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Jonny Wilkinson

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“Not just after an end of a career but daily to have that quiet period every day where you just sit not with ideas I'm going to think about this or I need to plan this or I need to work out what my passion is but just sit and just disconnect from that pull of the external eyes closed and just watch but of course straight away comes in as am I doing this right what should be happening should I be feeling something I haven't had any ideas it's been two weeks but just do it Do it in the name of moving to your potential. Because we were so willing to”
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“Yeah, I definitely agree. The idea about following your highest passion. There is a passion, I think, deep down for expressing who you are. And there's no doubt for me that rugby for that period of my life was what I was meant to do. That's how I was supposed to play out. That was what I was supposed to be at that time. But then your passion changes slightly, and to be able to Leave the rugby and follow that passion. Often I think people say, you know, it's really difficult to find my next passion. But I think having that kind of ability to leave behind what's been is what allows passion for what can be. And I think like we were saying before about wanting to finish your rugby and then you think, I'll go straight into coaching because it's close enough and people still know me. But actually to have that period of”
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“People talk about getting to a happy place, but that's what's my highest passion excitement. Oh, what I love to be doing now painted, picture it, think of it, dream it, feel it, all those kind of things. All these things are amazing things to be doing. And if you're following your highest passion, if you're enjoying and embracing this moment, I spoke to someone recently saying that, you know, to know you're on track for your future manifestations of your dreams, the indicator is often how deeply are you embracing and enjoying this moment now? And once you find yourself loving this moment it's amazing how much things just fall into place for you. And I think that's the key to be able to say whatever it is, whatever you can do. It and bring it to this, and I think That voice that says Oh I can't do this”
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“is a journey that just looks after itself, you know, it's on a physical level, it's the do what you, the little things you can do, set goals, and allow them to, you know, what you focus on what you can do and allow it to expand and grow into the most amazing things is the same way of just doing that on an internal level, is just follow your highest. It might be physical. Might just be things I love thinking about. If it comes down to being, you know, you're stuck in a lift. You're kind of like, and it's a tiny lift, and you're going to be there for maybe for a while. Okay, but.”
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“The universe responds by providing more and more opportunities to do more of what you like so that you, your highest and passionate excitement, the environment allows for you to really do more and more of what you really love doing. But you've got to start the ball rolling by saying, right, within this moment right now. How can I what's my highest passion excitement? How can I be how can I bring more of me into this as opposed to allow this to take away more of me? And I think that”
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“And people might argue straight away. Well, how can I do that if I've got to be at work at seven in the morning and I've got to do this and I've got to go and traipse across town to get here? Yes, but within the boundaries of what you have to do, what's your highest excitement? Follow that. So, you know, I've got to drive across here and it's going to take me two hours. But then when you're in the car. to what's my highest passion excitement. I love this podcast. Okay, go, that's it. Oh, I really want to listen to it. I've got that, my hands free. I'm going to phone so-and-so because I just thought of them and I really want to chat to them. Follow that intuitive instinctive, impulsive side that comes from what you want. And when that gains momentum I think the way it works is that”
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“I think that voice, that inner calling, as you just said, is passion and excitement versus the duty and the need and the fulfilling the roles, if you like, of society. And I think, therefore, For me, the way that works is that You add to the passion excitement Constantly and allow that to look after your deepest intention, which is always I want to spend, I think, all my time fully present, which means doing what I love doing, being who I feel I'm meant to be, as much as that will keep evolving and changing. So therefore it comes down to Following your highest passion and excitement in every moment.”
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“The best ever is all about doing. It's all about physicality. Best there can be a bit less, all I can be, drops the physical, and that's where creativity comes in. Being creative physically means moving stuff around. Creative which is effort, but being really creative means you can sit and just be.”
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“Massive measuring up, massive dependence upon other people's views. How do you know you're the best ever? Because someone says I do. Right, I'm going to work on you. I'm not going to work on myself. I'm going to work on your opinion. The second one, the best I can be, is an idea still. What's my best? Well, I was good then, so it needs to be that, but a bit more. Okay, it's still a strong idea. You're still limiting yourself. All I can be. is looking at the eye. Not looking at the rugby player. Because the best I can be is okay, I'm going to be the best father. I'm going to be the best. And these are all great pursuits, but they still don't match up to what about just this being how much can I be in terms of how can I explore my being, the best I can be still. Shifts over to”
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“Yeah, it just determines the strength of the idea or opinion behind it. I want to be the best ever is a very strong idea.”
