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Jonny Wilkinson

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“Yeah, I believe that the. The role of karma is basically a memory and it's that kind of it's the way we've remembered things. And whilst for me, for example, when I'm stuck in that really physical identification of this is who I am, as in I'm me, I'm Johnny, and then I do have a start to my story and an end. But as I've been sort of exploring and letting go a bit more of that kind of physical identity of right now.”
2022-04-04 · The Diary of a CEO · Jonny Wilkinson: Winning The World Cup Led To My Darkest Days · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“People are always doing their best. And that's what I remember about our family the most is that everyone's always doing their best and I look at everyone now and realize that people are where they're supposed to be and just giving it their all and what's been so so powerful for me is just being able to switch that interest with what giving my best means is more of an unlocking and letting go and shedding than a what more can I grab and where that path turned around is perhaps where you know where I felt The true understanding of what this journey has been about as opposed to where I was looking to, where did it come from, what happened here, et cetera, et cetera. It's more of a kind of, ah, it was just about that.”
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“But there was just something in me which had latched on, and this is something I feel maybe it's something I brought with me into this world from a karmic positioning whereby I was always going to grab things that way I was susceptible to understanding things a certain way. But for me, you know, I... I sort of push my parents hard, yeah, I can't imagine it was easy, my brother too, in the way that I was. I was sort of I challenged them in ways. I didn't give up and a lot of that, like I said, was all of the irrational stuff came from the need for them. It was baffling. But they had their lives. And I appreciate that. As is always the case that”
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“No, I sort of, like I said, I'm heavily into the introspective side of all this and part of that kind of Search now for potential is where that's moved. It used to be grabbing the external and trying to expand physically, you know, what more can I happen? Yea expand my reach and presence on a physical level now know really no longer interest me it's it's how to allow my presence in that non-physical space and my sort of journey of looking into that has meant I've questioned everything and my upbringing was fantastic in terms of that you know and I had every opportunity to go and do what I wanted to do I have my brother there as well and my parents were all sporty”
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“I didn't have the choice. The other fear didn't just drop off and let me just sit down for a bit, so I could go and go and go and go.”
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“Martyr Saviour Archetype, and as such I found myself really, really uncomfortable with when things were seemingly going well. I found that horrendously difficult to handle. As a result, I would revert to that defense mechanism of creating problems. If there weren't, so I was constantly looking in a state of kind of survival for where the next problem was because I was convinced with this ever-present sense of fear that there was a threat and it was then. And so, yeah, those two paths essentially. In and out with each other throughout my entire life, but there was no doubt that my ability on the field at times to be in that zone was where I felt my genius, but at the same time The other strength I had was that for me it was do or die on the field, so therefore were other people kind of called it quits and threw in the towel.”
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“All I talk about, all I spoke about, all I did, and yet, on the other hand, I had this ever present fear that I built this, if you like, defense mechanism, coping, strategy, but ultimately identity. Around how to Somehow survive that fear and that for me that mechanism I put in place was I had to achieve. I had to be perfect and I had to, I guess ultimately take on the suffering and live that kind of.”
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“was a need that wasn't a desire, that the achievement, all that stuff was obsessive, but from a negative perspective, because I had this sense of doom surrounding everything. That was my disconnect, if you like. I saw other people handling situations that seem so simple to them, but for me insurmountable, and yet when they looked at me with regard to, you know, with a ball in my hand, what they thought was impossible for me just was relatively straightforward. And I think those two sides of my path meant that I had this constant. Drive to just find myself in a garden with a ball in my hand. That's all hours of the day and night most of the time.”
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“Had a real passion for exploring that it still is the case with me, I still find myself playing basketball and often so much of this I'll do on my own because it's my relationship with that inner capacity I have that interests me not to show what I can do but it's that sense of I guess being at home and that's where a huge amount of the revelations that I have in life come from from that kind of relationship however there was also another relationship which again without triggering event I grew up with an immense sense of doom and fear about everything. So I had this incredible sort of passion and inclination towards expressing myself with balls and skills and in competition as well. But the competition side.”
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“I think The best way of answering that would be to say that in my younger days and very young, without any Any kind of Events certainly not that I can remember or ever sort of come into contact with. I had enormous passion and some kind of adeptness. Fabul skills. So, if I had a ball in my hand, Things just made sense. I could work out. My sort of head, I could have some sort of target, some sort of goal, something to do with that ball and I could work it out. That was part of the intelligence I had was just I could bring those things about relatively effortlessly”
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“When I was on the field in the zone, I was operating at a level I couldn't even understand. Waking up the next morning in the cold light of day, I thought there was going to be joy here. I was convinced there isn't. I spent my life being very fit, but not really that healthy. Health is about what fitness can come out of, and unless you look after health, it's dangerous. People say I wish I'd made more of my life. Wish I'd enjoyed every moment. But that starts with health, working on someone else really doesn't work for anyone. But working on yourself tends to work for everyone.”
2022-04-04 · The Diary of a CEO · Jonny Wilkinson: Winning The World Cup Led To My Darkest Days · IDENTIFIED FROM THE TRANSCRIPT
“Me, it was do or die, and I feel. So therefore, where other people kind of call it quits and threw in the towel, I didn't have the choice.”
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