this side, like this side of my body. So I know, like...”
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“Believe in medicine, and as much as other people do. But I think it was funny because I actually got to a point where I felt a lot stronger and I was in a stride and I was like, you know, I was in a girl band and I was at the Brit school and I was like, I'd cut my hair and I was a Vidas Assoon model and I was like, you know, I'm starting to feel like I can fit in and I'm not the sick kid that can sing, you know, and then I had a stroke when I was 17. And then it kind of again took a dip and then I'd get back on my feet and I get signed and then I broke my foot.”
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“Not very long. I mean, it was chunks of time and I had an ablation, which is like a little operation they do where they put two wires through your shoulder and two wires through your groin and they try and kind of electrocute your heart into a normal rhythm and it didn't work. So I get irregular heartbeat now, but I just don't take any medication. I believe in good diet and like how I feel and I try and do everything the holistic natural way.”
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“And obviously, since that moment, that experience, and then when I wrote the song, I'd also gone through a lot more health staff and experiences. But that was the most human thing I'd ever seen, even though I wasn't conscious of the fact that it was.”
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“And I said to my mum, I was upset. And I just remember saying, why, you know, why wasn't he here now? Like he asked so nicely. And my mom just said, you know, sometimes God needs his angels closer to him. And I remember that moment stayed with me for years. You know, I was probably 10 when that happened. And when I was 16, 17, I had to write a song about it. It was the first song I wrote. And it stayed with me. That was the way I needed to let that feeling out, you know, of like everybody's looking at me and everyone's staring at me. What do I do now? I smile because I'm still here. I don't want to be here. And I don't remember what I felt like before.”
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“Yeah, so I was in a, it was a ladybird ward, and there was a little boy in the room with me. Praying and had like all of these tubes and you know like the bloodlines and stuff can't remember what this what's it called I don't remember what it's called but like he would just had all these things and he was just going please don't let me die I'm so scared don't let me die God I want to I want to stay here I really want to be here and he was I can't he was probably Ten or eleven. And I woke up and I remember just sitting and watching him for hours. Just listening to him, and then the next morning I remember seeing his mum come in and just taking all the balloons.”
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“Yeah, for sure Even people that hurt me, I feel bad for the people that hurt me because I look at why they've hurt me as opposed to the way I feel. Again I try and use it as the best I can because I know it's just who I am.”
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“Let out for the day to go and do rehearsals for Bugs in Malone, and then I would go back in. So I'd be on a drip at the rehearsal. So there was always this kind of balance that kept me present in myself and I almost think that that's been my blessing in my life, like my health has always kept my feet on the ground. In many ways I never remember being in hospital and being aware of what I was going through. Every memory I have, I'm always thinking about the people I watched and remember like looking at going, God, they need a magazine or they haven't eaten anything today. Or I wonder how they're feeling. I don't remember being in pain or... Coming around from an operation, it's weird, it's trippy. It's almost like it didn't happen”
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“Yeah, so it always starts in a forest and it's like an episode of Black Mirral. So me and my sisters and my dad were in the park and he said, right, let's race to the car. So we started to run and I just remember I couldn't breathe and I collapsed and the next thing I remember is my dad picking me up and run into the car. We got into the car, we went to the hospital and my dad has WPW. My granddad had WPW, which is a heart problem. And so that was the first time I was taken in with a regular heartbeat. I was put on very heavy medication as a child, which would cause me to have like seizures and pass out and have, like, it was just awful. So I was in and out of hospital a lot as a child. It was weird. I remember.”
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“The first memory I have, I think I was eight and we were in Eppin Forest. If you've been to Epping Forest. Probably not. Well, you can go, it's lovely.”
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“Yeah, I make a joke, but I use it in a way to allow people to feel safe, including myself, to bring out the sadness and the pain, you know, and to Talk about something really, really intense or go through a moment that's hard, but then make a joke or make light of the situation or laugh at ourselves, you know, and like go into bird's eye view and look down and go, look at us a lot. You paid 30 quid to come and cry. You know what I mean? And it's like, and it's that thing of you just come in, tapping back into reality and just going, oh God, like it's not, I'm not alone. It's good to laugh and laughter can feel as to me as connective as crying with someone as being intimate with someone. There's that thing that you have where if you're really in that moment, it's such a release.”
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“And you always feel safe when you're very, very sad and then you laugh, the emotion is always kind of, they intertwine. Like deep sadness and like intense happiness are so close together. That like feeling when you're at a funeral and everyone's crying and then someone makes a joke and everyone bursts into laughter, like that's the line that my dad is incredible at kind of balancing.”
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“Well, my dad is a Pisces through and through. He's an emotional, honest, hilarious, very sensitive, stubborn man. And so growing up, he's very in touch with like his feelings and his emotions, which isn't common in a lot of men, you know. And we grow up talking. And I spent a lot of time with my dad when I was young. He used humour in his job, and with us as me and my two sisters and his relationship with my mom, he made her laugh. And even now, my dad's humor is his defense, his way of hiding, his way of making friends, his way of healing. And him being a social worker, I was always that beautiful thing where he used to ride the line where he would open you up. Know that you were going to cry and then make you laugh.”
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“That's what I remember the most from my childhood, like more so than anything else. Like, it's weird. Like, I was in hospital a lot of my childhood. I never ever thought I was sick because my mum and dad never treated me as if I was. Like they would, it would never, it never became a definitive of who I was, which is, I think, even why now I don't define myself on that. I don't want to, even when other people try. But there was just always this air of making the best of whatever the moment was. Even if it was tough”
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“Yeah, I mean My mum and dad, I didn't grow up with loads of money, like, we weren't hard, hard up, but we weren't rich. But when I think about it, again, like the one thing that I've learned from my parents the most is it doesn't matter about the things and the specifics. It's about the energy you create within what you have. So like we would go camping in the garden and my dad would pretend to be a bear in the middle of the night. And I believe to this day it was a bear. Like, you know, my mom's like looking out the window because she's gone in because she's like, I ain't doing this. And my dad's... Yeah, my dad's peeing in a bucket. Yeah, they're still doing it. Like, not in front of us because that would be weird. But just they used to just create these experiences and it was all about feeling and...”
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“He was my guy, and I wish I could have protected him from himself like he protected me for myself. That's that urged me the most. Between Dave and Jamal, the things that those people gave me in my life are things that I know I have to find in myself. You've got this bougie's place and you've got kitchen. Oh, I”
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“I felt like I had been given everything I've ever wanted and then someone had gone, but you can't have it. I've never felt so lonely in my life. 2015-16. It was really the first time that I'd had fame. I didn't have to cope with it. So I just panicked all the time. I just want to sing. The day that I found out that the baby had died, I didn't have anyone to just fall apart on. And that's what I needed. That's what I wanted.”
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