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“And all I can be means go and beyond identity. The best I can be means within my identity. The best ever is within a very small identity. You want to be the best ever. That's a very small identity.”
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“I feel right now. And to set the environmental conditions internally. for creativity effortlessness, relaxation, excitement, passion, and ultimately on the spiritual level worthiness. And I think that, you know, when I say about for me, that's been where it's changed because you can't be fully creative and insist upon. Creation How it's going to turn out. Needing that guarantee that's control. I'm going to be so creative as long as it turns out like this. So you're not going to allow it to go anywhere new. You're not creating anything. You've got a blueprint you're organizing And I didn't after a while I think I realized I didn't want to organize and manage my talent. I wanted to celebrate it. And like you said, be all you can be. I want to see where it can go. I want to.”
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“is surely more of what's really who we are. And I think the thing for me, and that was that as a child I had that, I had that creative ability. And what I did was I embraced and I celebrated my creativity. As I got older, what I did was I held on to my creation. And that was another way of saying identity. So as I began to attach myself to what it was I was creating, instead of exploring the creativity and the process, there I formed the identity because it was the identity is look at what I create. You can't have an identity as a creator, because then it's still look at what I create I'm a creator, but to have no identity, I think, in that respect to be nothing on the inside, as they say, is to be everything on the outside. Allows you to create, and therefore such a real interesting moniker or marker rather for me How creative”
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“I think what comes to mind when you're saying that for me was, and it's also another way of looking at the identity thing, I think you're speaking about, is that The more I've released those boundaries of identity, the more I'm And there's nothing more creative than being in that zone, as I say, when those boundaries are gone. You're so creative. You suddenly see things and you put you join dots together in ways that you can't imagine they could ever have been. And yet it's so easy, it's so effortless. Creativity is an effort. is an effortless Kind of capacity that we have is not one that needs trying to be involved. When you're becoming creative, you don't try to be creative. That's the whole point of not being creative, is you allow and you explore. And what comes out...”
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“Because just enough of the old habits and the triggers come in with people around you saying, oh, you're doing great. So good to have you back in it. But of course it was It's just enough to hold you off making that step in the other direction. And that came later on.”
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“and is the need. I've got to get back to where I was, and this is such a powerful. Thought is that You want growth, you want progress, you want to advance and to explore and find new things, and yet the way I was going to do that was going back. That's how I was going to find new stuff. I have to get back to who I was and how I was. and yet deep inside me what I wanted was and what I began my journey was I want to find out what I'm capable of and what I was actually saying in this moment was I want to go back to what I've had That was a big, big moment. I just wasn't quite ready to listen to it. And as soon as you do get back, which I did for a little bit before getting injured again and again and again, which was the stress of all that need and obsession. It's enough to”
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“I crossed the line on her neck injury it'd been building for a long, long time over years and in that game it properly went and I spent the next couple of months without being able to move my arm and then surgery and all this talk about you may never come back and of course you've gone from this is what I do this is who I am to I don't really know what's going on anymore and now I can't even do what I do so I can't even be those solid lines I can't present anymore now I'm watching other people do it so it's an amazing coming together of circumstance to really point you and say hey what do you think should we have a look at something else It's like, nah. So I was on the exercise bike the day after my neck operation with a neck brace on. My brother came in and saw me. We were living together, saw me and sort of said, what are you doing?”
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“To others, they can see you because you've drawn yourself in solid lines and you can say, this is who I am and you can talk about yourself in that way. And it feels like that's purpose and that's kind of meaning and worth It's asking you to let that go, and that's humiliation, as we're talking about. It's a humbling journey. vulnerability and I wasn't ready for it at that time. Definitely not. What also didn't help was the game after that I first played after that for my club was two weeks later and in that game”
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“But it's so powerfully kind of beautiful in that way and the way that it allows you to at some point understand that there's also really great reason for why you feel that way because it's just it's a pointer to there's a disconnect here. It's nothing to do with what's going on the outside. It's just there's a misunderstanding here and an opportunity. But that opportunity, as you said, how do you move on to the next one? involves some vulnerability because you can't walk in the shoes of the same identity. But heading that other direction, the identity is the direction you're heading in. You need a new identity, a more spacious one, a more open one, but that's vulnerability. To do that, you have to shed those solid lines you've drawn up, which have kept you safe and given you your standoutness.”
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“But I think waking up the next morning is a big one, that night's sleep, you know, leaves you in the cold light of day when it's all you're looking sort of at the room and the hotel. And it's just as is. And it's not shining. You know, I've said this before a few times I've spoken. There aren't people waiting outside the door willing to hoist you on their shoulders and carry down to breakfast where you've got your own special table. It just”
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“Unfulfillment, and It is the Hollywood ending But of course, Hollywood films have that. privilege of the credits coming up and And leaves you with your imagination and your imagination always just, not in detail, but you just think, wow, how great for them. But of course, should that camera carry on for even another hour? You get something in there. And that's all it took after the World Cup final, you know. We went to a private party and you're sort of thinking, oh, we'll go there and have a chance to chat. That's going to be great. And when you get there, it's... These people, you know, this isn't private. Why are they letting you know? I can't even get here to see there's no space. It's already in. Going”
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“There is no one to blame. There is nothing to grab, there's nothing tangible that says the others stood there saying, you know, well, yeah, I got you there tonight. It's like... Where now? What now? And then there's also a little bit of that extra confusion as to say, well, what's the point of the next one?”
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“Just a sense of confusion and sort of bewilderment with the idea that There was a promise here. There was a promise, albeit one I've made to myself, but such a strong one, and a well defined one that said it's going to happen. I've worked hard for this. I've done all I was asked. I've done all I ask myself to do. Again, I keep sort of I can't abide by the idea that, you know, that there is this somehow this external. I used to use the blame and you'd sort of offset that responsibility and hand it over to somebody on the outside to say, oh, yeah, that's why I've been this way. But now, you know, it all comes from the inside. But even so, that promise felt strong. It felt real. It felt. And that you feel a bit sort of cheated, but also confused because.”
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“For I mean guess depending on how you look at the challenge it was for example the emptiness of the Just a bit more severe because winning the World Cup was the main goal. So winning the game and the sixth, the other, the Grand Slam or getting selected for this or that huge the little parts of emptiness after us that came was a bit less because one it wasn't the main goal and two was Because it wasn't the main goal, the main goal was still in place, which meant you were therefore still moving towards something. I think because the main goal was so important, but also afterwards there wasn't that clarity of where I go next. Yeah, that was a bit of a deeper drop into that space of what's this all about.”
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“I think it was a A sort of catalyst deepening or intensifying or an acceleration of what was already in place. Definitely. But it wasn't A brand new thing. It was just a bit of a deeper, I guess, experience of it that came.”
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“I mean, whatever flow state means to anyone, it's basically that kind of understanding, I guess that there was. For me what felt like a very, very immediate relationship between what I was desiring and intending on the inside and the manifestation of it. Almost instantaneous as opposed to the way people look at it, which is like I've got my goals and over time, you know, they're going to come together to form this. It was. It was almost kind of instantaneous in that respect. And that's where that sense of past and future disappeared because it was inside outside where you lost their separation.”
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“This happened with the 2003 drop goal. It's the one moment that I can say genuinely. It was happening without me involved. I was able to embrace it and enjoy it and experience it, but there was no me trying to do it. It happened whilst I was in it. But it wasn't me doing it”
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“Disconnected from the now, and you can have your past, or if you're going to allow that and have a different relationship with that, then you can have more of me. You can have more of the now. I think that's the same goes with the future. The more you carry your past, the more you're carrying your future at the same time. But that same principle applies. If you really want the now, it's a case of where you've got align with it and ask the now, you know, what's the now trying to do? Nothing. What are you trying to do? Something, okay? Well, there's the disconnect. And I think that's been huge in those moments. I always come back to that moment on the field when I'm in the zone. Your identity There's no it's me doing this, it's me trying to do this, there's just doing.”
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“Thus so big if I come into the now saying here I'm bringing a past in, can I get in the door? The now saying no, no, that key doesn't fit. You can't bring the past in here. You have to choose, you're going to live sort of.”
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“counterintuitive and counterproductive, there needs to be an understanding of how to relate to the challenge so that you don't face the same one over and over again. I think that's what I would have been interested to see was if you'd have gained some ground on that challenge then, what other challenge would have come? Not that would have been it, but it would have been a different route to see. But it's largely irrelevant. It's not something I ever think about because it's got what I've been through and what I've experienced in that way doesn't make me anything. Yeah, the past doesn't make the now. The now is the now. And I think who I am. is how I relate to that now, and if I'm carrying around this big idea of how I got here and what I've understood, I'm just separating myself from the now.”
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“and I needed challenge. I needed just like saying, if you keep winning all the time, you just see a plateau in your performance. And so I didn't want people to agree with me all the time. I didn't want to be written about in the paper as being the best all the time. Much as asked me before the game, I'd have said, please, just let me know everything's perfect. But actually looking back, I Those challenges, those moments of conflict, it's what asks you to step up and go again. So I needed the challenge. I needed all that suffering. But it's just where it crosses the line and becomes.”
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“Suffering, and you've got no room left for anything. And I think working with guys now is the best way to answer this, is that I'm kind of answering that question by working with people in that younger space. One thing that's certainly very, it's impossible to do anyway, but it's also not the right idea as to remove too much of someone's suffering because you remove growth. So when I say suffering, probably challenge is a better word. Obviously, we don't want anyone to suffer. But if you remove too much of the challenge, you remove the opportunity for growth. So in a way I was going to have challenge then in whatever form.”
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“It's a good one In some ways I would have answered that quite simply by saying It was when I was at my best I was already doing this so at 1718 when I was on the field in the zone I was operating at a level I couldn't even understand. And that's because I was having the mindset that I'm talking about now. I was already having it, and it was in those moments that I really shone. So it's not like I never had it. It's just that when I did have it in those years, I knew I was on to something. It's just the relationship I had was that in order to Get in the zone, I need to suffer like mad, and the more I sort of like started succeeding in feeling a bit of the zone, the more I said I better suffer some more. more suffering the more zone, but of course you just overload.”
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“You know, 80,000 people, millions on TV when everyone knows you and they're all thinking, don't worry, he's got this. Yeah, that's the moment”
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“Going to get injured, or you're going to, and I guess in a way when you pride yourself on that perfectionism and the achievements and which achievements basically also comes down to how other people see you, feel about you, what they think of you. And when you sort of, yeah, when you enter into that kind of space, Humiliation is perhaps the biggest fool. You know, that's the one when you pride yourself so much on being perfect. The thing that scares the hell out of you, I think, from a physical perspective, it's living and dying. an identity level as humiliation. And yeah, that was at the basis of a lot of the training was it would be so humiliating for me and the more well known you become, the greater the opportunity of humiliating.”
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“For me, that was always the guess why you could never rest easy because something went well. That was the time to be like, oh, you know, this is where your life might have lost out because I'm doing well. So life's now going to, how's life going to come back? Get me because I've just tricked life. You know, I've gotten something out of it and it's now like I'm going to want repayment for this.”
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“To have this fear I'm somehow not worthy or deserving of having what I want, how I want it, and therefore I've got to manipulate it by looking for what's going to get in the way of it and how can I control that to see if I can get some of it anyway instead of that feeling when you're in the now which is this universe is working for me We're friends. We're not, yeah, we're not trying to enter into a some kind of Tricky sort of I don't know shady deal where you know we're both trying to con each other it's like no no we're we're in this together”
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“and then learning from that, I was learning from the 99% where I was feeling so stressed and suffering and I was using that as my guide. I was using my head as my guide. And I think the undoubtedly the change in me has been to let go of the need to find an answer, to have that trust in that there is not going to be an answer. There is going to be an ever expanding, beautiful journey, which when you remove the answer, it's no longer a journey because it's not going anywhere. It's an adventure. And then that's what the now feels like to me. And I think for me that identity was a massive relative existence on a social level. How did I measure up? How did I compare all of that to do with trying to answer that problem? Basically,”
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“answer a problem, the identity was creating the problem, and the identity was about solving the problem. Had to keep the problem, to keep the identity, and I had to keep trying solving it to keep the identity as well. And it was never going to go anywhere. And I think my big. Issue with all that was I was trying to answer something. I was trying to find, as we said before, in a world made of nothing, universe made of nothing that's ever ongoing. I was trying to find that answer. and that answer for me was From an identity perspective was about working stuff out logically. And yet all my peace and my joy came from when my mind was. I guess inspired by my heart. I spent most of my time trying to almost I guess inform my heart through my head what I was trying to do I wasn't listening to that one moment where I felt beautiful”
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“That's the only difference between why you speak about expectation and fear of failure and pressure is just because you're in the cycle. It's not a reality to life. It's the reality to the cycle, certainly to my cycle. And when I'm outside of that, when I'm feeling good, for example, in the middle of the game where you're in the zone, if you could articulate anything in that sort of mind space, you know, what's the pressure like in there? Talking about how can there be a pressure to now when you're in the now? There's no consequences to the now because it's now there's no then or before or after so you can't have consequences, you can't have pressure. It's now, and so deeply understanding that versus the cycle, I guess was where I realized what I was trying to do with all this identity was answer something.”
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“So, trying to solve it by feeling reassurance to a fear machine, the fear machine just becomes a bigger fear machine that needs more reassurance to get the same hit. Trying to get that same hit just meant more, more reassurance. So you're building, I was building greater habits and needs to keep suffering. So I could keep solving, so you lock yourself into that cycle. And that cycle, when you're locked into it compared to when you're not.”
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“will suddenly turn into a joy machine. My suffering is going to result in joy. Interestingly enough, by feeding that fear with all the reassurance, whether it be hours and hours and hours upon kicking or training that's telling me, you know, giving me the greatest guarantee I could possibly hope for, which was no guarantee at all, never did anything, but it never sort of fulfilled itself, satisfied itself, but that was the best I could do to try and reassure the fear of that moment was say, look, I can do it. You don't have to worry, I can do it. But of course, as soon as I stopped doing it, the fear comes back and says, can you really do it? Better do another one.”
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“I think for me, perhaps overriding understanding, and it comes, I think, from a lot of the way I dealt my sort of immature days of trying to understand that fear and what was going to transcend it, what was going to help me transcend it. And that understanding was I'll solve it. And when I solve it, this fear is Machine”
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“To think you're going to get to the end of that for me to think I'm going to sort of find out why I'm here. What I think I'm going to find out is it's my choice to be here. And that's the beautiful part is the proactive reason for being here. As we said in the question, it was like, what's holding you here? I think now probably the way I really see that is what's my calling, what's my purpose when that's fulfilled. That'll be an interesting moment, but I don't see that being anytime soon.”
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“I still feel amazing, but then the next day, how do you feel? I don't know, I just feel a bit like this. Why? It's because each of those sessions that we're doing is like a light that shines into your garage where you think you've cleared out all the bags in your garage that you don't need anymore and then you think that's all clear. And then I'm slightly brighter light comes in the next day and you're like, oh, there's loads of stuff over there. I didn't see that. I better go and clear that. Now that the more you clear, the more space you find in there.”
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“Environment that allows you to go and explore this opportunity you've got ahead of you. And every time you find it, you can't find that state. It's because you're holding on to something. It's never because you don't know something or because you haven't learned something. It's because you're holding on to something you don't need. And you have sessions right at the end of it, people are feeling like, I feel amazing. And you kind of think, yeah, great, just wait till tomorrow because this idea is tomorrow.”
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“So, so interesting, that question at the beginning I'd have said, oh, you know, what I'm telling you about my fear. And then I'm talking about my need to survive and then unlocking that and going beyond it. And you think, oh, I understand it. And you get challenged again. Where did that come from? Ah, I think I understand that now I feel so much challenged again. Where do these challenges keep coming from? And I think that's the Part of me understanding what my stance is is an ongoing process, an ongoing process of just enjoying challenge and embracing it. I think I use the kind of Expression when I talk to some of the guys I train with and when they're doing this sort of kicking with the rugby. That it's all about sort of finding that absolute peace and inner peace.”
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“You know, I find it fascinating to look at, yeah, I've got a young child and I find it fascinating to look at children enter and they're all different. How are they so different? And then you say, oh, well, yeah, it might be to do with how their parents behaved during the sort of the months preceding the birth. Yes, but even then why the parents behave in that way goes on and on. And it just goes back to the same way that I still believe that we're all doing our best, but there's a part which we bring with us into this space. And I feel like there is nature and there's that nurture side, but that nature, yeah, but that nurturing has been going on forever, and it's important that we have a bias and a stance, because without it, I don't think you can have this physical experience unless there's something holding you in it.”
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“I'm very interested in the science side of it too, and looking at the desire of science to find what it is that we're made of and yet they keep coming up with it's nothing. And then they go to, well, what is it we're living in? And they keep finding out that it's unending. And yet who we are, we seem to manage to say, despite the fact it's made of nothing and it's unending, we found a way of saying, but we're made of this, we start here and we stop there. It just doesn't make sense to me anymore. Whereas before, you know, you live in those boundaries. What you see inherits those boundaries. And I think as I've released those, you start to not so much question, but just allow for different understandings to take hold. And one of those is that...”
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“I just tend to feel that it opens up a different understanding of memory, you know, if we're a process of that evolution, then the cells in our body have a memory that goes back a long, long way. And that's impossible to separate where we come from, from parents and where they come from from their parents, from their parents, from their parents, everything is all interconnected. But we put a stop and a start on it. And it seems, yeah, one of the things I find so, so interesting when looking at that is that”
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